Hi all
This my first blog, please go easy on me

I have been a member since 2008, I used to frequent the site and I used to contribute my opinions to all sets but for the last year I have been lost. Last year I met a girl and I thought she was the one, my soul mate but there was complications the relationship was long distance and with me not in a position to move due to work and she was unable to move due to her studies we tried to make it work. I asked my boss if I could relocate and he gave me an ultimatum I had to go to Nigeria and complete a project and then I was free to relocate with that news I jumped in and my worst nightmares came true. I am a firm believer that Heaven and Hell is on earth and that was the most difficult project of my life I was always in fear. I was dragged out of vehicles and had AK47's shoved into my face, I was pinned to the bonnet of a car and they threatened to cut my hand off with a machete and to put the cherry on the cake I was attacked by 6 man and was left in a bloody mess and was emergency removed from Nigeria. I went 9 times to Nigeria with the hope that I could be close to her and we could be happy.
I changed everything in my life for her; I had friends who hated me cause I was leaving. I got a phone call from her saying her horse was sick and she needed me I packed up all my stuff and I drove 1000miles to be with her. I moved and everything was all great and happy. I gave her everything she wanted not once did I worry about the cost. I loved her with all my heart. Things took a turn for the worst when I started feeling ill. I went to see a doctor and I was diagnosed with Lymphoma (cancer) as soon as she heard that she ended the relationship and told me to FUCK OFF. I am lost and heartbroken, she was the reason why I wanted to fight, my life is shambles and I do not know how to move forward.

I got a new tattoo yesterday, it says what doesn't kill me makes me stronger



The only thing I know now is I have...

Hi all
This my first blog, please go easy on me

I have been a member since 2008, I used to frequent the site and I used to contribute my opinions to all sets but for the last year I have been lost. Last year I met a girl and I thought she was the one, my soul mate but there was complications the relationship was long distance and with me not in a position to move due to work and she was unable to move due to her studies we tried to make it work. I asked my boss if I could relocate and he gave me an ultimatum I had to go to Nigeria and complete a project and then I was free to relocate with that news I jumped in and my worst nightmares came true. I am a firm believer that Heaven and Hell is on earth and that was the most difficult project of my life I was always in fear. I was dragged out of vehicles and had AK47's shoved into my face, I was pinned to the bonnet of a car and they threatened to cut my hand off with a machete and to put the cherry on the cake I was attacked by 6 man and was left in a bloody mess and was emergency removed from Nigeria. I went 9 times to Nigeria with the hope that I could be close to her and we could be happy.
I changed everything in my life for her; I had friends who hated me cause I was leaving. I got a phone call from her saying her horse was sick and she needed me I packed up all my stuff and I drove 1000miles to be with her. I moved and everything was all great and happy. I gave her everything she wanted not once did I worry about the cost. I loved her with all my heart. Things took a turn for the worst when I started feeling ill. I went to see a doctor and I was diagnosed with Lymphoma (cancer) as soon as she heard that she ended the relationship and told me to FUCK OFF. I am lost and heartbroken, she was the reason why I wanted to fight, my life is shambles and I do not know how to move forward.

I got a new tattoo yesterday, it says what doesn't kill me makes me stronger



The only thing I know now is I have to beat the cancer and make the best of what life I have

I would like to formally apologies for not being a good friend to those who used to message me and tried to get to know me. I now know love blinds and it made me foolish.