Today I feel like I am sitting in a downwards spiral, and it's not even 10 am yet. I have work... and then a collective meeting for the organisation I collaborate with... bah! The last thing you ever want to do is go into a planning meeting for a sexual assault center; to talk about finances and more importantly, the centers' survivors, when you are feeling like complete ass. It is NEVER a good thing, I'm probably going to cry. Plus, I never know what to wear to these things. These femenists are painfully chique.
In good news, I DID make pink cupcakes the other night with my darling boyfriend! They were extremely raunchy but positively delicious. Perfect, metallic pink cupcakes... mmmm. I got super lucky- I got to lie in bed with the mister and watch Juno, then make perfect little ugly cupcakes... aaah. I'm such a romantic. Teenage pregnancy and pastries. THATS what life is all about.
And you know what I was thnking about? (I'm so terrible) That stupid girl. I realise why it bothers me every day to think about her- she is the ideal. She is beautiful and has perfect teeth and is in fantastic shape. She had something with my boyfriend that I know nothing about, and I really feel like thats something he only doesnt tell me about because he doesn't want me to know how good/ bad it was. Problem is, I assume everything was perfect because he's never had a problem telling me about any other girls.
Today, it seems like such a big problem, but at this point it has seriously become redundant. I blame it on my insecurity, honestly, but it's something I cannot help! BAAAAH. I've been in a relationship with this man for over two and a half years with a nice big break in the middle, and I know what I did to make it better, to make myself better.I know I made a huge mistake and I know where I want to be. The fact that girls blaitantly disrespect relationships boggles my mind! The fact that a girl will come onto a guy with a girlfriend makes me insane. Shameless flirting, sure, we all do it. But to straight up put it out there... fuck you. I'd love to wrip some of these girls' eyeballs out, even though they've been good recently.
Sorry about the, er, tight nature of this post, but everything is sitting on my brain.
I guess i'm gonna go start my day. I gotta go pick up some presents for this weekend, hehhehe....
xo
In good news, I DID make pink cupcakes the other night with my darling boyfriend! They were extremely raunchy but positively delicious. Perfect, metallic pink cupcakes... mmmm. I got super lucky- I got to lie in bed with the mister and watch Juno, then make perfect little ugly cupcakes... aaah. I'm such a romantic. Teenage pregnancy and pastries. THATS what life is all about.
And you know what I was thnking about? (I'm so terrible) That stupid girl. I realise why it bothers me every day to think about her- she is the ideal. She is beautiful and has perfect teeth and is in fantastic shape. She had something with my boyfriend that I know nothing about, and I really feel like thats something he only doesnt tell me about because he doesn't want me to know how good/ bad it was. Problem is, I assume everything was perfect because he's never had a problem telling me about any other girls.
Today, it seems like such a big problem, but at this point it has seriously become redundant. I blame it on my insecurity, honestly, but it's something I cannot help! BAAAAH. I've been in a relationship with this man for over two and a half years with a nice big break in the middle, and I know what I did to make it better, to make myself better.I know I made a huge mistake and I know where I want to be. The fact that girls blaitantly disrespect relationships boggles my mind! The fact that a girl will come onto a guy with a girlfriend makes me insane. Shameless flirting, sure, we all do it. But to straight up put it out there... fuck you. I'd love to wrip some of these girls' eyeballs out, even though they've been good recently.
Sorry about the, er, tight nature of this post, but everything is sitting on my brain.
I guess i'm gonna go start my day. I gotta go pick up some presents for this weekend, hehhehe....
xo