I have a huge phobia of dentists. I attempted to go to one to get some long-overdue work done and I had a bit of a panic attack (which I warned him could happen when I had my initial check-up with him). I told him that I just needed a few mins to calm down and we could try again and he reacted very badly....
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Another long time between updates. Ive been dreading writing about my life and myself because all I want to do is scream and rant.
To catch up
Took the cats to the vet again and got yet another medicine for Beau. It costs $60 a bottle! Good thing I love him cuz we are f-ing poor right now. I just want Beau to feel better...
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To catch up
Took the cats to the vet again and got yet another medicine for Beau. It costs $60 a bottle! Good thing I love him cuz we are f-ing poor right now. I just want Beau to feel better...
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MAGICAL TREVOR!!!!!
An official thank you goes out to consuela (who used to be a member here).
I've been so depressed and stressed lately and this is the only thing that has made me really cheer up since the "cat, I'm a kitty-cat" video.
Everyone watch, dance and feel the joy!
An official thank you goes out to consuela (who used to be a member here).
I've been so depressed and stressed lately and this is the only thing that has made me really cheer up since the "cat, I'm a kitty-cat" video.
Everyone watch, dance and feel the joy!
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s_3_antichrist:
Kool Vid.... 
miloryan:
Yeah, I fell into a black hole the other week and was trippn from the anxiety too. Yuck! Hope you're feeling better. You should try and go to the prom this year!
Well, I didnt go to the girly lunch today and Ive cancelled my plans for tonight. I am sad about it.
Reason beingI recently saw my doctor and she put me on new meds. It was quite an emotional visit, which sucked. I ended up crying in front of her, which I hated. Brian was there to comfort me, but I swear, I feel so...
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Reason beingI recently saw my doctor and she put me on new meds. It was quite an emotional visit, which sucked. I ended up crying in front of her, which I hated. Brian was there to comfort me, but I swear, I feel so...
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aspasia:
I understand. I feel like a little old lady, carrying around her rattling pill sometimes. (This one to make you happy, this one to make you not too happy, this one to make you calm, this one to make you sleep, &c.) 
yuriel:
Hrm. I hate the drill with the pills and crap too.
I honestly wonder if its simply because we are lacking something all too concrete and physical at times rather thans ome chemical within the mind. Those things are scary.
-hugs-
I hope I wish... that things like help. That is so rotten of the mother..... mine harps me for a job... i am not even sure i want a job of any kind or a life anymore.
Fuck I don't really know what to say I suppose all I can say is I empathize.
-hugs-
I honestly wonder if its simply because we are lacking something all too concrete and physical at times rather thans ome chemical within the mind. Those things are scary.
-hugs-
I hope I wish... that things like help. That is so rotten of the mother..... mine harps me for a job... i am not even sure i want a job of any kind or a life anymore.
Fuck I don't really know what to say I suppose all I can say is I empathize.
-hugs-
Longer entry...have a seat.
2/15/2006
It has been forever since Ive updated. I dont work and I have no life, but somehow everything has been chaos.
Since I last posted a real entry, Ive
- went to acupuncture twice (weird experience and I am not sure if I am going to continue doing it)
- went to my very good friends dads funeral (whom Ive...
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2/15/2006
It has been forever since Ive updated. I dont work and I have no life, but somehow everything has been chaos.
Since I last posted a real entry, Ive
- went to acupuncture twice (weird experience and I am not sure if I am going to continue doing it)
- went to my very good friends dads funeral (whom Ive...
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yuriel:
wow busy and stressed for someone with no life huh?
heh -hugs-
i know the feeling
believe me i know the feeling
wtf american idol shit tha tmind rotting garbage would make me hate myself and humanity.......
even when im in a good mood, and moreso than i usually do -chuckles-
heh -hugs-
i know the feeling
believe me i know the feeling
wtf american idol shit tha tmind rotting garbage would make me hate myself and humanity.......
even when im in a good mood, and moreso than i usually do -chuckles-
I have been MIA for a while now. Not that anyone has noticed. I wonder why I bother to have blogs and update them. I get no comments, so as far as I know, no one even reads it. Feeling invisible pisses me off.
I had the flu for a week and it sucked. I am better now. Oh joy.
My pc took a crap...
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I had the flu for a week and it sucked. I am better now. Oh joy.
My pc took a crap...
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mexicant:
The one with Hitler made me laugh so hard I almost wet myself. 
mexicant:
Happy Vday!
1/5/2006
So, the holidays are over.
Christmas was nice and mellow. We didnt really do anything.
New Years Eve itself was also mellow. We stayed home and watched the Twilight Zone Marathon on the Sci-Fi channel.
But, we celebrated in style on Dec. 30th. I got tickets to
Beach Blanket Babylon and boy, was that fun! We drove up to SF during loads of rain,...
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So, the holidays are over.
Christmas was nice and mellow. We didnt really do anything.
New Years Eve itself was also mellow. We stayed home and watched the Twilight Zone Marathon on the Sci-Fi channel.
But, we celebrated in style on Dec. 30th. I got tickets to
Beach Blanket Babylon and boy, was that fun! We drove up to SF during loads of rain,...
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sharona1881:
i thought i had left you a comment, but i guess not... hm... i have a nice long letter going out to you tomorrow hun! 
1/2/2005
So, now that our credit cards are mostly taken care of (due to a large loan from a relative), I started working on a doable budget. Um, there is no doable as things are now. That is crappy.
SoI called a doggy daycare place that I found on Craigslist and guess what? They are still hiring. I bagged an interview, but the lady wasnt...
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So, now that our credit cards are mostly taken care of (due to a large loan from a relative), I started working on a doable budget. Um, there is no doable as things are now. That is crappy.
SoI called a doggy daycare place that I found on Craigslist and guess what? They are still hiring. I bagged an interview, but the lady wasnt...
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I was cleaning out my notes on websites and passwords and such and I came across this again. Where's George?
I love it, but then, I am a dorkis. You enter the serial number of a one dollar bill (you can do other bills also) and say where you found it and what condition its in, then write the web address on the bill (in...
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I love it, but then, I am a dorkis. You enter the serial number of a one dollar bill (you can do other bills also) and say where you found it and what condition its in, then write the web address on the bill (in...
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knine:
thank you,,,,and i asked her to marry me and she said yes
datsun:
actually it wasn't about how active you are at all. your name was above someone I was trying to delete. 
I'm kinda retahhded.
I'm kinda retahhded.11/9/2005
I guess I should update, since I havent in a while.
Negative
I am constantly on the verge of a nervous breakdown these days and it sucks. I am popping little blue pills like candy to try to remain calm. That hasnt stopped me from having 1 mini and 1 major episode in the last few days.
I dont feel like I can leave...
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I guess I should update, since I havent in a while.
Negative
I am constantly on the verge of a nervous breakdown these days and it sucks. I am popping little blue pills like candy to try to remain calm. That hasnt stopped me from having 1 mini and 1 major episode in the last few days.
I dont feel like I can leave...
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miloryan:
Getting out is good. I remember my borderline agoraphobic days. No fun indeed. I'm doing pretty good but it's still always in the back of my mind. My last hurdle is to be able to do really hard physical activity with out having a panic attack. When that day comes I will be soooo happy.
Did you say 2007 for a PDX move? That's long Fn time away! I cannot wait that long!!
Did you say 2007 for a PDX move? That's long Fn time away! I cannot wait that long!!
aspasia:
I hope you are doing better with the panic/anxiety/agorophobia--I know what a bitch all that is (and, as you know, no matter what your mother or friends say, it's not simply a matter of willing yourself out of it).
Take care.
Take care.
**PICS OF ITEMS ARE IN MY PHOTOS UNDER STUFF FOR SALE**
I am having an ongoing garage sale. This is an updated list, as I have TONS of stuff!
Contact me if you want something and I will set is aside for you. I will answer any questions about the item and send you digital pics if you want.
I was able to estimate some...
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I am having an ongoing garage sale. This is an updated list, as I have TONS of stuff!
Contact me if you want something and I will set is aside for you. I will answer any questions about the item and send you digital pics if you want.
I was able to estimate some...
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knine:
Hey I havent been around much with work and all but how are yall doing?
oninotaki:
hows the sale going?
10/28/2005
Okay, Ive broken through the nervousness. I am logged onto my PSO job as I type this. Ive already taken 3 short calls. Two got down to business, albeit quickly. I felt a little awkward, but its coming back to me. I do miss it. I miss playing with my sexuality and sexual power. Its been a long time. Sigh I guess I need...
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Okay, Ive broken through the nervousness. I am logged onto my PSO job as I type this. Ive already taken 3 short calls. Two got down to business, albeit quickly. I felt a little awkward, but its coming back to me. I do miss it. I miss playing with my sexuality and sexual power. Its been a long time. Sigh I guess I need...
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miloryan:
What is this anxiety you speak of? Never heard f it........wait, nevermind, my wish didn't come true.
mexicant:
I say you should get it or at least rent it. I got it from Gamefly and loved the crap out of it for a few weeks. I have it on my xmas list now. It's seriously fun and addictive. The best part is that you can form your own gang form variuos gang members and start bopping.
Did you know they're going to do a remake of it?
It's seriously fun and addictive. The best part is that you can form your own gang form variuos gang members and start bopping.
Did you know they're going to do a remake of it?
Holly crap about that Prom thing. I think that is such a bad business move. This site is more of a SF vibe than a Vegas vibe. I mean I'll prolly go but shit I would go to both, much more happy to go to SF though.