gumbercules

you, my love, are a living doll. thank you for your sweetness.

and yes, it is very much a consideration along the lines of that performance project, about which my feelings grow increasingly mixed. i do think that considering representation matters, and is relevant, and yet i am in many ways unsatisfied with the subject matter. i think part of the reason why i am experiementing so heavily with form right now is because i find my content less satisfying than i anticipated. i kind of feel like i can't really get into the space i want to be - into an anonymous space - because i am so named in my skin 'round these parts. does that make any sense at all? so, yeah ... it is strange. i am also discovering not so much stage fright, but a certain contempt for observational eyes ... well, contempt is too strong but - something between resistance and resentment. now, the real question is, am i just projecting my ambivalence about myself onto them? this i do not know for sure. what i DO know is that part of it is the internalized judgement and silencing of my near and less than dear. oh my, how i ramble on ... but i think you get it. i think you oh so know.

wishing you much musical success, as i've long known you have the genius. have fun in the az, precious. and wishing you and your boy much togetherness in your affianced holiday times.

Sorry that I haven't been out of late, but the 60 odd hour work weeks are doing that to me...

Have fun back in the warm weather with the family.

parties have really slowed down here. there was barely ANYTHING going on here in LA this weekend. but it was okay. this gives me time to do a little work around here. there's always plenty of it to do.

on the last entry: good to hear that you're working with some heavyweights! that's how you get great, you dig?

fun times as always mr. dj. i think i may have danced myself into stupidity this week...

better try to get some work done!

Holy shit! As your project gains more and more momentum and good fortune, I'm only that that more looking forward to hearing it!!! I just started re-reading Gaiman's American Gods the other day and have tore myself from it to nuzzle my girl and edit pics from SG Cabaret a couple of weeks ago. If interested, you can find them here.

sounds like you're in a great place creatively and connectively. I applaud.

happy turkey day!

yeah, I slept for a lot of thursday...maybe the triptophan monster helped-- the only thing I ate was plain turkey. turkey=sleepy!

thank you so much, it's all do to your lead.

8 D

You are my saviour.

indeed indeed!

Hey I'mma call you in a min.

*nods*

damn, I keep forgetting to grab cds to burn my bulging mp3 collection too. Thanks for the reminder.

Well....

I sure do agree...
It's not so much that really A typical presidential cantidates always win....

but it's the reason why they win that bothers me.
Because no one thinks..... well... a great majority doesn't think.

I say fuck it anyway, since even if everyone in the US voted for someone else.... it's still technically possible that Bush could be elected in the electoral college...

Once again... making absolutely no sense what so ever.
Hey I like some stuff about america.... but... when did we become nationalist Facists is my question?

thanks.

tonight was AWESOME.

it was everything i was hoping for when i decided to go out tonight.

i knew nobody was gonna be there and it was gonna be a night of (mostly) dancing by myself, and you totally delivered the goods, and gave me lots of fun stuff to dance to.

you should play X next time i am there. i was gonna request it but i couldn't think of a song i wanted to hear.

oh, and playing the RAMONES song "sha la la (howling at the moon)" or "somebody put something in my drink" would be pretty bad-ass as well.

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oh, and what the hell is up with that FRANZ FERDINAND song? every bone in my body is telling me to hate it because they are way popular and trendy right now, but holy shit its so good i can't help it! i finally danced to it tonight after resisting the urge for over a month and it was totally awesome.

such a painful day.

namaste.

in my survey, you got to be 1 of 2 gay guys i know.

yay! for the small-town pennsylvania boy who moved to massachusetts and found out that gay people DO exist.

haha.

Hope you had a fantastic time with your boy and at work, as well... Yes, it goes w/o saying that we will at one point amass our ourselves and get drunk like there's no tomorrow...for we would've knocked back concoctions through the next day. That will have to be a New Year's resolution!

hell yes.

*crosses everything*

love to you.

what's your costume?

i'm not sure where my halloween is going just yet, but so far this week i have dressed up like the Ultimate Warrior (and danced to Thriller), watched 5 horror movies with granny and gone to see GWAR, so, i'm doing just fine with my halloween festivities.

Oh yeah....

Well I did call back...

hehehe.... next time I'll leave my number.

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I hope you're enjoying yourself.

oh HELL yes ~ those are MARVELOUS suggestions! i'm playing around right now with various painting objects, and henna would be marvelous, especially since it would leave traces for the future. well, a few days or so at least. but, part of what i am really interested in is what leaves traces and what accumulates in/on people via that kind of subjectivity. it would be so rad, too, if pple wrote something ASSUMING it would be washed off, then saw me walking around with their unfiltered ideas on my body. rock. that would totally confront the idea of harmlessness and attach their behavior to a sort of temporality that challenges the brevity/levity defense (as i am calling such dismissive statements as "oh s/he didn't hear me, knows i'm kidding, etc)". you are brilliant.

and i am glad to be back in my virtual home. i was rather testing myself/needs etc. by leaving, and discovered this is a healthy outlet place that really complements my life as opposed to a bad habit. plus, i love you guys. especially you guy.