runelateralus

I feel like I should be doing something more constructive than playing video games on one of my many days off I will be having in this post holiday season.

But then I just end up watching TV or surfing stupid flash sites instead.

Well, I got to see how the new Metra schedule will be for my area. The good news is that now if I want to stay downtown later, I can. However, it will have to until 11 PM (though that is much better than 8PM than what I was originally restricted to)..

And it has to be a weekday, as apparently, no one in Orland...
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After my sudden rush of inspiration is recieved...I lose it really fast.

Two of those emails to Blizzard...yup, the attachment of my resume didn't go through. I resent them, but wow....I feel really fucking stupid right now. I really hope I didn't fuck up my chances. I would really love to get that job.

I won't the losing of an $80 replacement of Guitar Hero put me down. The incident happened around 10 or 11 PM and I won't let that put me down. 2005 is over and fuck it. I hope 2006 will be better. Granted that I keep saying something like that every year, but this year, I feel more confident. Probably with ending 2005 like that,...
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I am at a friends apartment for New Years right now. Guess who lost his fucking Guitar Hero game while walking there. That is right. Happy fucking New Year Mike....

And things seemed to be going so well.

It is amazing how much the end of the holidays can change your outlook.

Dec. 23rd, I felt lost and depress. I was unsure of where I was going. Stressed out. And very angry/bitter.

Then Christmas Eve came along. I looked foward to the day for a few reasons. First of all, the last day for holiday shopping...and luckily, it is not that busy (as...
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I have been extremely busy lately. Really really busy. So busy, I haven't had time to animate, draw, or play video games.

And because I haven't done those activities, I get to think about more of the reality that is around me instead of the fantasy that could occur in the future. And fuck...am I miserable.

I never felt so drained and felt so filled...
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The bad news is that I don't think the girl is interest...at least that is the impression I am getting right now.

The good news is other than that, last night was a blast. I had a nice white russian before the screening, went with my friend to a Jewel (grocery store) to pick a small thing of Vodka to sneak in so they can...
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13 days down...one more day to go. Then...I got my first day off in two weeks.

Seriously, I am so worn out. JC Penney's is killing me...especially mentally.

I really hope the retail grind will be out of me soon. I really want a real job....

I asked her out yesterday.

Good news is she didn't say no.





















She didn't say yes either. She said she is not sure if she has that time open (mainly if her class is doing anything before the screening) so....yeah. I never got a maybe before as an answer. Feels....very weird. Should I interpret it as no? She answers my calls, so it can not...
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A major cold started up yesterday. Ugh...

Add the fact that I was on my feet all day didn't help me or it. I was feeling really bad in the middle of work.

I am working 38 hours next week...which means I am working every day. In fact, yesterday started me working 10 days in a row straight (and 10 days is only consider if...
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