1luneywolf

you're not a bad person.
bad things happen to everyone. its not a punishment. its life. the good...with the bad..
i'm sorry about your weekend.
i dunno. it feels like things have fallen apart and have been put back together....at least..jesus....i can think of 5 times in my life.
everytime things calm down i feel like something has been achieved, even though it has been lost. something is gained or learned.
i think no matter how much things hurt me i will keep moving on....just because....of what you can achieve when you move on. what you experience from taking chances.
life is painful and pleasurable. but the worst thing that life can be, i think, is boring.
boring breeds all sort of numb depression.
i don't think you're emotionally withdrawn. you may want to be, but you're not.
i don't know what to really write....maybe if you tell me about your weekend...i can understand better. that is, if you want to talk about it.
i totally relate about this sleeping thing. i can sleep anywhere now too. it might just be because i am always very tired.
i think your journal made me a little depressed tonight. depressed and confused. confused because you sounded happy in your voicemail...and here obivously...not. so....i don't know.
we should talk.
i'm skipping my class tomorrow cause i stayed up too late talking to jeremy and thinking about who i am and what i want to be. hehe. be all i can be in the marines. yea. no.
anyway....so...we'll talk.
you must explain these new favourite sexual positions to me,. as i am at quite a loss.

aw. you need to come back. i miss you.

On Bloodhoof right now, though let me know what server you decide to check out to start anew... would be pretty cool to play together

yea, he's interesting.
you're pretty amazing though.

grinding to a halt, eh?
heh. hmmm.....maybe i can be more interesting next time.

oh you.
you know what makes time go by faster? merchandising panties and shapewear. i don't know where all the time went tonight i was having so much fun.
i can think of several other things that might be fun to pass the time....maybe you should have thought of them at work as opposed to these thoughts of zeros that are infinitely long, eh?

thank you.
i think i'm actually getting almost enough sleep now. its wonderful.
you need to have fun today too, at least aftr 5 pm....or do you get off 4? whichever. have fun! it's almost friday

ahem. i do believe that you have some email, from a very silly gal.

i also thought Blade Trinity was a rather large let down but really i was expecting it to be a rather large let down... so im not entirely sure if it actually truly let me down or rather was what i expected and was disappointed in the fact that it didn't let me down...
what server are you on in Wow would be pretty chill to play with ya... though im very low level ... don't play much... not having a computer is a huge bummer some times... soon it will be here ... soon....

i am so down.

hmmm...do you mean what do i do in general or what do i do when i'm not functioning? hehe.
ummm....usually i'm preoccupied with school. i'm an apparel design major and projects tend to take up a lot of time. i also work in a department store, in the lingerie section. i've been there for 2 and a half years.....which is too long. the pay is very good, so i stay, and the people i work with are good too.
whenever i'm not doing work/school stuff i spend most of my time with my friends, we'll usually go to borders, or target, or watch sex and the city over and over..hehe....i dunno. we're silly girls, most of my friends here are girls. i haven't met many "interesting" boys in tallahassee. maybe boys just suck at this age, or maybe my standards are too high. eh.
when i'm not functioning it usually means that i'm thinking too much. i constantly over analyze things, i can't help it, i've been like that forever. it gets me into trouble, and i think i get depressed easily. hmm.
there's not really too much to do in tallahassee. at least in jacksonville you have the cummer and five points. they can be somewhat entertaining. here there's just the mall, the movies, and bars. i'm not really one for bars, or clubs. unless it's a gay club, cause then it's just....funny...and fun...and.

so you have to tell me more about you....
heh...
is there anything that you're obsessed with?
i'm obsessed with fashion magazines. it's very sick. sometimes i can justify spending 15 dollars on a fashion magazine. i'll tell myself...."it only comes out twice a year, you make 12 dollars an hour....it's just a little over an hour's worth of work..."
funny, the things that get you hot, get me hot as well.

hey. i want to respond to everything you wrote, but i'm insanely tired. and i'm only staying up because i just wanna sit around and listen to the cure. do you like the cure? if you do, you have tell me what your favourite song is. mine is lovesong.
hmm....i dont think being elitist is bad, especially the way you describe it.
i've lost so much of my pretension, and i kind of miss it. not that i need to look down on people, but i feel like i've let certain people into my life who don't need to be there, and if i had been closed off...well i wouldn't have gotten myself into these situations.
i have some friends who are extremely snobby, and i think it's fucking cute. i also think they're missing out on some good stuff.
am i rambling? i tend to ramble. i'm also a bad speller. heh, telling you all of my faults now...
nah, j/k
hmm...okay, i'm going to bed now.
oh, and that stuff you said about having sex three times a day and for hours on end.....that is just such a fucking tease.