So with 2012 coming to a close I'm left to reflect (as if I don't do that enough) on the past year. Though this was not the worst year of my life, it wasn't the best either, but life is struggle and that's what makes us strong, right? I'll go with that, it sounds good.
Over the last year I have really gotten myself on my feet and solidified myself as a somewhat responsible adult; and at 26 years old, it's about fucking time.
Wow 26. And 27 is only about 2 and half months away. I'm that much closer to 30. That's not a very long time on this earth when you consider people live well in the their 80s, and beyond, these days. But it feels like its been such a long journey. I've been through so much in that 'short' period of time. I've learned so much about people and life, about trust and betrayal, about violence but so little about peace, about forgiveness but still can't grasp the concept of forgetting. I've let go of many grudges, apologized for handling situations, that at the time I handled as I felt it was necessary, but later decided that though I wasn't sorry at the time I have moved beyond it and was sorry after the fact. But that is growth, right?
I am a constant work in progress, and as long as I continue to move forward, I hope I can continue to grow and improve.
I won't make resolutions about the new year approaching, so many years I have, and we all do. And no longer will I make promises that I can't keep. So I will take it one day at a time, and try my best to do my best, to be my best for myself and those that I love. I will try to reach my goals and my dreams. I will try my best and that's all I can do. That's not a resolution, that's not a promise to anyone but myself. That's just life. That's just my life. No matter what.
Bring on 2013, I'm ready for a new fight, a new struggle, a new challenge, new growth. I will always be stronger because of the trials I have been through and will continue to go through.
I am ready to learn something new about life. My life. Let's fucking do this...
Over the last year I have really gotten myself on my feet and solidified myself as a somewhat responsible adult; and at 26 years old, it's about fucking time.
Wow 26. And 27 is only about 2 and half months away. I'm that much closer to 30. That's not a very long time on this earth when you consider people live well in the their 80s, and beyond, these days. But it feels like its been such a long journey. I've been through so much in that 'short' period of time. I've learned so much about people and life, about trust and betrayal, about violence but so little about peace, about forgiveness but still can't grasp the concept of forgetting. I've let go of many grudges, apologized for handling situations, that at the time I handled as I felt it was necessary, but later decided that though I wasn't sorry at the time I have moved beyond it and was sorry after the fact. But that is growth, right?
I am a constant work in progress, and as long as I continue to move forward, I hope I can continue to grow and improve.
I won't make resolutions about the new year approaching, so many years I have, and we all do. And no longer will I make promises that I can't keep. So I will take it one day at a time, and try my best to do my best, to be my best for myself and those that I love. I will try to reach my goals and my dreams. I will try my best and that's all I can do. That's not a resolution, that's not a promise to anyone but myself. That's just life. That's just my life. No matter what.
Bring on 2013, I'm ready for a new fight, a new struggle, a new challenge, new growth. I will always be stronger because of the trials I have been through and will continue to go through.
I am ready to learn something new about life. My life. Let's fucking do this...
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