mjr0xurs0x

tonight at 635 pm i get on a plane to fresno, california to see the girl that i've loved for the longest time. i'm so happy and excited to see her again. but i'm scared. scared of how it's gonna be between us. scared of how the week with her is gonna end up. i hope all goes well. i just wanna hold her and kiss her again. i just wanna be able to hear her voice in my ear instead of thru the phone. i just want her in my arms .. in my life .. again. hopefully this time together will help her figure out if she really wants to be with me for the rest of her life or not bc i dont think i can wait any longer. if we dont move up in our relationship by the end of this vacation then i'm just gonna have to choose to move on. if i cant have her then i dont think i can be her friend. it's gonna be to heartbreaking for me. *sigh* wish me luck.

happy birthday to me!