I guess I must be ready for summer, 'cause I've been tired as fuck lately. Maybe it's the annual allergy-reaction thingy-- it's lke having a bad cold and having your eyes go crazy for about two months. I guess I need to look into stiffer measures next year, like getting a shot or something. I don't think most people realize how bad it is because I don't complain, I'm so used to it happening every year. On the other hand, many people probably think I'm a wake-and-baker, what with the ridiculous red eyes and all.
Still, I love to hike and be out in nature, and I'm not gonna stop that.
Sweet three-day weekend coming up. At some point, I'll have to get some barbecue and hit up a beach and go out to a bar. That is my plan.
Still, I love to hike and be out in nature, and I'm not gonna stop that.Sweet three-day weekend coming up. At some point, I'll have to get some barbecue and hit up a beach and go out to a bar. That is my plan.
Locked myself out of my apartment when I went cycling today; and I had to wait several hours for my landlord to return from the south bay. So I biked all around Santa Rosa and am now slightly burnt/cooked all over. I feel like an irradiated beet.
As a coda to the recent soap opera I've blogged about, it's ended quite simply: all of the girls in that group just stopped talking to me. I guess that hook-up fucked things up all around; strangely, I don't regret it. (And I think the silent treatment is a bit cowardly; I'm still not sure what I did wrong, and to whom.) On the other hand, I recently got back in touch with my ex, and she sent me a spooky pin-up picture of herself in a sheep mask. Goddamn, how I miss her.
Every so often, I go to Wikipedia and read about Danzig. I find it strangely comforting.
So that other thing didn't really get off the ground. Spent the last couple weekends by myself, just doing the usual. We'll see how things play out over the next few months. If things don't pick up, it'll be time to start planning my next move.
I did go out to see some music on Friday night, but I saw some chick from my new little group of chick friends, and she's the only one who doesn't like me, for some reason-- she's really cold and distant, has been from the moment I first met her-- which is funny, because she's a folk singer, and aren't they supposed to be all warm and fuzzy? Well not this one, it seems like she'd like to stab me in the eye. I don't know, I'm a somewhat large dude, and some people pick me out as a jock or something when they first meet me. I wear baseball caps and stuff. So maybe that's it; or maybe she's just a bitch, who knows? Anyways, she was there, and never said hi, and I just felt dumb and left after a short time. Reaaaally cray cray, yeah I know.
I've been keeping in touch with the O.G. (Original Girl) though, so something may come of that yet. (I'm resisting the urge to make a dirty joke here.) I've also been in touch with my ex again, texting back and forth, and I'm writing her a letter (nothing too dramatic, just updating her on stuff). As time goes by, she still stands out as the One for me. But it is what it is. I just hope something good is coming down the pike, because I do like living here; but this isolation stuff is so yesterday. Damn.
I did go out to see some music on Friday night, but I saw some chick from my new little group of chick friends, and she's the only one who doesn't like me, for some reason-- she's really cold and distant, has been from the moment I first met her-- which is funny, because she's a folk singer, and aren't they supposed to be all warm and fuzzy? Well not this one, it seems like she'd like to stab me in the eye. I don't know, I'm a somewhat large dude, and some people pick me out as a jock or something when they first meet me. I wear baseball caps and stuff. So maybe that's it; or maybe she's just a bitch, who knows? Anyways, she was there, and never said hi, and I just felt dumb and left after a short time. Reaaaally cray cray, yeah I know.
I've been keeping in touch with the O.G. (Original Girl) though, so something may come of that yet. (I'm resisting the urge to make a dirty joke here.) I've also been in touch with my ex again, texting back and forth, and I'm writing her a letter (nothing too dramatic, just updating her on stuff). As time goes by, she still stands out as the One for me. But it is what it is. I just hope something good is coming down the pike, because I do like living here; but this isolation stuff is so yesterday. Damn.
On vacation for a couple of lazy days in Santa Cruz. I have no major plans, other than to wander around, read and eat, which is pretty much what I like to do, given the time. I've already been to Pizza My Heart 3 times, which is ridiculous but godDAMN their pizza is good.
In more interesting news, after being single for what's felt like forever, I've been getting into shenanigans lately, which is what actually hanging out with people--especially girl people-- will do to you. I had my sights all set on this one girl, and apparently her friends all thought we were going to get together, when lo and behold I hooked up with one of her friends, and have seen her a couple of times since then, and it's been real interesting. It came out of nowhere. We were all at some club to see music, and the Potential Girl showed up late with a friend, and didn't hang out with the rest of us, and by that time, vibes had started happening between me and the Unexpected Girl, and before you know it I was buying her beer and sort of dancing with her, and Potential Girl kind of sidled up to me, but it was too late, and I ended up making out with Unexpected Girl, and now Potential Girl has not responded to my last couple FB messages or hung out when I'm there, and Unexpected Girl has come over to my apt, and etc etc. Still not sure about what's gonna happen with that one, but I'm so much more relaxed about that kind of stuff than before, what with all the crap that happened post-break up with the last girl. All a person would have to do would be to go to my early blog entries to see how bad it was for so long... I'm at the stage where I don't NEED to have some exacting, perfect relationship or planned future; if I am enjoying my time with her, and we're both attracted to each other, then that's what's important.
Lest anyone think I led that other girl on, it should be pointed out that nothing had ever happened between us, and we'd only hung out a couple of times, in a group. I had planned to make my move that night, but things changed. Which just goes to show you how important timing can be (I've been on the other side of that equation a few times myself, urgh), and how you've got to strike while the iron is hot.
I hope that other girl doesn't hate me now, because she's pretty cool, and I don't want to hurt her feelings. But hell, man; I'm glad I got something else going. It feels good, no matter what happens in the future.
Tomorrow I'm going to try new restaurants, go to book and record stores, go to the beach, maybe get some beers, maybe see a movie. Life's pretty nice right now, I admit it.
In more interesting news, after being single for what's felt like forever, I've been getting into shenanigans lately, which is what actually hanging out with people--especially girl people-- will do to you. I had my sights all set on this one girl, and apparently her friends all thought we were going to get together, when lo and behold I hooked up with one of her friends, and have seen her a couple of times since then, and it's been real interesting. It came out of nowhere. We were all at some club to see music, and the Potential Girl showed up late with a friend, and didn't hang out with the rest of us, and by that time, vibes had started happening between me and the Unexpected Girl, and before you know it I was buying her beer and sort of dancing with her, and Potential Girl kind of sidled up to me, but it was too late, and I ended up making out with Unexpected Girl, and now Potential Girl has not responded to my last couple FB messages or hung out when I'm there, and Unexpected Girl has come over to my apt, and etc etc. Still not sure about what's gonna happen with that one, but I'm so much more relaxed about that kind of stuff than before, what with all the crap that happened post-break up with the last girl. All a person would have to do would be to go to my early blog entries to see how bad it was for so long... I'm at the stage where I don't NEED to have some exacting, perfect relationship or planned future; if I am enjoying my time with her, and we're both attracted to each other, then that's what's important.
Lest anyone think I led that other girl on, it should be pointed out that nothing had ever happened between us, and we'd only hung out a couple of times, in a group. I had planned to make my move that night, but things changed. Which just goes to show you how important timing can be (I've been on the other side of that equation a few times myself, urgh), and how you've got to strike while the iron is hot.
I hope that other girl doesn't hate me now, because she's pretty cool, and I don't want to hurt her feelings. But hell, man; I'm glad I got something else going. It feels good, no matter what happens in the future.
Tomorrow I'm going to try new restaurants, go to book and record stores, go to the beach, maybe get some beers, maybe see a movie. Life's pretty nice right now, I admit it.
In class today, I looked up just in time to see a kid lean over and vomit all over his textbook; then lean over and vomit into his backpack. I told him, It's OK, you can go to the bathroom, 'cause the poor kid looked all guilty. Then he vomited on the floor, in the garbage can, and in the hallway on his way out. And I STILL taught those little motherfuckers for the next 10 minutes until the janitor came, because I AM A FUCKING PROFESSIONAL, people.
Teaching: glamorous.
Teaching: glamorous.
The rarest of rare: I actually took a Sick Day today. It wasn't a Super Bowl Hangover, I was just fighting a cold, and was DEAD tired when I woke up. It was so nice to sleep in, and I did until 11, which is unheard of for me. After a leisurely visit to the cafe, then I was very productive, working out and cleaning my apartment between mini-naps. Now I'm about to head out with a friend and see The Artist, the French silent film. I hope it's as good as everyone says it is. I've been waching a lot of TV shows on BluRay lately, and I'm in the mood for an old-fashioned film. It better not be boring, or my tired ass will be nodding off. Hope everyone is well...
