....lots of questions & no answers.
Why can't I just be happy & in love with something already? Wabisabi imperfections have always been the best.
It never used to be this difficult before.... Before what, though? I never used to have such standards. I all but have blinders on now and I still can't focus.
Fixated on perfection, as I seek a balance between work, homelife & social acceptance... I understand that I will never be socially accepted and I've learned that don't like to go out, unless it's for work.
I don't want to cry. I dont want to be weak. What I'm doing isn't working for me & I dont know how to do any different.
I want his hand to touch me...his arm around me. I want to hear his heart beating...I want to know what it sounds like when he's breathing under various circumstances (normal/relaxed/excited) but I don't even know who HE is :(
... I'm frustrated (& stating the obvious).
