shanana

Well here it is the day after my birthday. And I am out of work. Things got to the point at my job where I could not handel the drama and all so I walked out. Nice right? Maybe not the smartest thing I have done in my life but I will take a few days to clean my house (cause it needs it) and...
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So my Im back ended up being a back into the hell of 60 hour weeks and a new project at work.

Social life. Well that kind of got fucked up when my roommate started getting high on crack in the house and going on three day bends and stopped paying her third of the rent. We have decided that we are not going to...
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Sorry about that folks my membership lagged there for a few days. But it is back on just like I am back.

I need to see what is going on in the Twin Cities so you people know I am still alive.

Let me know what is going on!

Shay

I know that I disappeared, but I am due to resurface around the weekend of the 24th. And I hope to go to ground zero July 7th.

Thank you to all of my friends who have been supportive even though they have not seen me in months. My trial is almost to an end and then it will be back to life.

Kisses

So many things in life dictate how we react to things and how we feel about things.

I am about to embark on two new things. One is forced, something I do not want to do. And the other is by choice. I hope the answers come quickly and without too much pain.

But then again, if I feel pain, I know I am still...
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OK OK OK....

I know I have not updated in like forever!

I am still alive. Just super busy with work and all. Plus I have joined a new book club and I am reading like crazy.

So to all of those who wished me well. I am.

To all those who wanted to know if I am still alive. I am.

And to all...
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I'm on song lately..... they are easier than writing my feelings.... this one is close to how I feel

Just Like A Pill

I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support,
there's a shortage in the switch,...
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Ok.. I am not going anywhere for a few months or so. But after that I will be gone. Not from the site... just from Minneapolis.

But on that note... a song....

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you,...
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Take a bow, the night is over
This masquerade is getting older
Light are low, the curtains down
There's no one here, there's no one in the crowd
Say your lines but do you feel them
Do you mean what you say when there's no one around
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
One lonely star you don't know who you are

I've always...
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I need a drink and it is only 10:48 am. My day started with one of the employee's calling in sick, we are already one short because of a family trip so now where we would have 4 employees we have 2 and that is counting me.

Then I get to work and the other employee that is suppose to work with me is not...
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I stopped my meds on my own.

So now I wonder. do I take them get ride of the depression? Along with losing the depression I lose everything, happiness, joy, anger. every emotion goes with the depression and it leaves me just NUMB.

I hate being numb so I stop taking them then I get like I am now. Sad, tired, irritated.

I catch myself...
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