Bleh. So utterly alone. I feel like a whiny little emo kid complaining about life, but at this point I just don't care what I sound like.
Thing is, I can't figure out what's wrong with me. I feel like I can't get happy or excited over anything. Life feels so empty. All I want is to be happy and in love. I'm a Libra, through and through and for some reason that means that happiness equates to being in love and being loved in return. Why is it so hard to find that? Why is it so hard to find someone that wants me for me, who calls me everyday a ba-jillion times just to see how I'm feeling or what I have to say? Sure, I have a stalker right now (he's an angry sort of fellow I play D&D with. The angryness and drunkeness is a major turn-off), but the stalker is scary lol.
So, as a result of lacking this quintessential part of my existence, I'm watching lots of anime about love and cuteness (Chobits) and I'm buying a bunch of cute things that I really don't need and can't afford. It's kind of like how some people eat when they're depressed to fill the hole inside; they feel like they're missing something. I shop to fill the hole inside, usually buying cute things to keep me company.
It just goes to show how lonely I am that I actually want to get a puppy. I don't like dogs much, lol. I'm a cat person through and through, but puppies are so affectionate!!
Valentine's Day was spent playing World of Warcraft and eating far too many chocolates for my own good. I seem to have also taken up smoking more than I should be. Is it really considered a slow form of suicide? Let's hope so.
Thing is, I can't figure out what's wrong with me. I feel like I can't get happy or excited over anything. Life feels so empty. All I want is to be happy and in love. I'm a Libra, through and through and for some reason that means that happiness equates to being in love and being loved in return. Why is it so hard to find that? Why is it so hard to find someone that wants me for me, who calls me everyday a ba-jillion times just to see how I'm feeling or what I have to say? Sure, I have a stalker right now (he's an angry sort of fellow I play D&D with. The angryness and drunkeness is a major turn-off), but the stalker is scary lol.
So, as a result of lacking this quintessential part of my existence, I'm watching lots of anime about love and cuteness (Chobits) and I'm buying a bunch of cute things that I really don't need and can't afford. It's kind of like how some people eat when they're depressed to fill the hole inside; they feel like they're missing something. I shop to fill the hole inside, usually buying cute things to keep me company.
It just goes to show how lonely I am that I actually want to get a puppy. I don't like dogs much, lol. I'm a cat person through and through, but puppies are so affectionate!!
Valentine's Day was spent playing World of Warcraft and eating far too many chocolates for my own good. I seem to have also taken up smoking more than I should be. Is it really considered a slow form of suicide? Let's hope so.
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but thanks for that. it boosts my spirit and it's very flattering!
btw, you're both cute so shut up!