Stuck in a rut of wanting to be intimate with someone but not wanting just anyone to touch me. I want so much that I can't have & to be honest, I have no plan for the "what ifs" so trying for it would be a disaster. I want to feel something again, though. Im innocent enough to keep it clean. ....maybe I can learn to be like a tandem sky diving instructor - they look like they get paid to cuddle.