Log time coming...

I haven't done a new blog entry in over a year. So much has changed.

I've had two girlfriends, well I broke up with one I dated for about two months, and am currently dating a new girl:



She's 27, gorgeous, and into the same music pretty much as I am, and its been a very uncomplicated relationship thusfar. We talk once or twice a week, and go out clubbing twice per week.

Its kind of what I've been needing. A non-chatic distraction from work. I've wrapped myself up in my work for way too long. Partially because I don't trust anyone else to not screw it up, and partially because I have nothing else to care about.

I've been posting on another site for a long time, but that site is really slowing down and sucking, so I've been posting on myspace, vampirefreaks, and now here.

I'm buying this waist cincher:

Moving on up possibly?

Yeah in a way, I am. I was talking to a guy who seems like he has a pretty good deal on a 96 Toyota, only wants $2,000, and it books for $3500. I'm going to look around, but there's a good chance I'm going to look into buying it from him.

I beat the piss out of Command and Conquer: Generals. Beat all the missions with USA, China, and the GLA (terrorists). I played a bunch of matches in skirmish mode too, which is like multiplayer, but with the computer. Hopefully my friend Ron can get his shit together and we can play against each other online.

Speaking of video games, I plan on returning to my roots and I'm going to explore opening up a game review site again. Unlike last time, where I more or less went it on my own and then picked up a few reviewers on the way, and tried to copy the style of IGN/Gamespot, I'm taking a different approach.

First, I'm not going to start a site unless I get enough help. That means finding someone skilled in PHP, and numerous game reviewers.

Second, I'm not going to try and copy the style of IGN, because quite frankly I dont have the budget of IGN. Requiring 900 word plus reviews is too much on people who are just doing this for a hobby. So I'm going to have three people give their opinions on the game (probably like 400-500 word reviews each). Then the three review scores would be averaged to produce a score. I get so sick of the fanboys on IGN that review stuff and give ridiculously high scores, like 9.8 for Halo 2, and 9.9 for GTA: San Andreas.

I got the idea for this format watching G4tv.com the show. The two girls and the guy were arguing over Star Fox Assault, the one loved it, the guy hated it, and the other chick was indifferent. It should be like that, things should balance out.

Anyhow, if you play a lot of video games, and like to write, or know PHP, let me know. I know a lot of basic html, as well as some design stuff, and I'm a pretty good writer, so this is definately a project I'd like to start up if there's interest.

I...FUCKING...HATE...FTP!!!

I spent two hours a couple nights ago trying to get my goddamn FTP program working so that I could update my website with a Blog.

This shit makes me feels so stupid. I learned HTML and how to make webpages. Problem is I learned it in 1996-1997, so I don't know anything about this newer stuff. I'll probably try to get the program working later tonight.

I've been selling stuff on ebay again, and I've improved my health by cutting out McDonalds completely. I was eating there 4-5 meals a week for a long time, and it was definately hurting my health. I was bitchy and unenergetic and blah. Yeah it sucked.

I've been playing two video games as of late. The first one is Command & Conquer: Generals:



Its a pretty standard military RTS, my friend got me into it when I went over his house last week. I bought it so I could learn it and kick his ass in it.

The other game I've been fucking around with is God of War:




I found the nudity to be slightly overhyped, I mean the girls have nice tits and all, you'd think every woman in Greek times had breast implants they're so perky.

The gameplay however, is awesome. It gets a little hard at times, you have to have near flawless performances to beat some areas. Its a lot of fun.


If someone is knowledgeable in setting up FTP and putting up blogs, let me know. I'll sex you up if you can help me.

I took that pic about three weeks ago, you can still see the scar on my forehead, but the corset I'm wearing is pretty boss.

A few of you have been wondering what I'm up to, I've been in physical therapy 3 times a week, plus the fact that my work schedule has been shit as of late, CONSTANTLY reshuffling my schedule.

For those of you wondering about the SG fiction, I've been looking at it, a lot. Thinking over the story, and Chapter 1 just felt so much like a bad episode of Teen Titans that I'm not sure if I want to continue with it, revamp it, or start over and create a far superior version.

Well, I've been doing my best to recover from the crash, and I'm doing pretty well. My neck isn't killing me like it used to be, and the head wound is doing a lot better. The stitches are out and it looks like it will heal up pretty good.

I'm going through a creative funk right now, I sit down to work on Chapter 2 of the SB story, and its coming along rather slowly. I have these occasionally, its just a matter of me working through it or seeing something that motivates me to write more.

I bought:

http://heavyred.com/product.php?xProd=208&xSec=4&jssCart=c656412eef29c721c4a94c68923bcddf

this skirt, I think it will look really good on me, at least I hope.


I've got a thread here:

http://suicidegirls.com/boards/Lifestyle/63071/

about me going crazy. Feel free to stop by and tell me what you think.

My dad was dropping me off at work, and we're waiting to make the turn, and he all of a sudden says "Oh [censored]" and BAM my head slams forward into the dashboard, for some reason the airbags didn't deploy, and I'm lucky I wore my seatbelt, otherwise I would have went through the windshield. I heard the windows shatter and the crashing of metal. It was so sudden. We were rear-ended by a pickup truck doing somewhere between 30-40 mph.

After my head slams into the dash, I hold the front of my head cause it hurts, and my dad looks at me and says "You're bleeding" and I see drops of blood dripping on my pants. He gives me a handkerchief to hold on the wound, which I look at in the mirror, almost right between the eyes.

I look up again and like 4 cops are already there. My dad is out of the van and looking at the damage. Both our van and the guy's truck we're totalled. The paramedics get there and they were checking my spine to make sure nothing was broken and I felt okay at the time, and I go to the ambulance and I hear the guy in the van talking about how he was taking like 3 or 4 different medications.

So I ended up getting 12 stitches (11 on surface, 1 beneath) and my neck is getting sorer as the day has gone on, so I'm sure I'll feel like garbage tomorrow. My friend is a lawyer and since I've got an injury with permanent marks (scar on my forehead) I should be getting a nice settlement.

Well the past week and a half has been a bunch of streesful bullshit. I met this girl in D.C. through another online site, and we were talking through messenger and then on the cell phone, and things seemed great at first. Karen embalms bodies for a funeral home her parents own, and she seemed like a cool chick.

This girl has more issues then the cast of Party of Five. She has issues with her mother, her ex boyfriend, a past drug habit, and is too nervous to meet me, she's afraid she's going to have a panic attack.

Finally today I told her when she was ready to have a grown up, real relationship, look me up, otherwise stop wasting my time with the drama.

Ladies and gentlemen, if you got 1,000,001 issues, do not bother trying to get with me, I don't have the time to play counselor to everyone. And chances are nobody else does either, so if you've got a ton of issues to work through, maybe searching for a boyfriend or girlfriend is not a good idea.

Chapter One is up at:

http://www.ansharia.com/sg/

Writing chapter 1 was kind of tough, because I was fleshing out a lot of the characters, and its hard to find good villains to fight seven great heroines.

I decided to make Sin nice and powerful, her name makes her sound villainous, and her abilities, which include flight, able to project magical energy, and most importantly, the ability to get people to act on their primal desires in the most disgusting way possible, make her an awesome villain.

I'll probably work on a few sketches for fun, and flesh out the website some more before I finish part 2.

Okay, I wasn't able to work on the fiction at all tonight, I was simply way too tired, I work at a pawn shop and around christmas time its super busy, and super tiring. But I have off friday, so I'll be working on it thursday night, and hopefully I'll have the website up for it and everything.

So I'm thinking about doing a new Suicideboys set in the near future, if anyone has any ideas for a set feel free to let me know.

Oh and if you guys/girls have any more crazy plot ideas, feel free to post them up. Some of them could end up in a future chapter, while a few give me a good laugh.

<3 Always,

Takako Shimizu (not my real name, you have to email me nudes to get that)

Well, I've now officially started writing the Suicide Girls fiction. I feel a lot of pressure because this thing has become extremely popular, and with Norritt's excellent artwork, there's quite a buzz surrounding it, I'm hoping that it will live up to the hype.