Okay everybody, prepare to be shocked and awed. Really, you're not going to believe this one...I had an awesome time with Tony last night. I know! I was shocked too! That only happens, like, well, when we're together. 
His friend Chris came home from Iraq, where he's been stationed as a Marine for while, and I went with Tony and a bunch of his friends...
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His friend Chris came home from Iraq, where he's been stationed as a Marine for while, and I went with Tony and a bunch of his friends...
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scylla:
The phrase in my journal entry is something I actually said during sex the other night, when he was asking me what it felt like... he then said it was a beautiful way of describing things. I dunno, we're really weird like that. I'm glad it's a shared sentiment, doll 
So here I am, in a place I wasn't planning on being for a very long time, if ever. At times I thought there was a chance, albeit small, that I would take up permanent residence in this city. I love San Francisco, and was planning on sticking around for a good couple of years more, at least.
Yet here I am, very strongly considering...
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Yet here I am, very strongly considering...
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alisa:
why don't you get him to come and stay there with you for awhile and see if he wouldn't like discussing the possibilities of finding a city that fits both of those ideals. you know a little bit of city a little bit country. you can look into a lot of different cities that could fit both of those. i don't know it's just a thought. but you shouldn't have to settle or "grow-up" to have the dreams you want come true.
thanks for still thinking of me while i was gone and on my birthday no less.
kisses
thanks for still thinking of me while i was gone and on my birthday no less.
kisses
lilyk:
hey~ I have a new group for nutrition and diet... If you think you might be interested 
http://suicidegirls.com/groups/Nutrition+and+Diet/
I wasn't sure if I should post in your group or not :
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http://suicidegirls.com/groups/Nutrition+and+Diet/
I wasn't sure if I should post in your group or not :
[Edited on Apr 11, 2005 11:05PM]
You can tell when I'm with Tony, because I have such little time to spend on here gushing about him.
Tomorrow ends the more than a week straight that I've gotten to see him everyday, and more important, got to spend a lot of time with him, and it was so fabulous. And not enough. After tomorrow morning, I won't see him until probably next...
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Tomorrow ends the more than a week straight that I've gotten to see him everyday, and more important, got to spend a lot of time with him, and it was so fabulous. And not enough. After tomorrow morning, I won't see him until probably next...
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datsun:
Congrats on that! You'll have to have a housewarming party! 
pollypocket:
Thank you so much!
You know, the one thing divorce has ruined for me, for the time being at least, is the idea of "forever." I felt like that was the only fallout from my parents' divorce, that I didn't really think things, relationships especially, could last forever. I didn't feel that was necessary a bad thing, it was just the way things were. But when I started thinking...
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obsidity:
Yeah but on the other hand when you were so distraught and upset and sad and lonely and thought that was going to go on and on, it didn't either.
I know what you mean and I know the feeling that you are feeling.
As they say "This too shall pass" regardless of it being good or bad. Unfortunately.
I know what you mean and I know the feeling that you are feeling.
As they say "This too shall pass" regardless of it being good or bad. Unfortunately.
billy_bill:
thanks 4 your post about my mom!
A year ago today (and by a year ago, I mean a logical year ago, last year Easter. And by today, I, of course, now mean yesterday) was what I count as one of the worst days of my life. I spent the evening sobbing, for what seemed like hours. Feeling like I couldn't breathe, couldn't speak, couldn't think. I think most of me knew...
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datsun:
I am so glad for this peek into your optimistic attitude! Reading your recent journal entries makes me smile!
obsidity:
wow has it already been a year????
holy crap.
And I'm dying cuz every day seems to take forever till august....
thanks for the birthday wishes love and I'm glad you're doing so well!!!
holy crap.
And I'm dying cuz every day seems to take forever till august....
thanks for the birthday wishes love and I'm glad you're doing so well!!!
Worst day ever. Well, not really, but worst day in a while, and based on the fabulousness of the past twoish months, it just seems all that much worse.
Did my taxes today. Well, up to the point of actually filing them, because the fuckers say I owe money. More money than I actually have at the present time. And all because I filed "Married...
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Did my taxes today. Well, up to the point of actually filing them, because the fuckers say I owe money. More money than I actually have at the present time. And all because I filed "Married...
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dogslife:
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dogslife:
Apparently, I've forgotten how to post images, and no amount of repetition is going to bring that meagre skill back.
Life is above fabulous (save for the job).
I'm stripping, for the first time ever (in public), in May. I'm very excited.
Today is my last day of school before Spring Break (whoo-hoo! Spring Break! Not really, though. I still have work.)
The boy was making some reference last night to "when we move in together...", and I totally got physically turned on
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I'm stripping, for the first time ever (in public), in May. I'm very excited.
Today is my last day of school before Spring Break (whoo-hoo! Spring Break!
Not really, though. I still have work.)
The boy was making some reference last night to "when we move in together...", and I totally got physically turned on
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datsun:
I want to see you nakie when you start dancing, if it won't make you uncomfortable...
datsun:
let me know when you have it nailed down. I promise to yell and scream for you, so even if you suck, everyone will think "this girl must be doing all the newest dance moves if she's getting so much attention..."
This is an example of the eternal optimist in me. I am so over being bummed about the divorce. All I can think is, "wow, I'm 23 and I've had 2 great loves. From what I understand, some people are lucky to find one." I feel incredibly lucky and grateful to have had the opportunity to have such experiences. How fucking weird am I? heh...
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ragefilledmuffin:
Thanks for the birthday wishes.
What an awesome outlook. I tend to believe that if you learn from an experience, its never a mistake and it makes you who you are. Which isn't exactly optimistic, but its better than some reactions.
What an awesome outlook. I tend to believe that if you learn from an experience, its never a mistake and it makes you who you are. Which isn't exactly optimistic, but its better than some reactions.
xip:
Fun!
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Dude, I made friends in my classes. I just realized this. heh. There are people I sit next to regularly, and who smile and wave when they see me. One guy in particular, Jayson, who has all my classes with me. We're cool. We had the same color pink hair for awhile (now mine is purple and black and his is red and black). And...
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fatboypezhead:
deal
xip:
Last year my ex was 32... 33 now... and getting his PhD... and he would throw a fit and accuse me of cheating on him if I hung out with my own friends who were my age... so my only friends were stuffy, preppy, disconnected middle-aged business-major PhD candidates... talk about lonely and unsatisfying... this year has been awesome and perfect in comparison... considering my oldest friend now is like 22, and none of them have kids or real jobs or suits. In fact I'm pretty sure all they have is pot and video games.
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Prom tickets are almost mine! They have been paid for, and are reportedly in the mail. And I have a fabulous date and an cool dress (I hope). I am very excited.
I am auditioning for a strip show tonight. I'm very nervous. I've never really stripped for anyone, save for an *ahem* private show last night. But cute girls keep asking me if I'm...
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I am auditioning for a strip show tonight. I'm very nervous. I've never really stripped for anyone, save for an *ahem* private show last night. But cute girls keep asking me if I'm...
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datsun:
ooooooooooooooooooh. if you guys want extra girls, I'd love to do something like that. I used to dance legitimately....
datsun:
rock. thanks!
They say beware the ides of March. They speak the truth.
This is reprinted from my journal a year ago (and was read at the funeral), when, on March 15, 2004, my mother-in-law died after a long, brave battle with cancer. She is still missed and remembered.
"I can probably count on one hand the number of times I referred to Stephanie as my mother-in-law....
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This is reprinted from my journal a year ago (and was read at the funeral), when, on March 15, 2004, my mother-in-law died after a long, brave battle with cancer. She is still missed and remembered.
"I can probably count on one hand the number of times I referred to Stephanie as my mother-in-law....
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I got home from Tony's house shortly ago. On the drive home, I was very aware of this peculiar state of being. My first thought was that I was feeling emotionally numb, and then I realized that was very wrong. I wasn't numb, I was at peace. It was beautiful, and I'm still feeling some residuals. At peace is apparently the hangover from the kind...
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joscelyne:
Awww! That's so great. I feel squishy inside, too, hehe. And I commend your crepe-flipping talents, because I can't even flip a freakin pancake or egg without it getting all warped-looking!
fatboypezhead:
look I'm sorry about the nose I promise I'll shave next time. I had a great time by the way. when should I be expecting you again?