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*sigh* .. after all that "drama", me and jae has been acting weird towards each other on the phone. ok its more like she's acting weird towards the phone. i decided to text her yesterday and told her "i dont kno how we got to this in this situation and everything. i dont really understand what's going on. but i need to kno ur answer. think about it real hard, u dont even have to reply to me right this instant. think about all that we've been thru, our ups and downs, all that we stand for, how u feel about me and how u think i feel about u. then make a decision. are u ready to be with me for the rest of ur life? do u really trust me? bcuz i'm done with all this high school bullshit that people are putting us in. either believe them or believe me. that's all up to u. i'm not even gonna try to convince u that i'm telling the truth. weve been together long enough for u to kno. if ur having doubts about it then u already kno the answer. just please, think everything out thoroughly before giving me the answer. i only ask that u give me the answer soon bcuz this is killing me. i need to kno where we stand so we can either start working things out all over again or i can move on with my life. this is all on u now. remember i love you so much."

i dont kno if i was wrong to do that but i hate having to sit here and think about the worse thing possibe. i hate being left in the dark. and this is no high school relationship, this is for real. i'm ready and i just want her to be on the same page as me before she says she wants to be with me again. i'm tired of all this bullshit. i need to settle down and get my life straightened out. right now, i need to kno bcuz i'm in a situation where i'm just waiting for my next move. i have to paths to choose from and one of them is with her. she needs to let me kno now. i think i've been patient enough. she's over there having fun and i'm over here busting my ass working and staying out of trouble. i need a sign to move forward. i need to make my next move.