why are you sleeping so much? maybe because i only find peace and relaxation in sleep. or maybe it is because i find little joy during my normal day. every day i step closer to insanity from the questions that plague my mind and heart. every day i grow closer to quitting. and by quitting i mean, moving to nyc and living on the streets,...
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I think our generation is gettin a bad rap. they say that honor, and integrity are dead. if so it is because they killed them. but i see sacrifice, pride, integrity, and honor in our generation as a whole, i dont see it in as many individuals, i wonder are there faithful ppl? what keeps a person faithful? their values should, however, more and more...
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mnislahi:
OMG ppl keep giving me ideas!!
well i ended up being here while the movies were playing.. i've seen both of them before so its ok... today.. whats on? i have no idea omfg i just realized i missed the top model show.. ugh!! im gonna have to wait till night now =p
cool words.
well i ended up being here while the movies were playing.. i've seen both of them before so its ok... today.. whats on? i have no idea omfg i just realized i missed the top model show.. ugh!! im gonna have to wait till night now =p
cool words.
I love Hopesfall, they have such a wonderful mixture of sounds. Such a range of emotions. I really recommend them to everyone! The weekend is here, and I am working, it is the best.. Not that i have a life now to do anything with anyone. I really wish i was in a screamo band, i totally would love to scream for a living. i...
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mnislahi:
SNL is the shit!! haha!
OMg i need a week off too!! *cries* i really do!!!!!!!
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OMg i need a week off too!! *cries* i really do!!!!!!!
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mnislahi:
Hah! i get those blah days too.. seriously im all bout the blah.. whateva...
omg that song "what i got" is the shit.. i have this friend that everytime we go to a kareoke bar he sings it.. and its so funny cuz most to fthe times.. actually all of the times he's drunk out of his ass.. aaahh good times..
Intersting origin of your nick hehe.
LOl omg the shows today: "road to el dorado" or "sweet home alabama" on AFN.. help me pick one!!!! AAAAAAH!!!
omg that song "what i got" is the shit.. i have this friend that everytime we go to a kareoke bar he sings it.. and its so funny cuz most to fthe times.. actually all of the times he's drunk out of his ass.. aaahh good times..
Intersting origin of your nick hehe.
LOl omg the shows today: "road to el dorado" or "sweet home alabama" on AFN.. help me pick one!!!! AAAAAAH!!!
someone help courtney love. wow. why do i get crushes on destructive women?
she was pretty wild on late night, i hope she gets help with her demons. it is amazing that when you are on drugs, you think that all the bad things happening to you, arent because of the drugs. but they so are. you wonder why ppl cant lighten up? or maybe...
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she was pretty wild on late night, i hope she gets help with her demons. it is amazing that when you are on drugs, you think that all the bad things happening to you, arent because of the drugs. but they so are. you wonder why ppl cant lighten up? or maybe...
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i am klu's wasted life.
been to lazy to write, and maybe to sleepy. my ex and i have officially called it quits, so move over a rod, i have come back to regain my crown as most eligible bastard, oops i meant bachelor.
i think it is time to stop wanting things so badly. i want so badly to be successful, influential and respectable...
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been to lazy to write, and maybe to sleepy. my ex and i have officially called it quits, so move over a rod, i have come back to regain my crown as most eligible bastard, oops i meant bachelor.
i think it is time to stop wanting things so badly. i want so badly to be successful, influential and respectable...
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mnislahi:
oh and im mni's broken heart 
now
now
mnislahi:
Choose me!! choose me!! wait.. im too far away.. heh good luck fella! heheh!
like you said.. i love writting and not caring what they might thing.. i just write whatever comes in mind.. its fun, i love it! and answering your question.. im more of a dorkish crazy.. yea it wasnt listed... [insert crazy emoticon here]
like you said.. i love writting and not caring what they might thing.. i just write whatever comes in mind.. its fun, i love it! and answering your question.. im more of a dorkish crazy.. yea it wasnt listed... [insert crazy emoticon here]
her ; i am leaving you,
btw i love you and thank you.
what the fuck kind of shit is that. all i know is that i feel so many emotions, betrayal, failure, more emotional saddness then i have ever felt. i know i will overcome it, i always do. i just wonder what the permenant damage or baggage will be. i am not what...
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btw i love you and thank you.
what the fuck kind of shit is that. all i know is that i feel so many emotions, betrayal, failure, more emotional saddness then i have ever felt. i know i will overcome it, i always do. i just wonder what the permenant damage or baggage will be. i am not what...
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brandy:
Sometimes being single has its perks...
as for everyday being a humble experience I was implying that everyday I am faced with a situation that makes me look at myself in the mirror. Whether it's passing a homeless person and completely ignoring them or being short with someone for no reason. My daily fuck-ups humble me and make me realize how far away I am from becoming the individual I desire to be.
as for everyday being a humble experience I was implying that everyday I am faced with a situation that makes me look at myself in the mirror. Whether it's passing a homeless person and completely ignoring them or being short with someone for no reason. My daily fuck-ups humble me and make me realize how far away I am from becoming the individual I desire to be.
mnislahi:
OMG.. hey.. are u feeling any better? i know what that feels like.. and its not pretty. So sad to hear that. Let me know how things are going...
maybe i love to be sad
maybe lonliness is all i know.
maybe i thrive on living like this
maybe i like my anger
maybe i feel justified in my hate
maybe i need a shrink
maybe i shouldnt give advise
maybe i could put everything into u.
i feel a total love for someone and at the same time, complete and unfixable pain for...
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maybe lonliness is all i know.
maybe i thrive on living like this
maybe i like my anger
maybe i feel justified in my hate
maybe i need a shrink
maybe i shouldnt give advise
maybe i could put everything into u.
i feel a total love for someone and at the same time, complete and unfixable pain for...
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alyssum:
I was recently watching this movie that was talking about how chemicals effect people's vision of love. If someone associates past troubles with love, it can bring with it chemicals for pain. That struck me as interesting and rather bizarre.
So what is the most important thing you've given away, and the most extreme place you've been?
So what is the most important thing you've given away, and the most extreme place you've been?
i think i am a complete ass lately. alot of ppl here dislike me. so that makes it hard to like them. i wonder why some ppl like me? i am so grateful for my best friend. i wonder what she likes me for. i dont have low self esteem, i have the negative self esteem. i bought the movie my first mister for like...
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mnislahi:
lol yea u can call me a social butterfly...! I dont like AFN much.. i get all 8 channels but.. stilll some manything im missing out like real comercials!!!! hahaha! oh well.. italian channels are not fun! How come u dont get spectrum?
mnislahi:
Oh yea that movie was ok... BUT he made it good. I dont know.. i just didint like the movie that much.. i guess the whole Enrique Iglesias in it lol. Here i have to pay for the decoder so i can get the 8 channels.. is that what u do there?
i need answers,
but the questions will offend.
the answers may not help though.
i am always angry from being constantly hurt. i am always sad from being constantly in emo pain. pain and anger. anger and pain. they are beginning to consume me. i used to be the naive happy kid from indiana. now, i am the jaded world traveler. i have seen too...
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but the questions will offend.
the answers may not help though.
i am always angry from being constantly hurt. i am always sad from being constantly in emo pain. pain and anger. anger and pain. they are beginning to consume me. i used to be the naive happy kid from indiana. now, i am the jaded world traveler. i have seen too...
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phoebus:
Well, I can't help you with discovering how to better deliver Sandler's lines, but--trust me--you're not alone. I'm pretty sure anyone in their late 20s who has to spend a year in Korea, away from friends & family, is going to question their decisions/role in life.
I like to think of it like catharsis. Return home as a blank slate, and re-define yourself through your actions and by shearing off the relationships that have only dragged you down or made you feel badly.
I like to think of it like catharsis. Return home as a blank slate, and re-define yourself through your actions and by shearing off the relationships that have only dragged you down or made you feel badly.
ltrain:
Hell yeah... Sonata's rule!!!! I miss my hooptie. Remember, my car's name was Robin. 
I miss my hooptie. Remember, my car's name was Robin. ok, had a good day yesterday
woke up in my usual depressed state.
went to walmart, yes they have them in korea, they are not the same, close, but different. went there with only a little bit of won, i am still tryin to pay bills that were not paid by the wife.
later went to pungyo, near seoul, hung out with a rad person...
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woke up in my usual depressed state.
went to walmart, yes they have them in korea, they are not the same, close, but different. went there with only a little bit of won, i am still tryin to pay bills that were not paid by the wife.
later went to pungyo, near seoul, hung out with a rad person...
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consuela:
come back! we will make you laugh again. fo shizzle.
ltrain:
Hey! I'm here dude. Where are ya? We need to talk. I think its about that time. I'm feeling a whirl-wind of emotion and I can't think straight. I'm all confuzzled. And from the looks of your journal, you're all depressed. Well hope to catch ya soon. I posted new pics of haydn. She's in glasses. 
Later.
Later.
today is a new day, i feel better, after leavin chat for a while. i know now what not to say, i know where i am as far as what i am allowed to do. only a peasant can understand a peasants plight. i used to wonder if change is possible, sometimes it is, sometimes it is not, no matter what the individual does.
all...
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drstinkypants:
Right on.
I'm a fan of the hyrdrocodone. Its very mellow and relaxing.
Makes me feel like a normal person.
I'm a fan of the hyrdrocodone. Its very mellow and relaxing.
Makes me feel like a normal person.
mindger:
Wow dude... sounds like you're hurtin. Bummer.... have you tried throwing paint on people in the street? They might dig it... but most likely not. I always feel better if I pretend that I'm stabbing myself in the eye with a pen, and then open that eye and see "hey, i can still see with this eye! i must have super powers." Try that.
i am bitter.
i understand that it is wrong to be so.
no one is really cool. myself included.
it seems that i am grotesque. there can be no love without attraction of some sort. it was pointed out to me, that i am not allowed to be myself. i sincerely cared. i have baggage that i do not know how to rid myself of....
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i understand that it is wrong to be so.
no one is really cool. myself included.
it seems that i am grotesque. there can be no love without attraction of some sort. it was pointed out to me, that i am not allowed to be myself. i sincerely cared. i have baggage that i do not know how to rid myself of....
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consuela:
yi! we miss you! we'll definately have to toss you a party for your triumphant return.
and thanks for the sweet comments
and thanks for the sweet comments
drstinkypants:
i feel how you fell. but im guilty of the same thing everyone else is. membership to this site is a testament to that.
some people are the worker bees. some people have to be at the bottom of the social food chain. without peasants there can be no royalty. and so on
people like you and me built the pyramids
some people are the worker bees. some people have to be at the bottom of the social food chain. without peasants there can be no royalty. and so on
people like you and me built the pyramids
About your comment.. i really liked "pieces of april" it was really cool.
anyways.. feel better mkay?