fuck

wishing you were here...

not really though. its seriously wierd to not have to answer to anyone and worry about relationship issues. i'd like some company every now and then but its not important. its been, a little bit since the last time, for the well you know. actually this is the longest i've gone with out sex for three years. this time last year i was bouncing back and forth between things moving, job problems, girl problems, money problems etc. and really i'm not really any farther away from that right now, minus the girl problems. right now i'm hurting financially. i've got to get this sorted. i'm so tired of worry about money shit has got to change.

i don't know what else is going on with me right now. feels like i'm drinking more and more...but realistically i'm drinking less. the weeks are just merging together faster. i'm working six days a week and thursday and friday are here before i know it. all i want is a couple of days off and my dog to stop whining. fucking emo dog. i don't know where i'm going with this now...i'm hungry. donuts anyone?