josephene

So as you know I often go for stretches without responding to people and then do it all at once in a flood, often with little attempt at keeping things in context. What you probably don't know, as I don't think I have ever mentioned this to anyone, is that I often write out my entries on a notebook that I keep by my desk. Especially if I have missed a lot of journals and/or expect to have a lot to say.
Usually I edit my responses as I go along, scribbling out anything that seems to have become moot because of something in a later journal. Then I write my little preamble and throw it all together into one, usually all too long entry. So why am I telling you this? Because this time I kept things even though they became moot. I made no changes. Everything will be recorded as it first came out. No editing. No attempts to refine or second guess. I want you to know exactly how I initially responded to everything.

The last move that affected me was Being Julia. I don't know how much I can say about how or why without spoiling the movie. I just saw a lot of parallels to my life. Great movie by the way. If you have not seen it you should.

Awww, I am going to miss you.

I think the same may be happening to me soon as well. I just have so much going on and I think I spend too much time here.

Sweetie, I read that and my heart filled. I want you to know that I could never pity you. Not that I don't wish this wasn't happening to you. Of course, I do, and I wish you a speedy recovery. My thoughts will be with you in these coming months. That being said, pity is something I save for those to weak to deal with what life has to offer. For exmple, as I am sure you have noticed I engage in a fair amount of self pity. When I think back and look over your past journals, all I see is a positive attitude, strength, courage and a deep and abundant capacity for joy, life and love.

I admire you more than you will ever know. To think that you, while dealing with all your own issues, have been able to offer me more comfort and support than most of my offline friends and family, well, it just amazes me. You are an incredible woman. I ♥ you. :

Ok, it is a little late, but I did wish Catiedid a happy (belated) birthday.

I can barely keep up as it is. If I were stalking people I would never get anything done.

Glad to hear you are feeling better. Even happier to hear you are sticking around. I may still be leaving. At least for a while. I do plan to come back, but in case I don't, I am sending you an email. I would love if you kept in touch.

I am not supposed to have it. Too much natural sugar,, so I only drink it when I am sick. It tastes so good then that I never have anything else with it.

Thanks for helping to make the time I have spent here so great.

Yeah... I see he has.... I read his pity-party, sappy, losin'-ass journal...