cutriver

I like your idea about the full moon. I will bring it into practice. In fact, I'm going one step further and celebrating my menstrual periods too. They've gotta count for something!

I think HD's got something. If you try to kiss her and it doesn't work, well you've got a friend still likely. I would. You are obviously smitten with her.

Sounds like a lovely day.

OH MY GOODNESS. BL's a lucky kitten. And aren't you the busy boy! Good-o.
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I've been a bad email pal...still trying to master juggling (sigh).

I need to check out that Frey book, too. Goodness. It sounds like one of those life-altering deals.

"(All these writers and thinkers are ultimately saying the same thing because there is only one thing to say.)" You are the first academician I've ever encountered who's ever said such a thing. I am SO GLAD you wrote that!!!!

For this reason (and several others), I will gladly be your concubine. (sigh, flutter, repeat)

Would've liked to have seen a pic of you all mohawk'ed out. (Faux-hawk'ed?)

Losing everything to find it...YES. Yes indeed. I know that tune. It's romantic. Bittersweet.... The stuff of fantastic art...

unabashed ,

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Excellent...one picture is certainly better than no pictures at all! My usual places of hiding are similar to yours: libraries (two within walking distance & the dues have been cleared up ), cinemas (three within five miles) and the most dangerous being...used bookstores! All sense of control nearly gets pitched out the window save money for coffee.

I wish to restore your faith in me. I have a lot of favorite actresses. Jill was the only one I had a quick picture of and while she look like a hollywood robot, she is slightly left of center and by hollywoods standards not that good of an actress. But, my all time favorite is Gena Rowlands. Again, slightly off center, but real in a very unreal sort of way. Have you seen any of her work? Particulally with her husband John Casavettes?

My father used to design communications systems for airports. We lived all over. I went to boarding school in India, paid for my by dad's company. Odd situation, all rich kids and diplomats' kids, and minor royalty. My sister and I stuck out quite dramatically.

My mom? Ah. She's still about, considerably older than me. We're very similar in many ways, perhaps that's the source of the friction. I despise her passive aggressive ways and the fact she has the emotional age of a 10 year old and throws tantrums. She's a strong woman, survivor of the Depression, abuse, family drama. I admire her and love her generous heart. So yeah, it's love-hate. We've had some pretty close moments over the years and some pretty horrible ones too. What can I say, family.

And who is this Atsuko? Sounds very exotic and intelligent. Please share.

Yeah, that li'l survey spread through the circle of friends like wildfire... I put mine up as penance for avoiding obnoxious e-mail surveys that folk send my way. I usually need another one of those like I need an e-mail full of lawyer jokes. Edited to add that drummer and guitarist jokes are still priceless!

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Love is bought and bodies are sold...All is right with the world. Congratulations!

Cutriver's got a girlfriend!!!!!

I always liked the things Fred said, but I always disagreed with one famous quote. If it had been moi whom said it, I would have said 'That which does not kill me only draws attention to itself so I may deal with it later', or as Trevor said 'That which does not kill me just makes me stranger'



I know nothing about astrology. I know I am a Leo, and I have a fire sign, but that is all. Is there a good site that I can just plunk in info and it will give me the lowdown?

That which does not make us stronger will certainly kill us.

OK- that's fucked. That album is playing on the netradio RIGHT NOW!

What the hell do I know-- Ah'm frum TEXAS! Yee-ha! I didn't think the pitch monkeys would be actual religious pagans, but that the percieved rowdy aspects of it would appeal greatly to them. Or something...

Actually, I totally believe you about the fort-- and I'm insanely jealous. You should be thankful you live somewhere that has so many remnants of worlds long past... I firmly believe that the near total lack of true historical structures in America is a significant factor in shaping our increasingly short-sighted, shallow, throwaway perception of life. The postwar suburban housing boom never stopped, and now the majority of kids here have never seen a building more than fifty years old, if that. And it shows, poor bastards.

So, grasshopper, you have accepted the challenge. Good. Get a pencil, the darker the better, a book of drawing paper, and a kneaded eraser (It may have another name there, but it's usually just a little grey rubber square, you tear it apart and smush it back together to clean it. It's the best drawing eraser because it's good and it's also malleable.) Whenever you draw, sit alone in a comfortable, quiet place (calm music is ok) with a solid surface for you to work on (lap desk ok-- table better). Now: two or three times (at least 30 min. per) over the next few days, I want you to just draw. Doodle around. Really get in touch with the materials (I sound like a goddamn hippie). The only physical skill in art, the extent of all practical application of technique, concerns the behavior of the materials themselves. And all of our materials have a very short learning curve for basic material proficiency.
Okay, once you're warmed up, I want you to start a Doodling Autobiography. That is, I want you to go back to your childhood and remember all the things you used to draw, little characters in the margins of your history notes multiplication tables. Don't worry about how they look, just get them down. The other thing is to draw a kind of collection of archetypes-- man, woman, dog, house, car, tree, bird, boat, plane, sun, moon, cloud, mountain, ocean, etc. Do all the basic ones (use your own judgement), but pay particular interest to whatever kinds of things you want to focus on portraying. The goal is partly to develop a basic repetoire of images, but mainly for you to own the materials. To hold a pencil naturally (by the way, feel free to hold it in whatever way makes it most effective-- I like pencil style and knife style, but my Iron Monkey style shall defeat you!), to draw a line with absolute certainty and conviction. Think about Lascaux, about all the marks in all the caves in the world. Imagine that man, torch blazing in the darkness, discovering the mystical power of the rendered image. I would imagine the moment to be overwhelming, maybe something like Rbt. Oppenheimer watching as his "baby" is born? I'm sure the caveman had no idea how profoundly he had altered the couse of human evolution, but I'm sure the hair on the back of his neck stood up. He MAY have gotten very, very scared. I say all this only because I believe that art is sacred. It doesn't really matter what or how you draw, just the mind you come to it with.

I can't imagine how amazing it would be living in France..! I may make it over there hopefully within the next few years. At least Italy will be conquered next year.

So iPod stuff... I purchased a 20 Gig which is the slightly higher than middle of the road model. Highest is 40G, smallest is the Mini @ 4G. Overall I have nearly 40G of music on my computer but, I wasn't interested in that much storage. A lot of what I have on my hard drive is randomness...the odd albums ripped from library loans, stuff re-mastered from vinyl for the sake of experimentation, etc. The essential stuff in my day to day listening fancy is more like 10G w/ an extra 10 thrown in for extra room or "left field" choices. One of the uses I may start playing with is books on CD... Apple really got behind audio books on its music store & the idea makes sense. My local libraries & video stores have tons of unabridged books on disc. Expanding my collection of digital media can take on this avenue, as well. Jealous over your soon-to-be acquisition of an iBook. Elbereth has one and my future notebook purchase (whenever that is :whatever will undoubtedly be that!!!

Satanists. Or Grisly murderers. I don't quite see the absence of perception running here, sir.

if I knew any secrets about the Need, maybe i could remember them long enough to put em to words. as it is, sounds like you got it well in hand now, going out of the pattern instead of into it.

solution for the neighbor kids, not a good solution mind you, but a solution nonetheless:

Buy 25 barbie and/or ken dolls, rip off the heads, burn em a little, plant them about the garden, fence, anywhere easily visible from the street. make a bunch of small, hard to read placards that say nice things about children, ducks, moms, and birthdays. toss them about. go home as fast as possible, sit out side and read, smoke, drink, maybe write a little, smile at all the kids as they go by, wave, maybe even a thumbs up, or a similar regional positive gesticulation. repeat until either they stop being little asses, leave you alone, or you get arrested. in any case your problems will be solved...


well ok cut out the first two steps, seriously, one of the shittiest things about being a kid is when someone responds to you adolescent bullshit with friendly kindness, if not a little disdain. I was a shit, and I never gave any hack to someone who looked me in the eye and smiled. strike that I'm still a bit of a shit, but it holds true to the day

oh and the astrology thing....so-so, about to be expected, enough to justify interest, but not without serious gaps... but I'll go of on that tangent later

Heya,
TA is a Teaching Assistant (Usually Doctoral candidates taking on the dirty work with which Profs refuse to sully their hands like leading Tutorials). I'm impressed by your American teen speach...
Being half Finnish is cool...being an EU citizen is even cooler. I have to apply for my passport. Maybe I can find a position nursing the overindulgent and hungover in Ibiza or somewhere similar.
Sounds like a wonderful day out. Too bad 'bout those little shites across the way. Most likely future guests of Her Majesty. Do they still wear arrows on their uniforms? One good thing about having worked in Jail...you learn to deal with assholes.

Interesting Clint Eastwood synchronicity, as well.

(sigh)
I think I am going to have to make you my SG crush.
wuv
s

I can completely sympathize about alcohol 'imbalances'. It reminds of the old Homer Simpson quote of, "Here's to alcohol - The cause of and solution to most of life's problems." Every steady increase in my life has caused my quality of life to plummet...happiness on hiatus, relationships blown to dust and scattered, etc. Nothing fun which one would expect while you're drinking!

Official Unbirthday Parties...may have to remember that for next month! Leaves plenty of time to construct a very conservative guest list.

To see the Summer Sky
Is Poetry, though never in a Book it lie -
True Poems flee -

c.1879

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July 5, 1972 (I'll have to check with my maman about time, stay tuned) Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

thanks for the tip - I'll look for Jim White. I like alt.country.

reminds me of an interview with Jay Farrar from the seminal alt.country outfit Uncle Tupelo ............ in which Farrar says he and his bandmates were listening to punk and folk ballads at the same time - and the folk ballads were really much more dangerous than the punk music

Your description was VERY dead-on, or so I'm told. My friend wants to know if you can do hers. Her info is: July 13, 1983, 2:45 AM. I'll write more on your assesment later. Thanks so much for doing that for me!