Friday Aug 23, 2013

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There is a juxtaposition happening right now in my life. So much is going right for me in so many ways, I am so happy for the little things that are happening around me but two very big things are not what I would like them to be for me anymore. Work used to be fun and I used to enjoy the people I had...
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adelina:

Ps
i like your username biggrin

mellon:

I once ran into someone sitting by the side of the street in New York with a box and a sign that just said "fucked." So I gave her twenty bucks, which she really appreciated, but now I wonder if there was more I could have done. That's what I think of when I see your username.

You can't un-do what you did. You can't make her see you the way she did before. You can't make up for disloyalty in the past with loyalty in the presentthe past is already written. If you want to make things right, first of all accept that it may be impossible. And second, stop expecting anything positive out of her. Stop hoping she will ever forgive you. Stop wishing that she would smile at you. If you can't live without those things, you don't love heryou just have a dependency on her. If you do love her, what that really means is that you want her to be happy, no matter what, whether it's with you, with someone else, or alone. And you want her not to suffer.

So stop doing anything that causes her suffering, no matter how small. And only do things that she actually appreciates from you; if you do something, and it's clearly unappreciated, stop doing it. Let your own ego out of the equation: love is not about you. It's not about getting something. Love is about two things only: restraining yourself from causing harm, and doing welcome kindness.

Wednesday Aug 07, 2013

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Next up a week off work paid. Time to do some soul searching

Saturday Aug 03, 2013

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When do you walk away? When do you stop caring? When do you give up? When do you stop loving someone? I fucked up. There is no question to that. But that never stopped me from loving her. I just never knew how to deal with that love, and the fear that has been programmed into my life of letting someone love you.
mellon:

You walk away when you are asked to, and you come back when you are asked to, if you still want to. You also walk away if you think that staying is hurting the person you love, even if you are asked not to. If you love someone, you act in their interest. If you aren't acting in their interest, what you feel for them isn't love.

brightredscream:

I believe in fighting until you can't fight anymore.

Wednesday Jul 03, 2013

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Devastated. We broke up last night. 3 yrs and everything we went through and it's over. It's a lot of my fault. I did things and said things I shouldn't have. I love her more anything and it sucks I wish I could take those things back but I can't. And now I pay for that.

bringyouhell:

I'm sorry, man. frown

sbmick:

Hope you get feeling better man

Wednesday Jun 12, 2013

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Friday May 10, 2013

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mellon:

Escher meets Harley-Davidson? I like it!

cassy:

hey you. glad to hear your relationship is still hanging in there mister. wink it's all worth it in the end.
nice to see you're back.

Wednesday Jan 02, 2013

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New Year. New Things. New Happenings. Same Old Shit.

I'm kind of hoping that this year is a good year. That after the last 10 years or so of complete and utter bullshit that I can finally shake it off and get a good foot hold on moving forward.

Plans for the work to attain said goal are as follows.

1. Fix relationship. It...
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Friday Nov 16, 2012

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The nuances and memories. The new and the old.
When nothing else matters, where do you go?

My aggressive and abrasive nature is not appreciated by most people. It came to a head again. I didn't fight anyone but My boss is transferring me out of the store. Sucks the one dude I got along with was an ex-Naval Special Warfare dude. We got...
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evanx:

Yea. buthanging out here, looking at all the old pictures and reading all the old comments just depressed me. Everything was just so amazing and right in those moments, it can never be recaptured.

blackjacket:

you were right on, shit is crazy in the urban art department, i really enjoyed it

Thursday Oct 25, 2012

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eh...back.

this site has been my little sanctuary for 8 years. good or bad i always end up back. met some of the best friends i have from this site. so i come and go miss it and come back. whateves.

back in school again. have two drawing classes. its fun but i lost a lot of my ability not doing with it for...
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bringyouhell:

It's good to see you back!

blackheartdown:

Good to hear an update.
Dude, I use ratios and fractions all the time. Enginerd alert!
Don't question your good fortune, my man, and don't drop that phone.

Thursday Feb 16, 2012

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There are intrinsic qualities that great men and women have. These are qualities I think we all share yet most of us fail to realize in ourselves. Among these qualities are patience and determination. These are in fact key to success. Patience comes in to play when things start slowly or you experience set backs, which also requires determination. Without these to qualities, we would...
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666hostile666:

Welcome back dude!

666hostile666:

oh nothing, just getting tattooed, going to shows, trying to reclaim possessions of mine strewn along different states and shit. trying to look good while doin' it! ha!

update your blog yo ... smile i just got my dental billing for the first 2 phases == woof.

Monday Feb 13, 2012

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Update:
the Wolf and the Crow: I have all social media outlets covered. I wrote a business model and may have an investor.

Job: Fell through. Still looking for work.

Army: Re-enlistment may take 2 years now. Also, was told I will have to go Special Forces because of my original M.O.S. weirds me out a little. It's a lot of work...
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mothra:

Good luck on everything.

cockzombie:

what was your MOS? That's crazy!

Friday Jan 27, 2012

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Really need to stay motivated. So much going on but at the same time I am somewhat missing home not dramatically but home is home and sometimes you just want to have the same comforts you are used to. However, the good here out weighs the bad. The recruiter I am working with here seems dedicated to helping me out and at same time looking...
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demontribehollow:

Hey man, how was the weekend? I enjoyed the brusque explanation of proper Michigan resident terminology. Friday turned out to be absolute hell for me. Hope it was much better for you.

I think you should definitely go all-out & full-on with your site -- make it the best you possibly can with the time you have. Are you ex-military? Any special reason you lost your strength and are trying to get it back?

Remember to use cocaine to focus on what you want with surgical precision. (Not really.)

One of the best friends I've had in this life is from Lansing. I love the desert though. Can Lansing really hold a candle to Tempe? I heard Ann Arbor is... "interesting". (Read: "methy"?)

evangelin:

Love your about me quotes- So very true!!!!! Thank you for the friend request!!!!