audra

i was in so much pain this week. i didn't want to do anything. i had to stay completely still in order to avoid severe pain. it was amazing. i still went to work everyday. i can't afford not to. i took more painkillers than i ever have in my whole life. then i felt dizzy and sick, but i wasn't in as much pain. i started regreting taking so much when i could barely stand because i was so dizzy. i stopped worrying about having surgery and started WANTING it.

fortunately, the pain has greatly subsided.

i was also really depressed all week long. i would have been happy had i been wiped off the earth. whenever i am unhappy i am a major bitch. this was no exception. i tried to stay away from everyone. i still managed to piss people off. whoops! oh well. nothing i can do now. i guess this is all bred by frustration.

on the bright side i got the sluttiest-hottest outfit ever! now, if only i had somewhere to wear it.

emotions of the past few days: and most of all: