assassin4hire

Christian ideolagy makes me giggle

something about the whole good vs evil, god vs the devil, heaven hell thing gets me. after the war, when lucifer was cast down, chained in the firey pit of the beast that is hell, anyway it hit me, angels don't have free will, they are his heavenly host, all they wish is to serve the name, so either lucifer was willed by God to betray him, or satan was not an angel, something more than man, but with free will to do as he chose.

Anyway, I don't know if I believe in all the god devil stuff, but its fun to let your mind wander on it.

I embrace death. What is there realy to fear about it? What will you care you'll be dead. I am at peace with this fact and no longer fear death. I am much more afraid of being horrably disfigured. That is what people should be afraid of.

I fear the non existance part, the part that screams to stay alive and stay thinking, active. I wonder if my opinion will change though, one day when im old I will go, I'm ready...

nah, too much fun to be had here...

Hmm...I was flipping through journal and I read this one. Really liked it so I guess I will respond to the question at the end of it since it got me thinking.
As far as what my dream would be. . . I dream of the impossible. To be or not to be in a certain sense but much closer to trying to be both at the same time. I dream of being a pardox, an enigma beyond human understanding. That, I think, that is the only way to truly be free.
Otherwise we are either struggling to define ourselves as more then others or scrambling to hide our differences and trying to be exactly like everyone else. Both bring anxiety because we can never truly seperate ourselves from others and our communities . . . and our past and we can never get rid of that last shred of individuality and just dive into the crowd.

this really has nothing to do with your jounal but i have to say that i absolutely love your drawings .... they r awsome

you really need to send pansky an email. He has the same views, and is struggling with his art right now. try to cheer him up.

Are you currently playing WoW? You mentioned not having your computer so I can immagine it being slightly difficult, If you wanted to say... perhaps start new characters on darkspear or something, that might be an interesting occurance...

Is that a tattoo of a Knight on your back? Chess is awesome, I used to play competatively when I was younger, and while I don't know if i still have my skillzors its an amazing game... I thought that was a damn cool and unique tat.

Anyway take care, i can always meet you on your server but im kinda addicted to PVP

the holiday season makes me want to jump out of a plan with no parachute

I always thought of it as some explosion, i guess everything up until birth would be the winding of the clock. It always made me curious why everyone has a different fall, or, rather different lifespan, if aging is celular decay cause by individual cells cloning themselves thousands upon thousands of times, then wouldn't all organisms have a very similar lifespan? it takes seven years for our body to cycle out all the old cells, every seven years, who we were no longer exists, humans are clones of dead people lol. Who knows... Free fall is amazing though, i really recommend it, it can truely put things in perspective... I both enjoy and hate it, because when i am in a high place i feel compelled to jump, sometimes i wonder if i could stop myself.

As for war... I think humans embrace misery because it comes so easily, you have to work at happyness, and misery just fills the voids and cracks like so much cheep cement. Humans are at their best when killing other humans, we are the only limiting factor left, besides nature, which actively limits the growth of our species. So nature made sure that the majority were naturally unhappy, insecure, and jealous.

death takes a lot away from people as far as power goes, i think thats why it is feared. As much as we think we control our lives, our fate, we don't, we all have the same destiny, I guess thats why ghost hunting intregues me so.

I am rambling though, I can ramble forever when I read an interesting post. Take care.

Cool! You make the most mundane things sound so intense! Habby p-day!

Come join the Culinary Professionals group!

hi,

ive lived in FLA for a while, jax specifically went to school here and all that stuff, its alright, ive decided that it is... mostly geared toward the older generations here, however there is a lot to do if you know where to look the beach is always fun and there is generally something interesting going on around five points or san marco are you new to the area or did you move back?

Hope your move went well!

one might often say the very same thing for love......

I wish I had more friends offline.

Your pic over on the Girls with Glasses thread is cute.