Greetings to my SG friends.
This is my first post in quite a while. I started writing about my life and experiences because I thought it would help some people - help women understand their sexuality and deal with some of their insecurities, and help men become better lovers, husbands and boyfriends.
I suppose there's been some positives to come out of this, but in general what I've gotten is a lot of negative energy. I suppose this surprised me, as SG is an erotic site and I assumed most people on the site would be more understanding than the population at large. But you all were really bringing me down. not just comments - but the private messages from some of the girls on here - bleh.
Alas, that wasn't the case.
I don't know why I'm updating again - just felt the urge, I guess.
So, I'm out of the business for a while. I have a trip to Puerto Vallarta in May with a long-term client, and that's it. I've stopped taking dates and I haven't slept with anyone for money in over a month. Too much drama, too many wierd expectations and demands. There's too much going on in my life to deal with stress on every front, so I've given it up.
It's good, in that my energy is freed up to concentrate on other things - it's bad in that my income has dropped a little, and I've only had sex a couple of times in the past month.
Any takers? Any one want no-strings-attached sex with a pretty skilled guy, 2 hour + stamina, tricky tongue and good rhythm? I'll travel...
A few things in wrap-up.
Double-bagging a dong does not result in broken condoms, and if it does, all the better reason to double-bag. It does act (to a limited degree) as a cock ring and help maintain an erection, and it also helps decrease sensitivity (which is good and bad - you really need to be able to feel the inside of a woman). It also helps the women alot in terms of trust and confidence. They tend not to lay there wondering if the condom breaks, will she get something...etc.
For all those of you who allege that none of this sounds real because you don't know anyone who talks about themselves as these women do, reacts the way these women do, I have a simple question. How many 35 year old women do you know that have never had an orgasm, known romance, or been cared for sexually? How many women do you know that have 15+ year cycles of neglect and loneliness? How many women do you know who believe there is something wrong with their femininity because their husband insists on blow jobs several times a week, but refuses to return the favor?
It's insulting and stupid and ignorant to assume this isn't true just because it doesn't map to your own life experience. Fuck you on behalf of all my clients.
In all honesty, I don't really know if I help them. I'd like to think i do, but who knows, really. People are such a mess, most of them are beyond any real, lasting help.
If I make them feel good about themselves for an hour or two, even if it's just a charade, then that doesn't seem wrong...it may not fix anything, but it's something.
This is my first post in quite a while. I started writing about my life and experiences because I thought it would help some people - help women understand their sexuality and deal with some of their insecurities, and help men become better lovers, husbands and boyfriends.
I suppose there's been some positives to come out of this, but in general what I've gotten is a lot of negative energy. I suppose this surprised me, as SG is an erotic site and I assumed most people on the site would be more understanding than the population at large. But you all were really bringing me down. not just comments - but the private messages from some of the girls on here - bleh.
Alas, that wasn't the case.
I don't know why I'm updating again - just felt the urge, I guess.
So, I'm out of the business for a while. I have a trip to Puerto Vallarta in May with a long-term client, and that's it. I've stopped taking dates and I haven't slept with anyone for money in over a month. Too much drama, too many wierd expectations and demands. There's too much going on in my life to deal with stress on every front, so I've given it up.
It's good, in that my energy is freed up to concentrate on other things - it's bad in that my income has dropped a little, and I've only had sex a couple of times in the past month.
Any takers? Any one want no-strings-attached sex with a pretty skilled guy, 2 hour + stamina, tricky tongue and good rhythm? I'll travel...
A few things in wrap-up.
Double-bagging a dong does not result in broken condoms, and if it does, all the better reason to double-bag. It does act (to a limited degree) as a cock ring and help maintain an erection, and it also helps decrease sensitivity (which is good and bad - you really need to be able to feel the inside of a woman). It also helps the women alot in terms of trust and confidence. They tend not to lay there wondering if the condom breaks, will she get something...etc.
For all those of you who allege that none of this sounds real because you don't know anyone who talks about themselves as these women do, reacts the way these women do, I have a simple question. How many 35 year old women do you know that have never had an orgasm, known romance, or been cared for sexually? How many women do you know that have 15+ year cycles of neglect and loneliness? How many women do you know who believe there is something wrong with their femininity because their husband insists on blow jobs several times a week, but refuses to return the favor?
It's insulting and stupid and ignorant to assume this isn't true just because it doesn't map to your own life experience. Fuck you on behalf of all my clients.
In all honesty, I don't really know if I help them. I'd like to think i do, but who knows, really. People are such a mess, most of them are beyond any real, lasting help.
If I make them feel good about themselves for an hour or two, even if it's just a charade, then that doesn't seem wrong...it may not fix anything, but it's something.
And the Beautiful Agony site is pretty damn cool too.
With any type of sex work, those that are good at it not only learn physical skill and technique, but more importantly, become amazing self taught psychologists of human sexual behavior, thought and impulses. And sexual behavior is tied often to every facet of a humans development, nature and social context.
Women don't get threatened mainly by my looks and body and sexual presence (although it happens a fair bit) it's the fact that they innately pick up on my ability to grasp male psychology and apply it. I understand men. I empathise and change my behavior accordingly to please them. As do you, and that is why you are successfull.
I've always said everyone is capable of being the most amazing lover their partner has ever had, because they have had the time to explore and enrich and encourage the growth of each others sexuality and desires. An amazing lover is someone who can provide that experience to every woman, every man they touch. I believe there basically a large collection of sexual "types" both psyiscally, mentally and socially/emotionally formed. You can pick out those types instantly, and after a in depth conversation, exploration of body and soul adapt yourself knowingly to provide pleasure.
This ability is something that can only be learned from having a lot of lovers, something that is still socially taboo for women and slightly frowned upon, and hypocritically praised in men.
I always had a strange wonder about prostitutes. Did they get inducted into this secret world of arcane sexual tricks and magic. I've learned that the best prostitutes are not the most beautiful, the most intelligent nor the most friendly, mainly those that understand the male sexual psyche.
People, when they see this reflected in journals, that their quest for sexual prowess in which they have nievely based on physical mastery, feel let down. They've been chasing a different path, but not the one that will get them to the extremes they desire.
But anyhow, I'm rambling but the fact is this can only be gained by interacting with a large volume and variety of men and women.
I've had multitudes of partners. I could not understand, and I still have so much to learn but my understanding of the sexual psyche could not have been gained by that large exposure.
So for someone to truly understand this knowledge if they desire, means going against social taboos. Many people do not have that courage. Many people are frightened (especially women) that they will loose a part of themselves in that journey.
I lost a part of myself, but perhaps I have gained more. I am not sure.
I just sometimes wish I had the opportunity to explore at a lengthier way, my only fear is that in learning to fuck with haste, I have lost or delayed my current ability to true pleasure.
People are just afraid of the power this gives you. They are afraid of following the same path to find the same knowledge. Unfortunately until society removes all taboo from sexual exploration and freedom, your/our/my path and choices are too hard to follow.
Please don't leave.
I wish you were closer and I wasn't committed to someone, regardless I'd like to keep in touch with you. There will be some day I'd like to avail myself of your services.
I'm a tad frightened of that thought though. Funnily enough, my knowledge and power and confidence flys out the window when I'm under pressure, emotionally involved or someone has seen me this mentally vulnerable.
Take care xoxo.