OK. i went to the bank today, as i was instructed to do by the assistant manager (who has been extremely kind and helpful through this whole fucking ordeal from hell) and after two weeks of not knowing, of ulcers forming, of nail-biting, of anxiety and breakdowns...
the money orders are legit.
oh. my. god.
i cannot wrap my head around this. unless it was...
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the money orders are legit.
oh. my. god.
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punknitemike:
OMG...your mark ryden tattoo is absolutely incredible! im a HUGE fan of his and that tattoo of yours just blows my mind! and next time come to havana, i wanna meet you!!!
minarose:
marry me<3
i am A QUEUED WOMAN again! oh wow it made me feel better to see that. ive been checking it hourly. i freely admit im obsessive/compulsive, but only about certain things.
only certain things.
i will be so happy when my set goes up live; it will be a real good smackaroo right in the face for my ex. i am not a vindictive person....
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only certain things.
i will be so happy when my set goes up live; it will be a real good smackaroo right in the face for my ex. i am not a vindictive person....
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badsun2:
It sux ass when things get so bad it seems like there's no peace even after break-up. Fuck it! On your own life now anyway. Congrats on the cue. Looking forward to it 
mrkatos:
"after being deserted by the person you treasured above all others; it forces you to rethink a few things you took for granted as truths"
Very eloquent. You concisely state the harsh reality that one faces when going through a breakup. I wouldn't be surprised if many people would nod at your words and know them to be truth; I know this applies to what I was going through during a terribly messy breakup of my own several months ago.
I hope you feel better, that releasing your doubts and anger onto the written page helps ya feel less of that in real life.
Please don't feel that you are cheating on your ex if you do things he wouldn't approve of (including meeting new boys). One of the wonderful things I discovered was that I didn't have to consider myself in relation to my horrid ex anymore; likewise, your self-image should not be primarily influenced by the ex (one hopes he's more of a footnote, now). You don't have to compare his values and desires to yours, and try to hold his wants up as some sort of standard you are obligated to. In time the need to have a daily dose of joy at his misfortune or the impulse to feel despair when he appears to be succeeding at something, anything, will also fade. Hopefully, the need to know this person that in previous times gave the illusion that you knew all there was to know will fade. These are lessons I learned as I was putting myself back together after my breakup.
I can only hope you can glean some small sense of encouragement from my basically anonymous comment on your blog. Good luck! You deserve to feel good.
Very eloquent. You concisely state the harsh reality that one faces when going through a breakup. I wouldn't be surprised if many people would nod at your words and know them to be truth; I know this applies to what I was going through during a terribly messy breakup of my own several months ago.
I hope you feel better, that releasing your doubts and anger onto the written page helps ya feel less of that in real life.
Please don't feel that you are cheating on your ex if you do things he wouldn't approve of (including meeting new boys). One of the wonderful things I discovered was that I didn't have to consider myself in relation to my horrid ex anymore; likewise, your self-image should not be primarily influenced by the ex (one hopes he's more of a footnote, now). You don't have to compare his values and desires to yours, and try to hold his wants up as some sort of standard you are obligated to. In time the need to have a daily dose of joy at his misfortune or the impulse to feel despair when he appears to be succeeding at something, anything, will also fade. Hopefully, the need to know this person that in previous times gave the illusion that you knew all there was to know will fade. These are lessons I learned as I was putting myself back together after my breakup.
I can only hope you can glean some small sense of encouragement from my basically anonymous comment on your blog. Good luck! You deserve to feel good.
i am unqueued now and confusion is mounting. its been a rough month, friends. its been a rough five fucking years, to tell the truth and save a lie. i was just watching the first tour dvd of the suicidegirls and it looked like so much fun. id like to meet missy someday, but i bet she exists on a totally different astral plane than...
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itsy:
wait... babe are you queued or unqueued???
so confused.
p.s. you need to be queued!
so confused.
p.s. you need to be queued!
zombette:
thank you, apexxx. its hard to talk about, hard to write about, and hard to listen to; so thats a hell of a damn kind offer and i wont forget it. (i wont tell anyone that youre a softie, either. your secrets safe with me)
and now IM QUEUED!!
I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, I DONT KNOW HOW IT GOT FIXED, BUT IM QUEUED!! AND I HAVE A REAL HARD TIME TYPING THAT WORD!! SO ILL JUST SAY IM OFFICIALLY BACK IN LINE!!! HOORAY!!
and now IM QUEUED!!
I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, I DONT KNOW HOW IT GOT FIXED, BUT IM QUEUED!! AND I HAVE A REAL HARD TIME TYPING THAT WORD!! SO ILL JUST SAY IM OFFICIALLY BACK IN LINE!!! HOORAY!!
oooh kay... after a full friday night, saturday all day and night, and sunday all day and night of emailing various government officials (including my local cop shop, the state police, the attorney general, the FBI branch for dealing with email/internet fraud, my local paper... lets see... my bank of course... and everyone else on earth in AUTHORITY, explaining what a sucker i was and...
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zombette:
aaarrr matey meow heh heh
yeah it was a pisser of a weekend.
i think getting all the emails and documentation together and worrying about who i was going to have to talk to was the worst. and i still dont really know the full ramifications. the bank wont know what to do with me for at least a couple days. i could end up with a little of my money, i could end up dead broke and owing them a thousand dollars.
and im not going to think about that anymore. im going to go out there and try to establish myself so im not a 'noob' anymore. i swear some of the posts and shit on the boards reminds me of catty, nasty, inappropriate sorority girls fighting for alpha female.
whatever, dude, i just wish my set would go up already.
know what im sayin?
yeah it was a pisser of a weekend.
i think getting all the emails and documentation together and worrying about who i was going to have to talk to was the worst. and i still dont really know the full ramifications. the bank wont know what to do with me for at least a couple days. i could end up with a little of my money, i could end up dead broke and owing them a thousand dollars.
and im not going to think about that anymore. im going to go out there and try to establish myself so im not a 'noob' anymore. i swear some of the posts and shit on the boards reminds me of catty, nasty, inappropriate sorority girls fighting for alpha female.
whatever, dude, i just wish my set would go up already.
know what im sayin?
druggist:
oh, i remember you as a hopeful! congrats on going pink
im scared. i mean bullshit fucking terrified.
i dont know who reading this knows, but i have a few profiles set up on a few modeling sites. just hoping to get some freelance work or even prints because any model worth her salt has to have a decent portfolio. i get a lot of correspondence, actually, some of it good, some of it not so...
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i dont know who reading this knows, but i have a few profiles set up on a few modeling sites. just hoping to get some freelance work or even prints because any model worth her salt has to have a decent portfolio. i get a lot of correspondence, actually, some of it good, some of it not so...
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vance333:
I hate to say this but you've been taken . No one sends money orders to be cashed and then have the cash sent to them. THink hard , why would some forienger have you cash money orders and send them to an address in this country. You have one choice contact the FBI and let them know you are a victim of a scam .
This is the real world "TRUST NO ONE!".
This is the real world "TRUST NO ONE!".
christinarenee:
add me to your myspace
so now im kind of disappointed. i cant help it. alissa wrote me back and confirmed that its probably going to be 3 or 4 months before my set goes up. for some reason, i didnt think it was going to be that long. i thought maybe three weeks. its been a hundred degrees here all week and thats not helping anything. heat never helps....
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turbulence:
hope you won't get lost!
apexxx:
hey i think im just as impatient to see your set up as you are 
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ginary:
pretty hun welcome to pink! 
dorsal:
that looks like fun
im a suicidegirl and i still cant get used to it. you know, i am sure there are probably a thousand of us (us!!) here who by now take the entire thing for granted; and if someone asks they can be all cool and nonchalant like Oh yeah man, im SG, its been a while now, so how about them red sox?
but for me......
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but for me......
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zombette:
all im sayin, pretty baby; just wait until we catch up with the japanese.
call it my prediction of the day.
just wait.
them japanese are ruthless.
call it my prediction of the day.
just wait.
them japanese are ruthless.
I MADE IT!! I FUCKING MADE IT!! i cant help it, im PREENING. im preening like a goddamn PEACOCK. its mostly alissas doing, you know, i mean, im not THAT vain. a brilliant photographer can make even me look like a pinup queen. i cant wait until the set is five by five and ready to be viewed by everyone; i cant help feeling anxious...
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huck1eberry:
Congrats!
punknitemike:
oh hell yes, welcome! i LOVE your name by the way!
today my mom and i went to see the family and the fireworks at grandma and grandpas. mostly i went to see jerry and sarah, my two closest friends on the planet... its still seems so odd that jerry is roughly 9 years younger than me and yet has always had the advice and presence and compassion of a big brother. im damn lucky hes...
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sunshine:
YAY!! congrats on going pinkie soooo fast!! 
can't wait to see your set! 
Alissa RockS!
can't wait to see your set!
Alissa RockS!
sheena:
welcome pink!
pip pip cheerio and all that rot! i was having the devil of a time logging in here for a few days, but the SG angels came through in the end..
now theres a concept, eh? the SG Angels. like Charlies Angels, except wed report to missy and do our missions in secret and we would break all the laws even at the cost of...
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now theres a concept, eh? the SG Angels. like Charlies Angels, except wed report to missy and do our missions in secret and we would break all the laws even at the cost of...
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apexxx:
yeah Detroit is a shithole. should be an easy target to start with...
is it ok for ninjas to wear bling? i mean, i want to look good and all when we pull this off
is it ok for ninjas to wear bling? i mean, i want to look good and all when we pull this off
sunshine:
good luck! hope the set you shot with alissa gets accepted!
xo
xo
hey, my new checks finally came today, how about that? i opened a checking account at a bank, see, something i was really adamantly against doing since the last banking fiasco; my own blundering which i believe reduced the entire building to a black hole.
BUT they say if a horse throws you, try try again. isnt that what they say? or something? so im...
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beatmehurtme:
Uh oh...new checks but no job? However will we spend money?
apexxx:
i love black holes. ive been reading alot of stephen hawking books lately.
zombies arent supposed to be lonely and roam the earth by themselves! get rid of the "dead" weight and im sure youll find someone new to bite and infect!
zombies arent supposed to be lonely and roam the earth by themselves! get rid of the "dead" weight and im sure youll find someone new to bite and infect!