Thank you for taking the time to write all that for me! It actually made me feel a little better.
I actually find astrology very interesting. I almost thought of becoming an astrologer when I was younger, but I decided I didn't care all that much.
I'm going through a similar thing, an unrequited thing. Which isn't making my life easier. The difference being, I can never seem to channel my anguish once it gets to a certain point. I'm so overwhelmed with everything, I just kind of sit around/sleep.
The Moon is moving through your 3rd House of Communication, encouraging you to talk about your feelings. You might, however, react with annoyance to your own illogical emotions now, trying to cover them over with layers of perfectly valuable information. But the truth may not be in the data. Even if you do all the right things with what you know, happiness could escape you if you aren't willing to explore your irrational side.
My dad is a very hateful person, partcially by upbringing and partcially by life experiences. He never has anything good to say about anyone. And yet I find it is his anger and resentment that keeps him going. It amazes me, yet makes me sad because I cannot stand to be around that kind of negativity.
It's thick like water and too easy to drown in it.
As for the criticism, ideally I think one needs some to grow and expand. Theortically criticism can be a good thing, constructive criticism that is. But then again nothing every works out in theory.
Seemingly I like to go from point A to point C, regularly only processing point B in my head, and then mistakenly assuming certain people are following me to the same point C. Then I begin addressing point C and the dirty looks commence : /
I would have to overlap your ideas with my own about free judgment. I just simplify it for myself by placing limitations on what I can do something about and what I can't. The one that I'm very aware of but still slip sometimes is when I say or think "so and so SHOULD not do that". Or vice versa. "Should" statements still slip through. I'm having alot of success with it though.
I wish I was stronger. But I'm not sure I want to know what kind of misfortunes and tragedies are left for me to be strengthened by.
I just noticed you had Ong Bak listed in your liked movies. I've seen it a few times too but it made me think of Hero (Jet Li starring)--amazing. There is some disheartening philosophy about centraliziation in government, but it's all open to interpretation. I could be wrong. The movie rules however. Think what Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon could have been.