I feel like I miss something I've never had.
user8935778:
I know what you mean. I think.
bettietwoguns:
that must be me. 
Now Playing: New Blink 182 album
Now Reading: lost boy, lost girl - Peter Straub
My guiltiest pleasure which isn't really a guilty pleasure is my Blink 182 cd collection. I've always had the attitude that life sucks, if you find something that makes you happy without fucking someone over in the process, do it and fucking love it with no regrets. So, there's that....
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Now Reading: lost boy, lost girl - Peter Straub
My guiltiest pleasure which isn't really a guilty pleasure is my Blink 182 cd collection. I've always had the attitude that life sucks, if you find something that makes you happy without fucking someone over in the process, do it and fucking love it with no regrets. So, there's that....
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Now Playing: A day in Space - Ballboy (best non cheesy feel good song EVER)
Now Reading: Lost Boy Lost Girl - Peter Straub (If you're into non obvious horror, and Neil Gaiman, and haunted houses, read this)
I realized tonight that I'm in my best moods when I'm at work. I have so much fun talking about books with people, using my self depricating...
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Now Reading: Lost Boy Lost Girl - Peter Straub (If you're into non obvious horror, and Neil Gaiman, and haunted houses, read this)
I realized tonight that I'm in my best moods when I'm at work. I have so much fun talking about books with people, using my self depricating...
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user8935778:
thats so awesome.
i know the feelings you have. all of them. stupid things about people in general that make you go "wow.." or "oh..." or "sigh.."
people at work.. or in my case at school. and then someone special.
hes odd. so odd. and so quirky. and so himself. that sometimes i wonder if the magic 8 ball is right. and i wonder if this is all a dream. but then im standing on his mother's dock in key largo.. and smiling.. because its so beautiful on that thanksgiving evening.. and hes in a paddle boat below me.. and he paddles up to say, "hey pretty lady.."
and he joins me on the dock.. and even though there's no music.. we dance a few steps of the tango.. and he reminds me i said we'd go to arthur murray together to learn to ballroom dance. and on the way home.. he drove my car. and we sang along to the all request weekend on the oldies station.. and when the words say "i love you" in the song he looks at me.. and sings along.. and he complains i never stay awake long enough to talk after we get it on.. but its because im so worn out.. and i know he curls me up in his arms anyhow.. because i woke up that night in his arms.. and i whispered that i loved him.. and fell asleep nose deep in his neck..
we need more men like odin.. god of poetry, war, wisdom and death. we need more men to breathe into man and woman the spirit of life. more men who have eyes.. (well hoepfully more than one) that blaze as fierce as the sun. we need more men who read. and i need more hours in the day to read all the things id like to read.. and the stack of books beside my bed.
im glad youre happy.
i know the feelings you have. all of them. stupid things about people in general that make you go "wow.." or "oh..." or "sigh.."
people at work.. or in my case at school. and then someone special.
hes odd. so odd. and so quirky. and so himself. that sometimes i wonder if the magic 8 ball is right. and i wonder if this is all a dream. but then im standing on his mother's dock in key largo.. and smiling.. because its so beautiful on that thanksgiving evening.. and hes in a paddle boat below me.. and he paddles up to say, "hey pretty lady.."
and he joins me on the dock.. and even though there's no music.. we dance a few steps of the tango.. and he reminds me i said we'd go to arthur murray together to learn to ballroom dance. and on the way home.. he drove my car. and we sang along to the all request weekend on the oldies station.. and when the words say "i love you" in the song he looks at me.. and sings along.. and he complains i never stay awake long enough to talk after we get it on.. but its because im so worn out.. and i know he curls me up in his arms anyhow.. because i woke up that night in his arms.. and i whispered that i loved him.. and fell asleep nose deep in his neck..
we need more men like odin.. god of poetry, war, wisdom and death. we need more men to breathe into man and woman the spirit of life. more men who have eyes.. (well hoepfully more than one) that blaze as fierce as the sun. we need more men who read. and i need more hours in the day to read all the things id like to read.. and the stack of books beside my bed.
im glad youre happy.
bruiser_boy:
I really like what I have heard by Deadbolt. They're one of the few psycho/surf bands whose sound I would describe as truly sinister. The speed they play at on their recordings is almost agonizing, because its just a step down from being fast enough to wreck to, but its fast enough to get the muscles in my neck to tense in preperation. My only problem is that they, like most of the west coast bands, never actually play west of texas, so seeing them or finding material by them requires long trips.
Now Playing: Random black metal
Now Reading: Nothing. The crackhead stole my only 3 new books I owned
I skipped out on therapy last night. I don't really know why. I know that not being able to afford the medication that bi-polar folks are supposed to take really hurts. Having to deal with this alone without help is fucking harder than hell.
I spent the...
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Now Reading: Nothing. The crackhead stole my only 3 new books I owned
I skipped out on therapy last night. I don't really know why. I know that not being able to afford the medication that bi-polar folks are supposed to take really hurts. Having to deal with this alone without help is fucking harder than hell.
I spent the...
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bettietwoguns:
one of my very good friends takes flax seed oil to ease the bi-polarity. he's been doing it for almost a year. you might try it. i dunno if it will work for you, but it couldn't hurt to try. flax seed oil is really good for your liver, too.
Now Playing: Disintegration - Cure
Now Reading: Vlad the Impaler (The Search for Dracula) - Can't remember the author and I don't want to go in the other room to look at the book.
Nina = my new favorite suicide girl. I seriously didn't think girls ever looked like that. I thought that was just in my head or in books.
I watch The Mothman...
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Now Reading: Vlad the Impaler (The Search for Dracula) - Can't remember the author and I don't want to go in the other room to look at the book.
Nina = my new favorite suicide girl. I seriously didn't think girls ever looked like that. I thought that was just in my head or in books.
I watch The Mothman...
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xxanastasiaxx:
I really like the mothman prophecies too..I didn't expect it to creep me out as much as it did.
Sorry to hear about your truck.
Have you read The secret life of Laszlo Count Dracula?
It's Dracula with a bit of Jack the ripper, with erotic undertones. It's pretty good. If you think you would like to read it and can't find a copy, email me and let me know. I'll happily send you mine.
Sorry to hear about your truck.
Have you read The secret life of Laszlo Count Dracula?
It's Dracula with a bit of Jack the ripper, with erotic undertones. It's pretty good. If you think you would like to read it and can't find a copy, email me and let me know. I'll happily send you mine.
bruiser_boy:
For some reason one of my friends is deathly afraid of the mothmen. If you mention them to him while he's drunk he gets panicky and has to go inside.
Now Playing: Disintegration - Cure
Now Reading: Vlad the Impaler (The Search for Dracula) - Can't remember the author and I don't want to go in the other room to look at the book.
Nina is now my official new favorite SG. I didn't know they made girls like her. Woot.
So, I'm currently house sitting for a friend and he let me drive his...
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Now Reading: Vlad the Impaler (The Search for Dracula) - Can't remember the author and I don't want to go in the other room to look at the book.
Nina is now my official new favorite SG. I didn't know they made girls like her. Woot.
So, I'm currently house sitting for a friend and he let me drive his...
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Now Playing: The Stars - Look Up
Now Reading: (Finishing up) American Gods by Neil Gaiman
Thanksgiving. Yeah. Woo. Food, broken toilet, gay couple squabbling, me sick, played with a friends new HK .40, got drunk on Captain Morgans Private Reserve (good sahh!) then, meat and pills.
You know that phase in a "relationship" where you are still "just hanging out" but you feel yourself...
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Now Reading: (Finishing up) American Gods by Neil Gaiman
Thanksgiving. Yeah. Woo. Food, broken toilet, gay couple squabbling, me sick, played with a friends new HK .40, got drunk on Captain Morgans Private Reserve (good sahh!) then, meat and pills.
You know that phase in a "relationship" where you are still "just hanging out" but you feel yourself...
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linz:
I looove neil gaiman!
banana peppers..
and* kills cold right in the face *
better?
banana peppers..
and* kills cold right in the face *
better?
linz:
nevermind this one..
[Edited on Nov 30, 2003 1:25PM]
[Edited on Nov 30, 2003 1:25PM]
Now Playing: Nothing
Now Reading: Nothing
I'm really, really sick. I didn't get to go to work the last 3 days which is my total work week. That's really going to fuck me for money.
I wish I could tell everyone that is going to buy me presents to either buy me nothing or have everyone chip in on buying me a small hut in...
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Now Reading: Nothing
I'm really, really sick. I didn't get to go to work the last 3 days which is my total work week. That's really going to fuck me for money.
I wish I could tell everyone that is going to buy me presents to either buy me nothing or have everyone chip in on buying me a small hut in...
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rose:
I'm sorry you are sick
I understand about the work thing, I just took to many days off to go to LA and then, came home to find that my hours had been cut (do to a lack in sales) Oh well. What can you do? 
I understand about the work thing, I just took to many days off to go to LA and then, came home to find that my hours had been cut (do to a lack in sales)
Oh well. What can you do?
user8935778:
id make you some matzah ball soup!
Now Playing: Master mix of my favorite Elliott Smith songs
Now Reading: The complete Lord of the Blings collection
It fucking snowed in Portland today. 3 years here, and it was my first real snow since I left Wyoming. The last time it "snowed" here it was just icey rain and it didn't stick. Today, real flakes, and they stuck! I was out allll day...
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Now Reading: The complete Lord of the Blings collection
It fucking snowed in Portland today. 3 years here, and it was my first real snow since I left Wyoming. The last time it "snowed" here it was just icey rain and it didn't stick. Today, real flakes, and they stuck! I was out allll day...
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xxanastasiaxx:
I'm currently reading- The eden express, a memoir of insanity by Mark Vonnegut.
It's been rather mild here, surprisingly..(i'm not complaining) we usually have snow on the ground by now. (still not complaining) The first few snow falls are lovely. Then when it starts snowing 2 times a week and you have to constantly clean off your car...well...it starts to lose it's charm (atleast for me)
Yay for drinking and falling in puddles!!!!!
Hope you had a great weekend.
It's been rather mild here, surprisingly..(i'm not complaining) we usually have snow on the ground by now. (still not complaining) The first few snow falls are lovely. Then when it starts snowing 2 times a week and you have to constantly clean off your car...well...it starts to lose it's charm (atleast for me)
Yay for drinking and falling in puddles!!!!!
Hope you had a great weekend.
user8935778:
did you get my text? about stiff?
im going to his house to meet his mom
im nervous.
he took me to his best friends wedding
he danced with me one dance..
to "when a man loves a woman."
and when he could wait no longer
he took me home to have his way with me
and im so scared to tell him
that im in love.
im going to his house to meet his mom
im nervous.
he took me to his best friends wedding
he danced with me one dance..
to "when a man loves a woman."
and when he could wait no longer
he took me home to have his way with me
and im so scared to tell him
that im in love.
Now Playing: The new Outkast, on repeat for the last 5 or 6 days.
Now reading: American Gods - Neil Gaiman
So, I just got done watching Say Anything for the 1 millionth time. I officially decided my next tattoo. A simple black outline of Lloyd holding up the boombox. It will go nicely with my left arm theme. My right arm is the evil...
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Now reading: American Gods - Neil Gaiman
So, I just got done watching Say Anything for the 1 millionth time. I officially decided my next tattoo. A simple black outline of Lloyd holding up the boombox. It will go nicely with my left arm theme. My right arm is the evil...
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welntaod:
I got an advanced copy of American Gods before it was released. By its the Tuesday it came out, I was armed to the teeth w/ a glowing review and a deep-seeded desire to learn coin tricks.
welntaod:
I got an advanced copy of American Gods before it was released. By its the Tuesday it came out, I was armed to the teeth w/ a glowing review and a deep-seeded desire to learn coin tricks.
Now Playing - The new Outkast, over, and over, and over.
Now Reading: Neil Gaiman - American Gods
So, what's on my mind... It's Friday night. It's 11:45 pm. And here I sit writing in my SG journal. I wish I had the option to do something besides this. I'm getting to that point where I don't have the money to actually leave my home,...
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Now Reading: Neil Gaiman - American Gods
So, what's on my mind... It's Friday night. It's 11:45 pm. And here I sit writing in my SG journal. I wish I had the option to do something besides this. I'm getting to that point where I don't have the money to actually leave my home,...
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muggan_music:
see the roses really smell like poo poo poo.
Now Playing: Killer Bees - The Stills
Now Reading: The Book of Illusions - Paul Auster
So I can chalk up 2 of PDX's "celebs" now. I saw Danny Glover and Paul Allen this week. If I see Art Alexakis, and the Sleater Kinney girls, I'll have the whole set!!!
And again, Powell's is the best place on the planet to work. Being poor never...
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Now Reading: The Book of Illusions - Paul Auster
So I can chalk up 2 of PDX's "celebs" now. I saw Danny Glover and Paul Allen this week. If I see Art Alexakis, and the Sleater Kinney girls, I'll have the whole set!!!
And again, Powell's is the best place on the planet to work. Being poor never...
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miss_piss:
why don't i know you?
anais:
I have been self exploring a lot lately as well, it difficult but can be reawrding. I haven't bought my Anais Nin books yet. I need to replace the ones my sister and I shared but I haven't gotten over to Powells lately. I should do that soon...