i'm not happy right now.
i'm sitting in front of my laptop and listening to ben harper while i'm drinking a few bottles of heineken. and man, am i depressed.
i dont wanna be here anymore. i dont wanna work at vni anymore. i dont wanna be living with my parents anymore. i dont wanna be boring anymore.
i want to be with my girl. i want to be in cali. i want to work there. i want my own apartment with my lover and my dog. i dont wanna be lonely anymore. i need someone next to me.
gawd, i sound so pathetic right now but i think i'm finally having my breakdown. and surprise surprise it only took alcohol to get it out of me. i havent drank for a while and now that i had a taste again i just wanna pour my guts out.
i'm so lonely. i need her. i want her. i cant go on anymore without her. great now i'm crying. i'm so depressed. i'm just so sad without her.
geeze forget it .. i cant even let out what i wanna let out here. i just need a good cry but i dont have a shoulder to cry on. fuck it .. i'll cry on my own shoulder.
thanks for putting up with my random rants.
goodnight everyone.
i'm sitting in front of my laptop and listening to ben harper while i'm drinking a few bottles of heineken. and man, am i depressed.
i dont wanna be here anymore. i dont wanna work at vni anymore. i dont wanna be living with my parents anymore. i dont wanna be boring anymore.
i want to be with my girl. i want to be in cali. i want to work there. i want my own apartment with my lover and my dog. i dont wanna be lonely anymore. i need someone next to me.
gawd, i sound so pathetic right now but i think i'm finally having my breakdown. and surprise surprise it only took alcohol to get it out of me. i havent drank for a while and now that i had a taste again i just wanna pour my guts out.
i'm so lonely. i need her. i want her. i cant go on anymore without her. great now i'm crying. i'm so depressed. i'm just so sad without her.
geeze forget it .. i cant even let out what i wanna let out here. i just need a good cry but i dont have a shoulder to cry on. fuck it .. i'll cry on my own shoulder.
thanks for putting up with my random rants.
goodnight everyone.
Hope your happy soon