I don’t want to live life everyday depressed. I want to wake up happy and at peace. I don’t belong in a mental hospital. I deserve freedom and a joyful life. I want fulfillment and to do things that make me feel alive. I want to live and not waste time. I don’t want to suffer and definitely don’t deserve to. I hope life gets better each day and not worse. There was a model I wrote to once and she told me my life will get worse and worse over the years that she’ll keep me in her prayers which was a terrible thing to say. That made me feel so upset and hopefully it’s not true lmao. I hope for the best and to always get better NOT worse