jeebus, life is so strange and wonderful.
woke up at 9am to my phone ringing. its the cops. they found my car, its been towed from a dry cleaner. pay 215 bucks to get it back. la la la, driving along, stereo has been ripped out, cd's are gone, and the fucker took my Glasses. so i'm driving all blind. notice car making funny noises....
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woke up at 9am to my phone ringing. its the cops. they found my car, its been towed from a dry cleaner. pay 215 bucks to get it back. la la la, driving along, stereo has been ripped out, cd's are gone, and the fucker took my Glasses. so i'm driving all blind. notice car making funny noises....
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daylight savings and a Long walk home. Falling back is more more interesting than this "spring forward" stuff...i much prefer living an hour over again to having one vanish from existence. Fighting lots of urges these days. hope i'm picking my battles correctly. never have before so i guess i should expect some trouble.
blisters are no fun. i really need to quit smoking. i...
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damon:
placebo...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mephausto:
life is something, isn't it. or is it?
anyhow, no problem about missing dinner and yes, let's hook up and chill out sometime soon. past tuesday, I'm pretty busy so the best bets are either wednesday during the day--which might not work this week--or late night thursday or friday. freakin' schedule.
I'm not sure if I have a crush or not. I don't precisely know what I have aside from a mind that just refuses lucid living as of late.
I may not smoke or do drugs, or even do quite a bit, and I may feel well adjusted most of the time, but my mind is a truly fucked up organism towards the rest of me. bleh.
anyhow, no problem about missing dinner and yes, let's hook up and chill out sometime soon. past tuesday, I'm pretty busy so the best bets are either wednesday during the day--which might not work this week--or late night thursday or friday. freakin' schedule.
I'm not sure if I have a crush or not. I don't precisely know what I have aside from a mind that just refuses lucid living as of late.
I may not smoke or do drugs, or even do quite a bit, and I may feel well adjusted most of the time, but my mind is a truly fucked up organism towards the rest of me. bleh.
oh my god, Karma fucking Rules. lets see, after the car got stolen, several wonderful things happened.
i finally went to check out skervy, the queer night at the cobalt lounge. a bunch of rad people were there, including a girl that i'd met once and wanted to run into again for months. so i told her this, and we danced and had a whole...
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i finally went to check out skervy, the queer night at the cobalt lounge. a bunch of rad people were there, including a girl that i'd met once and wanted to run into again for months. so i told her this, and we danced and had a whole...
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rickroyal:
Glad to hear things are working out in the karma department. It's always nice running into girls with smiles in their eyes. Sometimes I fear I've built up quite a karmic debt; repaying said karmic debt is going to be hell.
Perhaps subconciously I desire to tell my father, but I really don't have any concious thoughts that I'm hiding a part of myself; it's not causing me any pain or stress that he doesn't know. Of course, as you said, it did pop up in a dream, so perhaps I have buried issues.
I wouldn't go so far as to say that Good Will Hunting sucked real bad. It was a simplisitic, unsubtle film that nonetheless seemed to achieve its rather unambitious goals in a fairly enjoyable fashion. I'd say the film was competently made. Same with Finding Forrester. I got the impression that it was made by people who knew what they were doing, did it reasonably well, and didn't stray from the formula that they knew would be satisfying to most audiences. I can certainly see where one could have major problems with both films, but I found them pretty enjoyable. I don't think I've ever seen all of To Die For, and I kinda avoided the Psycho remake because I never really liked the Hitchcock version anyway. In a few years, after a few more films, I think I'm probably going to have to have a van Sant marathon and really form an opinion about him and his work. As it stands, I really agree with you in that he's really hit or miss to me.
Perhaps subconciously I desire to tell my father, but I really don't have any concious thoughts that I'm hiding a part of myself; it's not causing me any pain or stress that he doesn't know. Of course, as you said, it did pop up in a dream, so perhaps I have buried issues.
I wouldn't go so far as to say that Good Will Hunting sucked real bad. It was a simplisitic, unsubtle film that nonetheless seemed to achieve its rather unambitious goals in a fairly enjoyable fashion. I'd say the film was competently made. Same with Finding Forrester. I got the impression that it was made by people who knew what they were doing, did it reasonably well, and didn't stray from the formula that they knew would be satisfying to most audiences. I can certainly see where one could have major problems with both films, but I found them pretty enjoyable. I don't think I've ever seen all of To Die For, and I kinda avoided the Psycho remake because I never really liked the Hitchcock version anyway. In a few years, after a few more films, I think I'm probably going to have to have a van Sant marathon and really form an opinion about him and his work. As it stands, I really agree with you in that he's really hit or miss to me.
tiamat:
i miss having a job. i have an urge to buy everything.
Have a great saturday. from the looks of it you will.
Have a great saturday. from the looks of it you will.
my fucking car just got stolen. i live in like the nicest neighborhood in portland and my car is like 15 years old. i fucking hate everything right now. i cant file a police report cause ALL i have is the VIN and apparently portland police wont do anything with that since its registered in jersey, they need the plate numbers. if anyone sees a...
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thursday:
holy shit!
i'm sorry. i'd bean them with my slingshot if i had half a chance.
ooooh, such idle words of threat. bagh....
i'm sorry. i'd bean them with my slingshot if i had half a chance.
ooooh, such idle words of threat. bagh....
madness_____:
MOTHER FUCK!!!!!
i'm giving up on having expectations. if they arent wrong, then the act of having them makes them come true.
why is it, that i cant get over this self-destructive pattern of wanting things that are obviously harmful. you'd think i was bored or something, always wanting to fuck with everything. only boring people get bored and i like to think i'm anything but boring....
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why is it, that i cant get over this self-destructive pattern of wanting things that are obviously harmful. you'd think i was bored or something, always wanting to fuck with everything. only boring people get bored and i like to think i'm anything but boring....
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madness_____:
Yes, I learned early on that you can't save anyone who doesn't want to be saved. Alot a people might bitch about their life and thier relationships, but they won't change nothing if you try to help. I left a girlfriend because she wasn't going to let me help her. All you could do is try not to hang out with people who will bring you down with their own problems when you have your own.
well jeez, this was the first day of real discussion in my philosophy class and it kicked ass. for a larger discussion group (i think about 35 people or so) it was way rad. you know a class is good when its just all of a sudden time to leave and no one has started packing up their shit and heading toward the door. i'm...
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josh:
I have classes mon/wed/fri from 9am to 3pm, with a break from 11:30am to 2pm. 
thursday:
ooooh philosophy...
i went to a friend's philosophy class once and almost got kicked out for getting the giggles. oops...
i went to a friend's philosophy class once and almost got kicked out for getting the giggles. oops...
after going on a very long involved journey to several record stores i finally got the new placebo. i'm diggin on it, sounds like they've been listening to a lot of new order or something. theres more electronica kinda stuff but also some punkier guitar songs. i need to find out if they're touring over here anytime soon.
saw Gerry tonight w ben. lemme just...
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saw Gerry tonight w ben. lemme just...
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mephausto:
it definitely was beautiful, intense, and patient. it's hard to really gather it all in; it's more of an experiential thing than it is a plot.
we need to hang out again soon. I didn't get enough face time with you, just mostly movie time. We had a great cover, though... I think I'll use that with other SG folks. Or something like "I met them in movie madness/powell's/music madness" or something hip like that.
because you kick major ass. that's the answer to a lot of your questions, I would have to say.
we do need to hang out and talk, though. I had no clue you were a psych major... we officially have something in common.
oh, and if I annoy you about showing off your hands, do just kick my ass and I'll cease and desist.
we need to hang out again soon. I didn't get enough face time with you, just mostly movie time. We had a great cover, though... I think I'll use that with other SG folks. Or something like "I met them in movie madness/powell's/music madness" or something hip like that.
because you kick major ass. that's the answer to a lot of your questions, I would have to say.
we do need to hang out and talk, though. I had no clue you were a psych major... we officially have something in common.
oh, and if I annoy you about showing off your hands, do just kick my ass and I'll cease and desist.
rickroyal:
I'd quibble slightly with the notion that a same sex partner will know better what will get you going, though, yes, they certainly will have a better understanding of what you're talking about when you tell them what you like. Minor quibble, though.
While I kinda dug Gerry, I kept wondering why they did it. The only reason I can come up with is: because they could. Good enough, I suppose, but still unsettling.
While I kinda dug Gerry, I kept wondering why they did it. The only reason I can come up with is: because they could. Good enough, I suppose, but still unsettling.
ohhh i have to run out right this second and get the new placebo. Yes!
my classes this quarter should be most interesting. psu Finally admitted me full time and is going to give me a transfer evaluation by next week. it kinda sucks that people i graduated high school with are getting degrees and i'm still floating somewhere around my junior year. but ya know what? good. i'm all for delaying working-stiff status for as long as possible. and...
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corvus_pdx:
Yer, a rad gal in my book.
Everyone goes at their own pace...
Don't rush yourself.
You'd regret it later.
Everyone goes at their own pace...
Don't rush yourself.
You'd regret it later.
mistressxxv:
Aw amb, we'll have to fix that situation then. Next time we party you're at the top of the list for a lap dance!
"thats the trouble with political people. There's not one of you, left, right, or center, who doesn't believe that the means are justified by the end."
With that he spiraled out of view.
With that he spiraled out of view.
madness_____:
I believe that the ends always justify the means. 
*there needs to be a evil grin smiley*
*there needs to be a evil grin smiley*
mephausto:
it's been changed to tuesday at seven, so hopefully you can adjust accordingly.
...that's the trouble with people, they only focus on the goal, and not the process, when the process is what is of utmost importance...
...that's the trouble with people, they only focus on the goal, and not the process, when the process is what is of utmost importance...
Sounds like you're life is rockin