i can easily say that right now, at this moment, and all weekend long. i have never been happier in my life!!!!
i canceled my trip to cali. wow i didnt realize how much the idea of going was bringing me down. i was paralized by the idea of it.
i had an epiphany at COSM. This is my home! i belong here, i mean a lot to my friends who love me as much as i love them. and i have the most amazing boyfriend in the world. who understands my craziness just as well as i understand his.
every fantasy that i had as i was trapped in my dead end marriage in a world i didnt want to live in is coming true. i had givien up all hope and now my lust for life has been restored. my insecurities are falling away. i can see myself reflected in other people, even if i cant see it in the mirror yet.
of course i still have a lot of healing to do, PTSD to deal with and such ickyness but even knowing that, i am still happy i've never felt so filled with it before. i want to capture this feeling in a bottle and gaze upon it when the downs come. something to remind me that i CAN feel happiness. it isn't just for other people.
i feel like i've finally caught up with the other me, the one that branched off into another parallel when i was a child. the me that i watched get all the things that were meant for me, the quantum me. i feel like we are slowly but surely joining up.
much love, hugs and namaste to all my peeps
i canceled my trip to cali. wow i didnt realize how much the idea of going was bringing me down. i was paralized by the idea of it.
i had an epiphany at COSM. This is my home! i belong here, i mean a lot to my friends who love me as much as i love them. and i have the most amazing boyfriend in the world. who understands my craziness just as well as i understand his.
every fantasy that i had as i was trapped in my dead end marriage in a world i didnt want to live in is coming true. i had givien up all hope and now my lust for life has been restored. my insecurities are falling away. i can see myself reflected in other people, even if i cant see it in the mirror yet.
of course i still have a lot of healing to do, PTSD to deal with and such ickyness but even knowing that, i am still happy i've never felt so filled with it before. i want to capture this feeling in a bottle and gaze upon it when the downs come. something to remind me that i CAN feel happiness. it isn't just for other people.
i feel like i've finally caught up with the other me, the one that branched off into another parallel when i was a child. the me that i watched get all the things that were meant for me, the quantum me. i feel like we are slowly but surely joining up.
much love, hugs and namaste to all my peeps
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zups:
I'm glad that you're so happy girl
pagoo: