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And they all are, aren't they?

I could probably power a small city with my whining.

Well I quit again.

How about some lyrics?


am I dreaming?
is this really me?
because I've never felt so not lonely
and if this could be real right now
then everyday for the rest of my life I will search for moments full of you

but...
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britney:
It's not exactly aiming it at any one person confused ,

I just get upset when I see it's gone too far.... Or when there is a lack of usual niceness due to it to-boot..... I'm super sensative when it comes to friends.... What can I say?... OK, OK, and I'm pmsing which doesnt help eithor whatever ..... But seriously, I'd like to hang out with my friends the couple times I get to see them these days.... Not their zombie like alter egos! Leave that at home, fo-sho! tongue

kiss
freckle:
nope... we just kinda took your word for it.
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That was a long and productive break. I'm kind of confused. I didn't do this-but it seems like I did.
I fear that I'm making sense to no one right now.

Sadly, or maybe not so, I don't have a lot to say at the moment. Things around me have been uneventful and good. Mostly.

There isn't a lot I...
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rexphantom:
Ohhhhh.

I guess I'm slow, too.
robjax:
'ello! I am glad you had an uneventful day. Sometimes I dream about having like 6 or 7 of them in a row....ahhhhhhh bok <3

XOXO
~JAx

[Edited on Nov 24, 2004 5:19AM]
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That wasn't a very happy entry.

We'll see if I can do better now.

Today has been interesting. There was a car accident outside the window and it sounded...disturbing. Later I made a few friends. Or talked to random bums that were passing by. They stopped to tell me what sort of adventures they had lined up for the day. Then they...
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desdenova:
I'm happy now.
robjax:
There is something so lovely about having random people be nice to you. I think that if everyone HAD to talk to someone they were afraid of, more people would see there's nothing to be scared of at all. whatever <3

XOXO
~JAx

[Edited on Nov 23, 2004 4:57PM]
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1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: we've been through. Nothing new. No surprises here.

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
Closet thing.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV? The OC

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time...
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britney:
Damn straight lil missy! biggrin
britney:
Amber's house is sooooo out of the picture though puke
I know, heart breaking isn't it whatever
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I knew I should've stayed in bed today.

This is all very depressing.
Now I don't feel so awful for hating everyone.
How could we have let this happen?

I now realize how dumb it was of me to be hopeful in the first place.
I wasn't even really hopeful, I *knew* we weren't going to fuck it all up again...
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desdenova:
I was drunk in an airport bar when I got the news. That was a depressing drink, let me tell you.
I think I'm an unconventially beautifu person who likes cocoa. How could you hate that?
longblackbangs:
yeah, i don't know why i was hopeful at all. the alternative wasn't much better but it was a reason for hope. now the religious right is gonna run us kids off a cliff. well, if a government that doesn't represent any of the things I believe in is going to push the their "devine" plan onto me I guess I will play into their evangelical game...and pray for an assassination i guess.

-billy

ps i know, every 40 seconds surreal At work today I kept staring at the clock through glazed eyes filled with hopeless thoughts thinking, "37, 38, 39...there goes another one."
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I hope that tomorrow fixes something.
Anything at all would be nice.

I'm gonna try to watch the first season of Carinvale now.
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desdenova:
Quiet you, I'll help plenty.
It downloaded fine, I'm just waiting for thr computer to read that disc.

[Edited on Nov 01, 2004 6:16PM]
longblackbangs:
I can't even say most things are well...so you got that one on me. My Halloween was pretty weak also so I guess we got that going. I pretty much started drinking waiting for my friends to get back into town, but they took forever and before I knew it I was really drunk and it was too late to go out and get back in time to sleep it off.

-billy
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I'm breathing so I guess I'm still alive.
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desdenova:
Is this: Fatal_Isobel who I think it is?
desdenova:
I just saw her on the boards and thought she looked familiar.
After she posted a little more it was pretty obvious.
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Shortly after the last time I updated, I was forced to give in and go to the hospital.
They poked at me with needles, took some of my blood, gave me an IV of antibiotics, and an oral surgeon came and abused my mouth a bit.
It was awful but they gave me antibiotics and painkillers to try and end tis madness.

Yesterday I was...
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longblackbangs:
Yeah, I can see how "When the Curious Girl..." may be sort of a surprise. I definitly see how "On my Way To Work" would be a favorite. The whole Everyday and Everynight EP could be seen that way, especially "A Line Allows Progress, A Circle Does Not". It is just the way he sings on "Curious Girl"... I mean you can tell he is not faking the emotion when he sings:
and no matter how I may wish for a coffin so clean
or these trees to undress all their leaves onto me
i'll put my face in the dirt and then finally i'll see
the sky that has been avoiding me...

So just hearing that and the two Elliott Smith songs at exceptionally low points just really burned them into some certain part of my brain.

And M.Ward? It is a weird scenerio with him. I hear him now and again when one of my friends is playing him and I have a couple of his tracks on my computer, and I really really like what I hear. But I have never had a chance to just have a few drinks and really sit down and take in one of his albums. Basically it is just a matter of time before I get around to becoming a rabid fan.

-billy
swirl:
hey it's me it to hard for me to make it to the post office so i think i'm going to wire u money
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I figured I should update again.

I'm in pain and this is no good. It's weird to think about the things that pause it, though. The Bright Eyes show definitely paused it. I forgot I was supposed to be whimpering when Conor was onstage.

How lame am I?

Please don't answer.

In other news, is there other news?
I have done nothing...
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desdenova:
I see. No, no trouble. I'll explain when I talk to you.
It's even funnier because he doesn't remember a damn thing.
desdenova:
I keep running it over in my head, and your hospital comment has me officially confused.