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Yes!!!! Finally!!!!! I am now Alice.

you have said it. so i don't have to. i guess the one exception, in my case, is that i always had one foot planted on the earth but that was only stay grounded long enough for sex, which of course fell under the category of "creating." i wouldn't bathe, though. i wouldn't eat properly. or excercise (what a luxury for the able-bodied; i didn't realize.)

and let's face it, i'm still not in my body. i know all of this intellectaully, now, but haven't manifested my groundedness. i "have no first chakra."

have you changed? i think you have, a little, no? zero judgement any which way, just curiosity.

Maow

I hope so! Actually, with my terrible standard of dexterity at the moment, my hands are becoming more paw-like too... If I grow a tail I will be so happy.

Our bodies tell us what they need. Ya know those kids in school who ate paste? there's actually a mineral in paste that the body needed and it found a way to get. (true story.)

I wouldn't worry unless you went for more than a month on that diet.

and plaid trousers would be fabulously wonderful! how many people have the guts to wear them! Especially to a wedding! I mean really.

. . . think alike! (see????)

Worth indicated by beauty, hmmmm.
The giving of instructions to underlings without so much as a "please", also hmmmm.
Insufficient ruthlessness by the pretender, very hmmmm indeed.

The beard makes you look alarmingly like Garry Bushell, IMO.

OK, I'm sorry. That was crude and brutal of me

Still, with any luck, in a few years people will be going "oh there goes Garry Bushell, the sad old has-been... that beard doesn't half make him look like Monsignor Christian Jackwit though."

I've got all my edinburgh trip booked up, ready to go! I can't wait. By the way, good beard in your profile picture, I always appreciate a good beard. I don't think beardless people understand the commitment that relates to growing a beard, it takes a strong backbone to get past the first difficult weeks, shows fortitude

hey you're back!! thanks for the congratulations, it feels good to have that massive burden lifted now i can concentrate on getting back into guitar and fitness and being mentally strong hehe. how are things with you? did things with that lady work out?

whoa. Zdzislaw rocks. thanks for the link.

"extremes of fear/anxiety/panic"? why haven't you mentioned this before?

i have next to no relationship with my dad, but i'm used to it; he kinda jumped ship when i was five or six. what's your pa all about? do you not see eye to eye?

i bloody well should send you a Mahalia cd, and i bloody well should send you that mythical Chet Baker one while i'm at it! i suck.

Oh. Well I thought it was Dick Van Dyke. I've even seen that movie a long time ago, but only bits and pieces as a kid.
I remember the "chitty-chitty-bang-bang" song the most.

Sometimes looking back on stuff first seen as a kid takes on a whole different light when you're older.

dreams are one a the best things we got going for us. dreams and music.

where do you find these amazing pictures? i like the monochrome the best.

so i bought a 2-disc Mahalia Jackson compilation. it was an excellent choice (especially for six quid). do you know the song In the Upper Rooms? it's rocketed right into my all-time faves...

ooo, bulgarian monastery I want to go see those.

I like the sepia one with the Darwin Twins in, as well.

i have NOT sitting at the computer issues, i tell you. . i spedn way too much time online, and an unnhealthy amount of time not out galloping and frolicking in the fresh air. not that i've ever galloped. or frolicked for that matter. . . but fresh air is. . probably needed.

i was a bit. . . unsure when i joined up again, as i think i said i was more or less talked into joining by the girl, and i sort of. . . didn't talk to anyone else for a while, but she's. . more sociable than i am. and she has boobs.

but yeah. . . we do. . . talk rather a lot back and forth, i think we may be scaring people of from talking to either of us with our. . general weirdness, but that's okay.

aye, you can excommunicate verlainne, i don't think he'll be rising from the dead anytime soon. . soo many. . . risque old journal entries and stuff, eh?

anyway, do update, but when you feel okay about being back. the place is certainly better WITH you than without, dude.

what miserable bloody weather today, eh?

the beard is back!

Well, glad to hear that all the poets are still alive and kicking their verbal socks off...it was weird not seeing it at the top of my group activity list!

and yeah, there's a lot that's killing me about the new layout too...like the fact that clicking on someone's name takes you to a weird profile page instead of a profile cum blog. weird. all the snarking on SBs is killing me too, but that's neither here nor there.

I really wanted to thank all the poets, esp. you, Huck and Vasilisa. I would do that by making ya'll my top 5 (whatever significance that has), but every time I try to do that, SG seems to meltdown on me. Obviously I wasn't meant to have "top friends" here

i'm happy to hear that my presence here might be helpful in some way - sometimes I feel that my work, and my aesthetic is so far off the beaten track here that, I don't know, I (might) =

and there were other things I was going to say...but I forget them...

oh, yeah! re: my "maturity" questions...maybe you should meet my gf. you'd be perfect for each other!

That's a fantastic profile pic.
Thanks for the birthday wishes. It's been a good 'un.
Damn groovy you might even say, if you were so inclined.

i love the fool card, love your characterization of yourself as the fool. your bluntness, while it may be offputting and surprising to others at first, probably serves as a steam valve for your "circle of friends," i'd guess (?)

re: what i "have," http://www.cfids-cab.org/MESA/ gives as general idea as is possible.

sorry about my careless / selfish flinging about of random s/m lexicon.

i like your new profile pic, posing with canvases

Yah, going to spain tomorrow

hows you?


pfft. being two is really no excuse for being short xx

well, glad you liked the vitruvian at least.

and my testimonial, you holy fool!