Just renewed my membership today. It seems like this is a less common event with the current economy because I'm noticing a lot of people with inactive accounts.
Life has been very interestingly shitty lately. I am working like fucking crazy, dealing with people who really do not care about anything so it is hard to get shit done. It seems that most of my efforts lately have not been rewarding in any way whatsoever. This fucking sucks because I am used to seeing things improve especially with my own life and now shit is degrading to where I really do not like what the fuck is going on. It is hard to describe and I know that I am confusing you all but what happens when you are at a part in your life where you have to take a second look at everything you were comfortable with and knew, especially people.
What happens to people, why do they just have to fuck their lives up and drag you with for the only simple reason is that you care when they don't. I am about to say fuck it all again and start over. I have been in this situation before know exactly what to do. If I do say fuck it all just like everyone else then I think this time I will try something different with my life. I have traveled around the world twice and there are a million other paying jobs, amazing people and cultures that I absolutely fell in love with so why the fuck are people around me not appreciating a fucking thing that I do.
Not only am I working like crazy, I am doing volunteer work in my free time. Check out all the flyers on my page because I made them. I am very new to this advertising bit and it only cam up out of necessity for my volunteer work but I think it's pretty good for being new.
Still, I am expecting shit I should not be expecting, which gets my hopes up and ultimately let down. I never used to be like this. I used to take everyday as it comes and have fun, now that is hard to do because people around me just do not fucking care anymore. I know that you all have been in situations like this before and so have I but every time it happens it's as equally shitty as the last, like it is supposed to suck for a reason. What reason and how do I fucking destroy that reason. This shit makes me guarded and I hate being that way. I hate putting a shield up to people because I hate dealing with people like that.
Here is what I do know. I have no idea what the fuck is going on or how to handle it so I thought I would write about it and see from all of you; what is going on? Why are people changing for the worse? How the fuck do you not let it change your life?
Thank you all for adding me to your friends, I think this will hit 155 of you. I am not an ass but I did delete 5 inactive accounts from my friends list, not because I am a stuck up SG member who has been one for 20 years.
So my perspective changes again today. About 20 min after writing this blog I get an emergency phone call with details of what I am supposed to do today. I had to inform a father that his Marine son died yesterday in Afghanistan.
I have no words tonight, maybe I will tomorrow. My fucking soul is tired and all I could do today was be there for him and not cry myself.
Peachy is fucking amazing and actually knows how to write which is kind of sexy for a teacher like me who snipes bad grammar in a heartbeat.
I will keep you posted soon, not tonight.
Life has been very interestingly shitty lately. I am working like fucking crazy, dealing with people who really do not care about anything so it is hard to get shit done. It seems that most of my efforts lately have not been rewarding in any way whatsoever. This fucking sucks because I am used to seeing things improve especially with my own life and now shit is degrading to where I really do not like what the fuck is going on. It is hard to describe and I know that I am confusing you all but what happens when you are at a part in your life where you have to take a second look at everything you were comfortable with and knew, especially people.
What happens to people, why do they just have to fuck their lives up and drag you with for the only simple reason is that you care when they don't. I am about to say fuck it all again and start over. I have been in this situation before know exactly what to do. If I do say fuck it all just like everyone else then I think this time I will try something different with my life. I have traveled around the world twice and there are a million other paying jobs, amazing people and cultures that I absolutely fell in love with so why the fuck are people around me not appreciating a fucking thing that I do.
Not only am I working like crazy, I am doing volunteer work in my free time. Check out all the flyers on my page because I made them. I am very new to this advertising bit and it only cam up out of necessity for my volunteer work but I think it's pretty good for being new.
Still, I am expecting shit I should not be expecting, which gets my hopes up and ultimately let down. I never used to be like this. I used to take everyday as it comes and have fun, now that is hard to do because people around me just do not fucking care anymore. I know that you all have been in situations like this before and so have I but every time it happens it's as equally shitty as the last, like it is supposed to suck for a reason. What reason and how do I fucking destroy that reason. This shit makes me guarded and I hate being that way. I hate putting a shield up to people because I hate dealing with people like that.
Here is what I do know. I have no idea what the fuck is going on or how to handle it so I thought I would write about it and see from all of you; what is going on? Why are people changing for the worse? How the fuck do you not let it change your life?
Thank you all for adding me to your friends, I think this will hit 155 of you. I am not an ass but I did delete 5 inactive accounts from my friends list, not because I am a stuck up SG member who has been one for 20 years.
So my perspective changes again today. About 20 min after writing this blog I get an emergency phone call with details of what I am supposed to do today. I had to inform a father that his Marine son died yesterday in Afghanistan.
I have no words tonight, maybe I will tomorrow. My fucking soul is tired and all I could do today was be there for him and not cry myself.
Peachy is fucking amazing and actually knows how to write which is kind of sexy for a teacher like me who snipes bad grammar in a heartbeat.
I will keep you posted soon, not tonight.
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
triumphretro:
Bro, it fucking sucked. We are doing everything we can for that family.
zombiekittybot:
Thanks