So yes, of course the Bright Eyes show was fucking amazing. It was at this giant theatre at UC Berkeley, ushers to show you to your seat and everything, and they played for three hours without any stops. He played alot of new stuff, some really good old old stuff and I realized, once again, that he is the one guy I that I'd love to give a big fat open mouthed smooch to...did I just say that out loud?!?! 
After the show we (all my friends that came to visit from Chico) came back and drank until 5am. It was fucking wonderful to be around so many old/great friends. Plus I got to have this great long conversation with my new huge crush - she has to live in another town, of course - about veganism, being on pills most of your life, knowing that humans are a horribly short-sighted and selfish species, and just wanting to die...
It was truely amazing because I forgot what it felt like to truely feel alive for at least one night. Being able to have great conversation with everyone in the room and not at all feeling awkward at any point through-out the night.
It all makes things that much harder now as I sit in this empty apartment with that post-booze depression thinking about my aching body, the work I didn't get done and utter pointlessness of the coming weeks.
these lyrics are just too damn relevant not to post yet again
you gather around your friends
the connection that you feel
when the night has not yet died
you are new with a promise of a love
you will probably never find
and touch that you can really feel
the brokenness inside as hope and less collide
now nothing is real
and there is nothing more i want than just one night
that's free of doubt and sadness
one night that i can really feel.
bright eyes - touch
...fuck, after listening to this song just now it looks like the outline to the above entry
whatever...
After the show we (all my friends that came to visit from Chico) came back and drank until 5am. It was fucking wonderful to be around so many old/great friends. Plus I got to have this great long conversation with my new huge crush - she has to live in another town, of course - about veganism, being on pills most of your life, knowing that humans are a horribly short-sighted and selfish species, and just wanting to die...
It was truely amazing because I forgot what it felt like to truely feel alive for at least one night. Being able to have great conversation with everyone in the room and not at all feeling awkward at any point through-out the night.
It all makes things that much harder now as I sit in this empty apartment with that post-booze depression thinking about my aching body, the work I didn't get done and utter pointlessness of the coming weeks.
these lyrics are just too damn relevant not to post yet again
you gather around your friends
the connection that you feel
when the night has not yet died
you are new with a promise of a love
you will probably never find
and touch that you can really feel
the brokenness inside as hope and less collide
now nothing is real
and there is nothing more i want than just one night
that's free of doubt and sadness
one night that i can really feel.
bright eyes - touch
...fuck, after listening to this song just now it looks like the outline to the above entry
whatever...VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
The pain I'm whining about lately is from my wisdom teeth. I'm afraid of dentists and I don't want to have them pulled, but yesterday it finally got so bad that I had to go to the hospital. I can't open my mouth or swallow, so I haven't eaten anything in 2 days.
I kind of understand about the knee pain, though. I used to have really bad lower back pain as a result of a few car accidents I was in. It isn't so crippling these days, but sometimes it makes it pretty hard to even think about getting out of bed.
What happened to your knee?