So, my membership ran out, resulting in me being gone for a while.
TIL THEY OFFERED A CHEAPER MEMBERSHIP FOR THE SAME LENGTH.
Yea boi!
XD
Now I'm back, and I'll be blogging more often.
Much will be about my YouTube vlogs, and my fitness progress.
So far, I've completed my second week of working out at least 3 days of the week.
I'm aiming for 5, since that was this fitness program I joined offers, but I don't want to overwhelm myself too quickly. I especially don't want to overwhelm my body, which has been getting pretty battered and bruised in a few accidents here and there over the past few years.
It's a lot to just jump into, so I think the fact that I managed to do 3 days in a row is awesome!
NEXT WEEK MOST DEFINITELY WILL BE 5.
And school starts again.
I also have a new job, working as a waitress.
I'm never going to be home anymore.
But that's what keeps me out of my depression hole! Being home too much kills most people's moods, and I'm not letting that happen to me again.
I'm finally doing better in nearly every way, and I'm feeling so much better!
I can't wait til I actually see some results from all this working out.
My wallet is certainly crying...this class is a half hour away!! Think about it....5 days a week...plus driving to school (thank god only 10 min away) and also work about 4 days a week...which is a half hour away also.
THAT'S A TON OF GAS FOR MY LIL' JETTA.
Time to head to my boyfriend's for the weekend!
We're going to see Infected Mushroom, this Friday, in Philly!
They're a great music duo. psytrance/electronica....here's a couple links:
http://youtu.be/XRufAykZPnE
http://youtu.be/jznfI0O2v9E
http://youtu.be/UuZNLKTUlsY
http://youtu.be/wAmoptV9wdA
TIL THEY OFFERED A CHEAPER MEMBERSHIP FOR THE SAME LENGTH.
Yea boi!
XD
Now I'm back, and I'll be blogging more often.
Much will be about my YouTube vlogs, and my fitness progress.
So far, I've completed my second week of working out at least 3 days of the week.
I'm aiming for 5, since that was this fitness program I joined offers, but I don't want to overwhelm myself too quickly. I especially don't want to overwhelm my body, which has been getting pretty battered and bruised in a few accidents here and there over the past few years.
It's a lot to just jump into, so I think the fact that I managed to do 3 days in a row is awesome!
NEXT WEEK MOST DEFINITELY WILL BE 5.
And school starts again.
I also have a new job, working as a waitress.
I'm never going to be home anymore.
But that's what keeps me out of my depression hole! Being home too much kills most people's moods, and I'm not letting that happen to me again.
I'm finally doing better in nearly every way, and I'm feeling so much better!
I can't wait til I actually see some results from all this working out.
My wallet is certainly crying...this class is a half hour away!! Think about it....5 days a week...plus driving to school (thank god only 10 min away) and also work about 4 days a week...which is a half hour away also.
THAT'S A TON OF GAS FOR MY LIL' JETTA.
Time to head to my boyfriend's for the weekend!
We're going to see Infected Mushroom, this Friday, in Philly!
They're a great music duo. psytrance/electronica....here's a couple links:
http://youtu.be/XRufAykZPnE
http://youtu.be/jznfI0O2v9E
http://youtu.be/UuZNLKTUlsY
http://youtu.be/wAmoptV9wdA
So, I had changed my eating habits (for the most part) and in about a week and a half's time I managed to already drop 5lbs. I hadn't even started working out yet. I'm still really struggling to workout. It's a combination of being sore from year-old car accident injuries, having a lack of motivation, and depression. Not severe depression though....I'm just impatient with the progress of my life...or lack of progress, and it can really bring you down. Big time. I mean, I didn't even go to class today. I'M SO SMART.
BUT ANYWHO. I have managed to workout at least once a week...except one week here and one week there...so, it makes sense that I haven't lost any more weight.
Are there any tips or tricks you guys can give me to help me climb out of my sad-hole and into the gym?
I just want to get to a place where I feel good, am healthy, and look a bit better as well. I just want to feel good about myself! I'm also a budding actress, with a personal trainer for a mother while I was growing up (She's onto other ventures now), so that just adds all the more motivation crushing pressure.
Help me lose the weight! I want to be able to cut my hair really short and NOT have a fat looking head!
I MISS THIS ADORABLE HAIR
BUT ANYWHO. I have managed to workout at least once a week...except one week here and one week there...so, it makes sense that I haven't lost any more weight.
Are there any tips or tricks you guys can give me to help me climb out of my sad-hole and into the gym?
I just want to get to a place where I feel good, am healthy, and look a bit better as well. I just want to feel good about myself! I'm also a budding actress, with a personal trainer for a mother while I was growing up (She's onto other ventures now), so that just adds all the more motivation crushing pressure.
Help me lose the weight! I want to be able to cut my hair really short and NOT have a fat looking head!
I MISS THIS ADORABLE HAIRHas anyone else felt the undying urge to choke a bitch out, who STILL talks about you, even though you've said nothing to or about him/her in MONTHS? I never even did anything from the start.
UGH.
Its sad, really. They say that I need to grow up, yet they're stalking my posts, and trying to make fun of me, and my looks.
Honey, take a long, hard look in the mirror. You're disgusting, in and out.
You don't NEED to attack me. You never did. What's the point? Boosting your own shit self esteem?
Do you need a hug?
A binky?
A bullet to the brain?
I'd lend you a gun, but i don't have any. And my boyfriend's dad's hunting rifles are locked away.
UGH.
Its sad, really. They say that I need to grow up, yet they're stalking my posts, and trying to make fun of me, and my looks.
Honey, take a long, hard look in the mirror. You're disgusting, in and out.
You don't NEED to attack me. You never did. What's the point? Boosting your own shit self esteem?
Do you need a hug?
A binky?
A bullet to the brain?
I'd lend you a gun, but i don't have any. And my boyfriend's dad's hunting rifles are locked away.
I just bleached my (growing) undercut, and my eyebrows and damn do I feel good!
No...you can still see my eyebrows. I just lightened them to go better with the blonde hair. XD
No...you can still see my eyebrows. I just lightened them to go better with the blonde hair. XD
I've lost a whole group of friends over these past few years.
I lost 2.
That I used to have great times with, for years.
We all get served some awesomely horrible shit pie.
No one wants it, but we still have to fucking eat it.
I just lost my best friend of nearly 10 years, because she's a fucking psychotic mess, and it hurts more than anything in my world. But I have to tough it out like a big boy.
I don't want to.
I want to kick and scream and punch things and cry all day,
but I don't
And there's no one who truly understands at the time. It seems no one can console you. So you're on your own, with these horrible feelings to deal with and you don't really know how.
I lost 2.
That I used to have great times with, for years.
We all get served some awesomely horrible shit pie.
No one wants it, but we still have to fucking eat it.
I just lost my best friend of nearly 10 years, because she's a fucking psychotic mess, and it hurts more than anything in my world. But I have to tough it out like a big boy.
I don't want to.
I want to kick and scream and punch things and cry all day,
but I don't
And there's no one who truly understands at the time. It seems no one can console you. So you're on your own, with these horrible feelings to deal with and you don't really know how.
I really don't appreciate getting repetitive creeper emails, from ugly men who show their dick online.
1. Do you see ME uploading any remotely provocative pictures on here? No.
2. Do I blog about how horny I am, and how much I need some fat cock in my life? No.
3. Do I HONESTLY seem like the kind of girl who's into internet perverts? I would think not.
4. Dude, you're pretty unattractive, and I'm done keeping my opinion about these creepers' unfortunate looks.
I don't mind receiving honest compliments. I'm very flattered and grateful for them all! These are honest acts of kindness, to just simply compliment someone. Whether it be about their looks, personality, or taste. I never tire of them, and I'm still surprised to even receive any compliments.
But to message me a bunch, and then I see dicks all over your page? No fucking thanks.
Go stick that thing into a blender, or a crate of hungry rodents.
1. Do you see ME uploading any remotely provocative pictures on here? No.
2. Do I blog about how horny I am, and how much I need some fat cock in my life? No.
3. Do I HONESTLY seem like the kind of girl who's into internet perverts? I would think not.
4. Dude, you're pretty unattractive, and I'm done keeping my opinion about these creepers' unfortunate looks.
I don't mind receiving honest compliments. I'm very flattered and grateful for them all! These are honest acts of kindness, to just simply compliment someone. Whether it be about their looks, personality, or taste. I never tire of them, and I'm still surprised to even receive any compliments.
But to message me a bunch, and then I see dicks all over your page? No fucking thanks.
Go stick that thing into a blender, or a crate of hungry rodents.
So, I'm pretty sure I've just lost my best friend.
We haven't seen much of each other this past year, and she recently started ignoring me completely.
Apparently this just "aren't the same". She feels uneasy when around me....But this isn't completely my fault. Sure, I've been rather abrasive lately, but she's also become a pretty unhealthy person. Her anxiety is out of control, she's a total workaholic, and is extremely sensitive about everything. She also doesn't communicate.
How am I supposed to help with anything, when I don't know that anything is even wrong??
I've been friends with her for nearly 10 years, and she's just throwing it away. Pushing it under the fucking rug, like I'm some piece of evil dirt.
I feel like she's painted me into some sort of villain. I texted her today and tried to plead my case....in the end, she stopped responding.
I don't know if I should call her, or try to meet up with her, or just accept the loss, cry for a month and try to move on.
We were supposed to be dorky, misfit buddies forever. I won't hesitate to admit that I loved her.
How can you just drop such a formerly solid friendship? If you really cared, you'd try to work on it. Friendships of this length aren't so different from relationships.
I'm just at a total loss now....I'm so sad, and it's just getting worse. It also doesn't help that today was a shit day even without all this.
Bombed 2 college quizes, learned I have a big project due on Monday, and today would've been an old, deceased friend's 24th birthday. (He's been gone for a little over 2 years now).
I have everything working against me today, and I pretty much woke up to my friend telling me that "things just aren't the same anymore"
I want to say so many hurtful things, because this hurts so much. Possibly worse than any breakup I've gone through.
I'm ready to give up on so much.
We haven't seen much of each other this past year, and she recently started ignoring me completely.
Apparently this just "aren't the same". She feels uneasy when around me....But this isn't completely my fault. Sure, I've been rather abrasive lately, but she's also become a pretty unhealthy person. Her anxiety is out of control, she's a total workaholic, and is extremely sensitive about everything. She also doesn't communicate.
How am I supposed to help with anything, when I don't know that anything is even wrong??
I've been friends with her for nearly 10 years, and she's just throwing it away. Pushing it under the fucking rug, like I'm some piece of evil dirt.
I feel like she's painted me into some sort of villain. I texted her today and tried to plead my case....in the end, she stopped responding.
I don't know if I should call her, or try to meet up with her, or just accept the loss, cry for a month and try to move on.
We were supposed to be dorky, misfit buddies forever. I won't hesitate to admit that I loved her.
How can you just drop such a formerly solid friendship? If you really cared, you'd try to work on it. Friendships of this length aren't so different from relationships.
I'm just at a total loss now....I'm so sad, and it's just getting worse. It also doesn't help that today was a shit day even without all this.
Bombed 2 college quizes, learned I have a big project due on Monday, and today would've been an old, deceased friend's 24th birthday. (He's been gone for a little over 2 years now).
I have everything working against me today, and I pretty much woke up to my friend telling me that "things just aren't the same anymore"
I want to say so many hurtful things, because this hurts so much. Possibly worse than any breakup I've gone through.
I'm ready to give up on so much.
