Sunday Jul 13, 2003

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i hope everyone knows how fucked up the world we live in is. i thought i knew, and i got smacked the fuck in the face with the realization that i had NO FUCKING CLUE HOW HORRIBLE some people can be.

i'm trying really hard to keep in mind that there are wonderful caring empathetic people around too, but it just seems so impossible...
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tjaden:

frown

yeah, i hate hate hate hate hate shit like that.

but, i do believe that a good healthy kick of reality is neccessary from time to time. as harsh as it is, in the long run, it has helped me become a better person.

may a wonderful, caring, empathetic person bump into you tomorrow... smile

madness:

Sorry to hear about that.frown

But just to let you know I'm really evil, and nothing pisses my off more when someone tells me I a nice dude.

DAMN YOU ALL TO HELL!!!

Sunday May 18, 2003

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i spent all day in a ridiculously talkitive mood despite the fact that i'm sick (my reward for finally Quitting smoking) and sounded like a 14 year old boy with my voice cracking every other word or so. my laugh was even cracking Me up it sounded so funny. Oh and Jaws was on today which i was psyched about because for some reason...
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mistressxxv:

Damn, glad to hear your quitting. I'll lend any support necessary.

Thought I'd drop a note and say, "Halla!" I got back from Tallahassee last Wednesday evening. I miss her, BAD.

Sorry to hear about the illness. OJ and rest is all I can recommend. Well that and Hot Totties.

mistressxxv:

Heeelloooo? Is anybody out there?

Tuesday May 06, 2003

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*mysteriously appears in a cloud of blue smoke*

howdy kids, havent been around in a while and i hope all you nerds are partying (metaphorically or literally) like its 2099. i've been staying at Kat's house a lot and have no hookup over there, but i'm still in full effect on cloud 9. start working next week which Rules cause i desperately...
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corvus_pdx:

busy busy smile

mistressxxv:

As a lesbian virgin I cannot say what I'm in for upon her arrival.

And yes it is romantic. I pride myself in speaking the international language. Seduction, that is. wink

Tuesday Apr 22, 2003

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love

i'm not big on the smiley's but i'm sorry, it's probably a pretty accurate description of what i'm walking around looking like these days. now would be a good time for anyone to ask me for a favor cause i just want to run around making everyone as happy as i am. i've become the most courteous driver in...
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tiamat:

you are right. self doubt is for suckers. i am going to jump right in and talk to her. right when i get back... in like 3 weeks. no really...i will...

dutch:

Did you ever find a job? Sorry, I know it was a LONG time ago that we first talked about the job shit, but hell, it IS portland.....it might have taken a while.....I just found one.

Thursday Apr 17, 2003

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i want specifics on the general idea.
i want to think what i should know
i want you to do me one to show.
i want to see movies of my dreams.

i want see it when it when you get stoned on a clouded breezy desert afternoon.
i want to see it untame itself and break its owner.
i want to see it now...
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corvus_pdx:

Built to Spill - Car

mistressxxv:

It wasn't the kind of good pain then sends you into some sort of uphoria, but it was good pain. I felt like my muscles had been freed of tension and stress.

Tuesday Apr 15, 2003

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i am officially in the euphoric new relationship stage, the most glorious of all human stages if i do say so myself. she kicks my ass so hardcore and i'm having so much damn fun. we've both been getting yelled at by our respective housemates for being glowy all the time and talking about how happy we are too much, so we're...
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kengineer:

You're going to have to change your "I lost my virginity . . . " line.

Snow is a massage therapist.

corvus_pdx:

Damn,
You Lucky Assed Broad!

Get down with your bad self!

I'll drop ya another e-mail with the digits.

Don't lose em' this time.

k?

Sunday Apr 13, 2003

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so the driving around w a giant hole where my stereo was is kinda suckin. i've started talking to myself cause the quiet of it all just drives me nuts. mostly reciting simpsons episodes. its actually half disturbing half awsome how much of the shows i remember. i almost got through the Entire comic book episode, when bart and martin and millhouse buy radioactive...
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mephausto:

damn. you and I are going to have to go mono e mono in simpsons trivia sometime. level 5. hardcore. to the death.

corvus_pdx:

I can't say I'm a simpsons nut..
Yes, I did have their music album...
And I'd watch them whenever I could get away with it...
(My mother hated them of course)

But I'm sure my simpsons knowledge would pale in comparison to your vast quoting ability.

Saturday Apr 12, 2003

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you wake up to skin and breathing. it wasnt just a dream this time, you have your arms around it. she opens her eyes and you look at each other half awake but smiling in near disbelief. you had the best nights sleep youve had in six months. sunlight pours in through her window and you are drowning in a beautiful, beautiful day.
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mistressxxv:

Ok, now I'm REALLY envious.

Re: taxes. I just finished and they owe me. I was lucky this time....whew. The only problem with not filing by 4/15 is you have to file an extension, and I really only want to contact the government when I have to. The less, the better.

corvus_pdx:

Wooo Hooo!
Sounds like things keep gettin better for ya
smile

Thursday Apr 10, 2003

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spring fever is in Full effect, and i'm about as happy as a five year old that just jumped into a pool of ice cream. i have been hanging out with the crush a lot, my classes are kicking ass and i get to play another show next weekend. it's so weird to be thrown back and forth so quickly between not wanting...
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mephausto:

damn. you're on these days, huh? I'm so freakin' tired, at least one of us is kicking ass.

mistressxxv:

I'm supre envious. Your crush is local.... Oh well, I think I prefer the sleep deprivation of VERY late phone calls that last far too long! biggrin

I need to get my ass out of the apartment and walk around. But, I'm grounded. I grounded myself until I get my taxes done. It seem that is the only way I'm going to do them. Silly me.

Stay cool.

Wednesday Apr 09, 2003

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oh my god, could it be any nicer out today... i think not. i wish my neighbor would move her car so i could play some basketball. maybe i'll just go find some trees to climb but i Really just have to play outside today. i used to hate sunlight, but ever since i've moved out here i seem to enjoy it so...
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mistressxxv:

I know what you mean, I wanted to get out and do some educational reading by the river, but alas I spent too much time downloading the newest version of Acrobat Reader. What a waste.

As for the business partner mystery, I could tell you, but then I'd have to kill you...

On a serious note, when things become more solid, I'll start letting people know what I'm up to. Until then, the mystery gives us a competitive edge.

Tuesday Apr 08, 2003

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jeebus, life is so strange and wonderful.

woke up at 9am to my phone ringing. its the cops. they found my car, its been towed from a dry cleaner. pay 215 bucks to get it back. la la la, driving along, stereo has been ripped out, cd's are gone, and the fucker took my Glasses. so i'm driving all blind. notice car making...
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corvus_pdx:

Sweetness!
Sounds like you're life is rockin smile

nex_flamma:

I really hope you didnt eat the McFlurry...

Sunday Apr 06, 2003

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daylight savings and a Long walk home. Falling back is more more interesting than this "spring forward" stuff...i much prefer living an hour over again to having one vanish from existence. Fighting lots of urges these days. hope i'm picking my battles correctly. never have before so i guess i should expect some trouble.

blisters are no fun. i really need to quit...
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damon:

placebo...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mephausto:

life is something, isn't it. or is it?

anyhow, no problem about missing dinner and yes, let's hook up and chill out sometime soon. past tuesday, I'm pretty busy so the best bets are either wednesday during the day--which might not work this week--or late night thursday or friday. freakin' schedule.

I'm not sure if I have a crush or not. I don't precisely know what I have aside from a mind that just refuses lucid living as of late.

I may not smoke or do drugs, or even do quite a bit, and I may feel well adjusted most of the time, but my mind is a truly fucked up organism towards the rest of me. bleh.