this morning i stood in our bathroom, and opened the window wide, looking out onto the rain and the cherry tree in the garden next to our house. i looked up at the wet and juicy sky with it's heavy clouds, intermingled with blue patches. the last few days have reminded me of spring, altho we're nowhere close.
as i washed my face and started...
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"if someone doesn't appreciate your open and tender heart, then they don't deserve to be with you."
now that's the thing you expect to hear come out of the mouth of someone who truly loves you, yes? words like cool water over the scathing ache in my chest after being deeply hurt by someone else who supposedly cares for me deeply. (see a couple journal...
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now that's the thing you expect to hear come out of the mouth of someone who truly loves you, yes? words like cool water over the scathing ache in my chest after being deeply hurt by someone else who supposedly cares for me deeply. (see a couple journal...
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jennifer:
We can so study for bitch-hood 
Happy Thursday sweetheart!
Happy Thursday sweetheart!
eyesquad:
Well if you would haul yourself over here for a vacation some time you would find your one an only waiting for you with open arms and a lot of snuggling. I'm still here, i'll call you tomorrow.
I'm still here, i'll call you tomorrow.
nothing like some 80s music and sweet dancing to knit your heart back together. 
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ayres:
Robot voice 
You Have an email
BIIIIIIIIP
You
Have an email
BIIIIIIIIP
retroactivwe:
'Twas lovely to see you, as always (so I'm a little late on the whole journal thing...)
what do you do when your very way of being in the world is rejected by someone you love? i don't mean like your style, or your vegan diet, or your politics. i mean, your very distinct, un-help-able, core way you deal with life?
funky dynamic you create with someone, i can get.
bad addiction that causes you to steal money from others --having issues...
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funky dynamic you create with someone, i can get.
bad addiction that causes you to steal money from others --having issues...
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oa55:
FunkTion is obviously a genius, you take his advice and be happy about it. Another idea is to get him drunk and super glue his ass cheeks together.
oldsarge:
When the student is ready, the teacher will appear. 
so. i've given you plenty of time. now cough it up...let me hear those new year resolutions. or thoughts. or grand plans that you secretely know you will NEVER act upon. or secrets that you will grandly act upon. or whatever motivated you to get out of bed this morning.
as for me, well. well well well. i have a few intentions up my sleeve....
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as for me, well. well well well. i have a few intentions up my sleeve....
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papawheelie:
woo!
how was your weekend?
i went to chico, where my best friend, amy, lives. we've known each other since we were 16, and she's the most magical person i've ever met. she's part of an art collective, called 'the den', and they all have this fantastical style that tickles my brain and sensibilities and makes me feel like spirits are whispering in my ear, all...
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i went to chico, where my best friend, amy, lives. we've known each other since we were 16, and she's the most magical person i've ever met. she's part of an art collective, called 'the den', and they all have this fantastical style that tickles my brain and sensibilities and makes me feel like spirits are whispering in my ear, all...
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papawheelie:
just stopped in to say 
hi
hi
illbillzillbub:
i dont know what i was doing when your 'Raccoon' set went up
not paying attention....errk!!
i love it
not paying attention....errk!!
i love it
2004 can kiss my ass.
at some point i might do a little retrospective, honest, base touching journal re: my journey through this year. but right now, i want to say thank you. to everyone who got my back through all the layers of crap that came down, especially the last 4 months.
to everyone who responds to my journal on a regular basis, all...
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at some point i might do a little retrospective, honest, base touching journal re: my journey through this year. but right now, i want to say thank you. to everyone who got my back through all the layers of crap that came down, especially the last 4 months.
to everyone who responds to my journal on a regular basis, all...
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datsun:
Happy New Year (and a little for your adorable dog)
for your adorable dog)
funktion:
thanks 
though i think im just a mirror sometimes
happy new year!
though i think im just a mirror sometimes
happy new year!
happy solstice!
tell me about you...tell me what passed away in the fall. what lies fallow now. what is waiting in the quiet dark? have you even begun to think about seeds, about germination, or are you just resting after all the intensity of decomposition? who are you holding dear on this long night of winter? if you are alone, what are you holding close...
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tell me about you...tell me what passed away in the fall. what lies fallow now. what is waiting in the quiet dark? have you even begun to think about seeds, about germination, or are you just resting after all the intensity of decomposition? who are you holding dear on this long night of winter? if you are alone, what are you holding close...
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keltdruid:
Blessed Yule to you as well!
Hoping to plant a few seeds of change in my life: new job, newly single, new friends. The harvest of 2004 is over and all I reaped were stink weeds (lol). Just ran across your porfile and thought it would be cool to chat.
Later.
Hoping to plant a few seeds of change in my life: new job, newly single, new friends. The harvest of 2004 is over and all I reaped were stink weeds (lol). Just ran across your porfile and thought it would be cool to chat.
Later.
keltdruid:
P.S. I have Sag sun, virgo ascendant and Taurus moon-but I have Pluto on my ascendant as well, so i have a strong Scorpio feel as well
i actually just wrote a new entry, but this new story takes absolute precedence. (presidence? precidence? wtf?).
three days ago, i vividly wondered to myself if there were any coyotes in san francisco. i've seen foxes. hawks. owls. racoons...but as i searched my memory, i was certain i'd never heard of a coyote here in the city. the last time i saw one, it was...
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three days ago, i vividly wondered to myself if there were any coyotes in san francisco. i've seen foxes. hawks. owls. racoons...but as i searched my memory, i was certain i'd never heard of a coyote here in the city. the last time i saw one, it was...
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muller:
Sure i've got one for you. I'm in the area, so I could bring it to you at the next SGSF event.
listening at mac dot com
listening at mac dot com
screamqueenpinup:
Wishing You & Yours All The Best This Holiday Season,
& Here's To A Healthy & Prosperous Year In 2005!
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. .)
( . *hearts sqp*
Wishing You & Yours All The Best This Holiday Season,
& Here's To A Healthy & Prosperous Year In 2005!
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( . *hearts sqp*
i have a secret spot. one of those sweet places that prove you're truly a local if you know about it. (altho with recent guide book publications, seems like it's not so secret anymore). but this place, these hot springs, are pretty remote, and far enough away from urbanity to retain that feeling of discovered treasure.
i drive through the mountains, an hour from my...
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jennifer:
Thanks hunny that really does mean A LOT
papawheelie:
I've read this journal like 6 times and every single time I read the first line and think something naughty like " oh i bet you do" or the equivilant. I am so bad.
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sabre:
Hi again!
Thank you for your post to my journal!
I totally agree....I would not be out shopping today, or even this weekend....even at gun point!
I'm like you in that I need the added pressure to inspire me to shop. If I go to early, I'll pick something up and look at it, but not make a decision to buy because I think I've still got time to think it over or maybe I'll find something better.
Yes, I had a fun day yesterday with a house full of family....18 of us....and it was great to see some of them that live away and I only get to see once or twice a year.
How was your Thanksgiving?
Take care,
Thank you for your post to my journal!
I totally agree....I would not be out shopping today, or even this weekend....even at gun point!
I'm like you in that I need the added pressure to inspire me to shop. If I go to early, I'll pick something up and look at it, but not make a decision to buy because I think I've still got time to think it over or maybe I'll find something better.
Yes, I had a fun day yesterday with a house full of family....18 of us....and it was great to see some of them that live away and I only get to see once or twice a year.
How was your Thanksgiving?
Take care,
molonel:
"that "not taking shit feeling" seems to happen for a lot of folks at 30...it feels good." - you
Amen to that.
Amen to that.
boy, the intellect is over-rated. especially when used by people who think it isn't. you know what i think is far more exciting? listening to someone and being unsure. not having to be right. not making yourself wrong. giggling at ambiguity. and inviting it in.
the past two months have consisted entirely of my external life not having much to show for my existence, and...
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the past two months have consisted entirely of my external life not having much to show for my existence, and...
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spaztikfantaztik:
amen, sister!
please pass the momo's!
please pass the momo's!
lordbear:
Umm, wow.
I just happened along hereabouts and now I have this strange sensation.
You see, I'm chronically stuck in my head. It's a good head. The brain works mostly very well - excepting the memory glitches. - but it gets in the way. Feeling is a little alien sometimes. And with Cancer rising that's a problem.
So, I am feeling. Your words touch me and awaken things within. Your words express things I am only dimly aware of in myself. And beyond that, they intrigue me. Call to me. Invite me to my own deeper inner realms.
Not to overplay the astrology thing, but my Libra Moon loves your juxtapositions. Constrasts are what make life interesting. The simultaneous holding of seeming opposite or contradictory notions is real, alive and mysterious.
Oh dear.... I just went to see your pics. You're a belly dancer. Oh my. Um, err, I don't know what to say. Love ethnic dance. Dated dancers, been to Rakkasah many times, do some doumbhek. Gulp. I may be smitten.
Nope, I am. Twitterpated. Clever, sexy, conscious, real, beautiful and more. You have a new fan.
I just happened along hereabouts and now I have this strange sensation.
You see, I'm chronically stuck in my head. It's a good head. The brain works mostly very well - excepting the memory glitches. - but it gets in the way. Feeling is a little alien sometimes. And with Cancer rising that's a problem.
So, I am feeling. Your words touch me and awaken things within. Your words express things I am only dimly aware of in myself. And beyond that, they intrigue me. Call to me. Invite me to my own deeper inner realms.
Not to overplay the astrology thing, but my Libra Moon loves your juxtapositions. Constrasts are what make life interesting. The simultaneous holding of seeming opposite or contradictory notions is real, alive and mysterious.
Oh dear.... I just went to see your pics. You're a belly dancer. Oh my. Um, err, I don't know what to say. Love ethnic dance. Dated dancers, been to Rakkasah many times, do some doumbhek. Gulp. I may be smitten.
Nope, I am. Twitterpated. Clever, sexy, conscious, real, beautiful and more. You have a new fan.
We talked on the phone cuz he was rather busy at the time.
The guy is booked up 'til April ah! But I think it's worth it... He is really good and I want something very detailed so time is not an issue.
Thanks for the tip!!
I'm happy that your birdie friends are back.
We should do coffee or something. I got to see you the other day, but I didn't really get to talk with you.