rubyrouge

hello. i've been pretty busy too, hardly been on here in weeks. its strange - you worry that people have moved on or something

hope the auctions go well. i love the choker. wonder if my mum would like it...

your beats & rhymes have begun their trans-atlantic journey.

lady day = billie holliday

you've got mail

You did indeed miss a good night. Lady Luck sounds good for Friday...

Yes, I am leaving, but not for another 3 months or so. I plan on squeezing the most out of the time so I'm sure we'll get a chance to cut a few rugs in the interim...



And yeah, I do feel a whole lot better!

[Edited on Apr 18, 2005 10:21PM]

I'm going out! I'm actually going out! Just down the road to some works do but it's a start!
Thanks for the hugs, helps a lot

hi honey...I answered your question in an update...nothing is wrong with it...

Hehe, pretty peach!!! Now my day shall be dandy

sigh....Feel like going dancing again sometime?

Yes it will be fine if you come on Sat. It will be great to see you again.
Can meet you before going on to there if you like, to make it a little easier..

Hopefully I will be coming to Italy England Scotland and Ireland that is if it all works out as planed.

I hope you week went as well as mine

Trying to avoid that awkward call is truely horrible. I suggest not answering your house phone, get others to do it for you hehe. And if his number flashes up on your mobile just immediately turn your phone off. Ekk, I know it's mean and cruel but it's the easiest way out... for you anyway!!!

Can't wait to see your piccies from Saturday night. Sounds like you had a heavenly evening

Welcome to the Dead Vagina Club!

hey there!

been away for a while. been reading through your posts, and its good to see that you're feeling better. 'company' can definately lift the spirits

how was cricket?!

I feel your pain because I know it only too well. I have a job I hate but am afraid to give up its boring but safe recompense. I only woke up to the fact that it was killing me slowly from the inside when my life sort of fell apart last year. So plan was made, applications sent, expectation high...and it all just falls apart. But I am still standing and all I can do is make another plan and keep trying to find my little place in the world.

I admire you for making a go of things and taking a risk. At least you're 5 years behind! Still lots of room to manoeuvre for you. What you are feeling now is urgency. Your chest is tightening, you feel this general emptiness but you don't know how to act. You also are now feeling guilty for all the procrastination you've been doing. I can guarantee you whatever amount of procrastination you've done, I've done more.

I can't exactly help you (you know the only person who can) and I won't offer any advice...but I will say this:

Necessity is the best motivator for people like you and me. I think you are getting to the point where you MUST do something or go stark raving mad.

We'd also prefer a world where we could reach our goals in long superhuman leaps rather than the legion of inifintesimal steps that we end up having to take.

I'll make you a deal: if you don't give up, I won't either.

[Edited on Apr 07, 2005 9:51PM]

I've been there more than once & am not entirely out of it myself yet, so I can empathise with you. Your mood may be intensified by the comedown after your break - which isn't to say that you don't need to take stock & make some decisions which may go against what you want to do in the short term, It may be hard to take a job you don't want to do to pay the bills until you can build up your business, but that is life. Small beginnings ....
You have already acheived things you can be proud of: don't denigrate those and certainly don't abandon your business or even trivialise it: it IS yours, you are doing something which you enjoy, and the results of your effort are beautiful and well made. Your skill and creativity may not be paying for itself at the moment but that takes time to achieve, and you have that in your favour. 'Hang in there'.

[Edited on Apr 08, 2005 12:16PM]

I loved that book!

Wow that is interesting, I hope your day is going well.

By the way me and a friend might be coming your way this summer, I have already made plans to visit some of my other sg friends if you would like to hang out while im there just let me know.

Yay, you're back. Wasn't the same without you lady

I'm glad you had such a good time. But getting back to real life is horrible but it'll all seem better in a few days.

What do you have a degree in toots???

Hey! Maybe you should do a set for SG... that would be a small boost to your bank account.

I'm going here for the weekend. It is very inexpensive. something like 100 including food and board.

Well. Was it good?

Yes it does! I've had it before. It's certainly not as good as the fresh stuff but it is tasty as long as one has the sweet mustard with it.

*home alone and ill with no prospect of Weiwurst is seems*

ps: does this mean you're back in the UK?

[Edited on Apr 04, 2005 11:56AM]