What happened?... I thought that I had gone sooo far & made such progress...
How did I get back here, to where I started from?
Saw that I made another evil man richer...again, before I got left behind.
Saw that he shared my progress with his loved ones, before my face was smashed into my failure & I became their doormat, so... Guess, he's not all bad.
Watching the entity that I worked so hard to build dissolve into the hands of other addicts of various afflictions - hurts & I am unable to stop it, every time.
Listening to these people talk about all their happiness - new loves, homes, cars, carhomes & vacations... Makes me want to puke.
Yeah... I'm filled with hate right now & I don't know how to not be.
Why do I always have to work so hard for nothing?
As great as I am, I will never be much...
How can I love me?
Looking for work sucks when you are suffering from depression.