Not really sure how i should feel....
I just went through all my boxed up belongings..... that I boxed up about 8 or 9 years ago and haven't let them see the light of day since...
I packed in haste the night my fiance admitted to me he had been sleeping with his best friends wife for about a year prior to that night....
Each box is a time caspule..... i remember things in there... and some i cannot remember where and how they came to be.... all I know is I wanted to be ruthless with my belongings... and throw out as much as possible.... just as i had thrown Jason out all those years ago....
I am kinda sad.....as I am back at home now... (been in and out for the years following the end of that relationship)... and I feel like a looser...
All those closed boxes to me are unfaced demons..... memories of the good and bad.... and strangely they summon up similar feelings of similar incidences with other relationships in my life.... throughout my life....
Kinda silly a few old boxes would make me feel like this....i see them as kind of symbolic of failed ventures... be it staying out of home, a relationship or my failed mental health on occasions....
I just wanted to throw ALL of it away yet my dad didn't want to me chuck a lot of my childhood momentos which are still there..... but I didn't care
I don't like facing things which upset me..... these boxes upset me... and have a knock on effect with my emotions....
I am going to the gym now................... hopefully it should perk me up
I just went through all my boxed up belongings..... that I boxed up about 8 or 9 years ago and haven't let them see the light of day since...
I packed in haste the night my fiance admitted to me he had been sleeping with his best friends wife for about a year prior to that night....
Each box is a time caspule..... i remember things in there... and some i cannot remember where and how they came to be.... all I know is I wanted to be ruthless with my belongings... and throw out as much as possible.... just as i had thrown Jason out all those years ago....
I am kinda sad.....as I am back at home now... (been in and out for the years following the end of that relationship)... and I feel like a looser...
All those closed boxes to me are unfaced demons..... memories of the good and bad.... and strangely they summon up similar feelings of similar incidences with other relationships in my life.... throughout my life....
Kinda silly a few old boxes would make me feel like this....i see them as kind of symbolic of failed ventures... be it staying out of home, a relationship or my failed mental health on occasions....
I just wanted to throw ALL of it away yet my dad didn't want to me chuck a lot of my childhood momentos which are still there..... but I didn't care
I don't like facing things which upset me..... these boxes upset me... and have a knock on effect with my emotions....
I am going to the gym now................... hopefully it should perk me up























Wenda