I've partaken in self-sabotage before at the benefit of a friend/ex. We are no longer friends, but he's happier now I think. Plus being an asshole is fun.
You'll still be on the list, I know who you are to an extent. I've been in your presence and not repulsed, so you're good.
I am the same way. I have nightmares about bad dental conditions and wake up in a sweat. Well...yeah sometimes I fall asleep out of pure exhaustion and forget to brush my teeth. And bad with flossing. So I'm the same way...lazy, but concerned lol.
You'll still be on the list, I know who you are to an extent. I've been in your presence and not repulsed, so you're good.