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I don't know if anyone else ever feels this way, but sometimes I just want to cry. I can't. I feel like I need to, but the tears almost never actually surface. I am not even really sad. Not about myself. It is hard for me to know that so many people in the world are suffering and they don't deserve it. That despite endless efforts, people will always suffer. The people in the United States are so fortunate. I don't think very many people think about that. What we consider "necessary" are luxury items. It hurts my soul, as cheesy as that may seem. I just wish I could fix everything. If I could though, I would start with my little sister. She has suffered enough. I wish I could take her pain away. Followed by everyone else. I know it is not possible. Just a hopeless dream for a hopeless dreamer...

On another note, I just finished reading the BEST book. It is called The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold. It is about this 14 year old girl that is raped and murdered. She is telling the story from her perspective in heaven. It is extremely well executed. Such a wonderful book! I think everyone should read it!

For now lots'o'