0
I feel disinteresting.

At the same time, I'm trying to build a life and a value system that will exist beyond me every day.
I fail every fday.

Does thinking contantly count?
I know the action will come soon.

I'm just taking a rest I promise.
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
otoki:
Wordwink
helly:
You should stay here, just sayin winkkiss
0
The deeper the sorrow the less tongue it hath. --The Talmud

I am in a stage of grief.

For my friend who just passed.

For my girlhood, who it seems I never had.

For her, who was lost amongst the men.

For my idealism, in which I swore I would never lose, but never realised it would erode silently and swiftly over time.

I want...
Read More
VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
otoki:
The fucking "/" in the title of the threads keeps causing them to disappear half-way. I just changed the male to male thread to "sex workers" so it isn't just "male escorts". I really wish they'd fix that fucking bug.
halfjack:
You're back!
0
It's been a long time since I joined this site.

Is anyone still around?

VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
rook:
Yup. Stubbornly hanging on. Nostalgic. But still here.
Also missing you greatly.
otoki:
I made you co-moderator of the group with datsun. PM me any questions. I'm still setting the group up.
0
argh.

fingers crossed this time next week (or the week after), I might be in the states.

hawaii, la, miami, portland, boston....

anyone along that trail???
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
halfjack:
Ya. Boston. Lemme know when you'll be here, and all that jazz. Whatcha comin for?
terome:
Have fun! I recently went to New York and Washington...was great!
0
I don't know anything.

I feel lost as the moment. As if the carpet has been ripped from under my feet and I have to begin again.

I prayed for a new heart, and I got one for a while.

Godhelp me.

VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
halfjack:
Because I'm just that fuckin cool. You're always welcome, wherever I'm at. And let me know if you wanna talk in depth about the current going ons. Perhaps like-minded people can relate?
brooklynbabe:
You feel lost, but it will pass. I can only say this with certainty since I've been there over and over again. Hope you feel better soon.

.........sending love to AUS..........
0
single again.

Where to? II don't want to stay in this city.

Melbourne, Sydney or Adelaide folks?
VIEW 14 of 14 COMMENTS
ericdravyn:
Happy Hump Day!
I finally updated (after a year or so, I think)...
I hope this find you doing well... and heading to NYC, perhaps...

love ARRR!!!
lukebunny:
I'm about as normal as falks like us can get I think...do lots of work on my house, dance a lot, cook food for people...it's almost like being an adult! When did that happen?! Are you doing well? Sort of?
0
i-ron-ic
Show Spelled Pronunciation [ahy-ron-ik] Show IPA
adjective
1. containing or exemplifying irony: an ironic novel; an ironic remark.
2. ironical.
3. coincidental; unexpected: It was ironic that I was seated next to my ex-husband at the dinner.

For fucking real, I'm lecturing hookers, in a brothel, on how to be ladies.

Except they don't know I actually used to be a hooker...
Read More
VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
brooklynbabe:
I will be there. NYC at Christmas time is amazing.

I would love to see you.

*dancing*
halfjack:
where would you rather be?
0
does anyone have twitter?
VIEW 10 of 10 COMMENTS
lelaina:
hehehe thats funny. fucking leprechauns!!!! i do wonder though, that when you die, are you reunited with all the things you once lost??
doll_:
i do now..
wineninja.
0
Big Weekend
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
chazgasm:
Good to see life has been interesting for ya, i think we need a photo blog from ya one of these days
boombambi:
Wow You cram a lot in to your weekends eeek

Hope u r well, we should catch up soon babe kiss
0
The Streets - I never went to church (Guillemots Remix)

I never went to church, just get on with work, and sometime things will hurt, but it's hit me since you left us, thats it's so hard not to search. if you were still about, i'd ask you what I'm supposed to do now, I just get a bit scared every now...
Read More
VIEW 12 of 12 COMMENTS
traceelement:
lol my brother saw the picture and seriously thought I was wearing makeup and that I hadn't actually photoshopped the image lol. tongue biggrin glad I look freaky in it though, that was the point.
helly:
Hi there, just to remind you that deposits for the tix to SGAU are due by the 15th of April smile
0
i feel wierd.

This is going to be a reasonably matter of fact, general day to day update post. The zoloft and valium have taken away a lot of my writing ability, and my ability to orgasm, which the latter can be both a good and a bad thing in my case at the present time.

University has started, my favourite class at the moment...
Read More
VIEW 24 of 24 COMMENTS
reshizzle:
where are yooooooooooooou
hope you aRE havign fun?!!!
lily:
I have had extreme anxiety since I was a small child. I take benzos. too many most days and lately its been keeping me still, like nontransient because of this dependence, that and I would like to stay off the dope. I'm taking classes all summer. I suppose I will just distract myself from these boring people, but I so want to be near you. so you and your man broke up? You, know, sometimes when I think about my dream girl, she would have all the qualities that you have. You are like this gorgeous broken fascinating enchanting beautiful soul genius esoteric angel. You are an enchantress. I really love you.
0
The thing below is something I posted in the sex workers group, and it's basically a summary of everything emotional that was related to sex work. But it's probably the last I'll say on the matter unless I go back to it. But it's sort of where I stand right now. And honestly, even almost a year after I stopped, I...
Read More
VIEW 27 of 27 COMMENTS
halfjack:
it was good to be back, thanks.
yeah he's a big frickin guy. very outgoing. and a great big heart.
baltimore is on the east coast of the us. near washington dc. where's brisbane?

and how are you?
allura:
Oh I would love to but I'm busy shooting tonight tomorrow and Monday then I fly back Monday night frown If I get a chance tomorrow or Monay I'l give you a buzz. What is your number and what area of Brisbane are you in?