What the fuck is going on in my head these days? I want to get out and have some fun, but I'm just way too lethargic lately. There's also the whole branching out too far. I realize that not everyone has the best of intentions. Not all "out to get me " kinda bad, but not in my best interests.
And then the one person that for some reason gets to me on every level. I'm not cool enough, not punk enough, I don't drop everything I'm doing to go "hey, do you need a ride home from work?" And yet I can't escape the fucker, 'cause he lives with my best friend. It sucks because it deters me from hanging out with her because I don't want to deal with him.
Crap like this, coupled with my romantic loneliness, are really fucking me up lately. On that subject, Shit's really paranoid in my own head. I end up pre-judging everyone and writing them off just as quickly.
"I don't know how many times I've tried, to undo the knot you've tied."
-Bayside
What do I do to shake this thing? I'd really like to give the romance thing a try again, but I think deep down I'm way too petrified to.
"I would give anything to erase the past nine years of my life"
-Alkaline Trio
I'm glad I'm still not hiding all this shit with alcohol, though. But, the "liquid courage" would help me in this situation. Dammit. Damned if you do...
And then the one person that for some reason gets to me on every level. I'm not cool enough, not punk enough, I don't drop everything I'm doing to go "hey, do you need a ride home from work?" And yet I can't escape the fucker, 'cause he lives with my best friend. It sucks because it deters me from hanging out with her because I don't want to deal with him.
Crap like this, coupled with my romantic loneliness, are really fucking me up lately. On that subject, Shit's really paranoid in my own head. I end up pre-judging everyone and writing them off just as quickly.
"I don't know how many times I've tried, to undo the knot you've tied."
-Bayside
What do I do to shake this thing? I'd really like to give the romance thing a try again, but I think deep down I'm way too petrified to.
"I would give anything to erase the past nine years of my life"
-Alkaline Trio
I'm glad I'm still not hiding all this shit with alcohol, though. But, the "liquid courage" would help me in this situation. Dammit. Damned if you do...