I feel so fucked.
I feel like leaving I mean, at this particular moment, I feel like leaving without saying a word.
I have put up with so much pain and heart ache to be with the man I love.
And it's like I'm getting nowhere with it. I feel like itll all be better at the end of it, the pain won't last forever.
I got fat.
If I didn't get fat half these problems will be gone. She's so skinny.
I can't get my head around it. Someone who loves you so much is supposed to care about you, tells you that you mean the world. Tells you they would do anything to get you back, they get you back, that goes out the window.
I really do not want to be hurting this much.
She made me sob into my pillow for ages because she was so mean, and what did he do? Nothing. He makes her feel special, he tells her she will always have him followed by <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
God this is heartbreak.
Why am I not the biggest thing in his life? Why am I not the person he will always be there for? Instead I am the person he is always quick to go against.
He loves her. Not me.
HE DOESNT SEE WHAT SHES LIKE I WENT THROUGH THE SAME FUCKING SHIT FIRE OF BULL WITH LITTLE LUCY AND NOW THIS SHE IS MANIPULATIVE AND HORRIBLE TO ME BUT HE REFUSES TO SEE IT HE WONT EVEN READ HER MESSAGES TO ME BECAUSE HE DOESNT WANT TO LOSE HER HE IS IN LOVE WITH HER AND I WILL NOT SIT AROUND TO BE CHEATED ON FUCK THAT FUCKING SHIT it hurts so much that the man I love will not stick up for me or believe me.
I feel like leaving I mean, at this particular moment, I feel like leaving without saying a word.
I have put up with so much pain and heart ache to be with the man I love.
And it's like I'm getting nowhere with it. I feel like itll all be better at the end of it, the pain won't last forever.
I got fat.
If I didn't get fat half these problems will be gone. She's so skinny.
I can't get my head around it. Someone who loves you so much is supposed to care about you, tells you that you mean the world. Tells you they would do anything to get you back, they get you back, that goes out the window.
I really do not want to be hurting this much.
She made me sob into my pillow for ages because she was so mean, and what did he do? Nothing. He makes her feel special, he tells her she will always have him followed by <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
God this is heartbreak.
Why am I not the biggest thing in his life? Why am I not the person he will always be there for? Instead I am the person he is always quick to go against.
He loves her. Not me.
HE DOESNT SEE WHAT SHES LIKE I WENT THROUGH THE SAME FUCKING SHIT FIRE OF BULL WITH LITTLE LUCY AND NOW THIS SHE IS MANIPULATIVE AND HORRIBLE TO ME BUT HE REFUSES TO SEE IT HE WONT EVEN READ HER MESSAGES TO ME BECAUSE HE DOESNT WANT TO LOSE HER HE IS IN LOVE WITH HER AND I WILL NOT SIT AROUND TO BE CHEATED ON FUCK THAT FUCKING SHIT it hurts so much that the man I love will not stick up for me or believe me.
eddy1771:
sorry to be a creeper and to post on your blog randomly, but isnt that what a blog is, for people to read. Anyways if thats how you feel about your relationship and that is taken place then get rid of him. By looking at your profile pictures your a beautiful girl and shoudnt have any trouble finding a guy who not only loves you (or says he does) but respects you. Il shut up now seeming I am just some random guy trying to help
femlover:
I feel like you need to pull back for a while. If you feel that leaving is the answer, then leave for a bit. It sounds like you're dealing with too much negativity and hateful energy. Try and be with people you know care about you. Surround yourself in a positive state, or at least, a neutral one. I'm sorry that you're not receiving the same amount of love that you're giving. From reading this last blog alone, he doesn't sound worth all the pain. But that decision is ultimately up to you. Just remember to tell yourself that you deserve happiness, and that you're worth it.