I'm supposed to be getting out more.
Doing more.
Hanging out with people and things of that sort, I assume.

For those of you who do not know me, which is anyone that would read this, I am not a social person.
I am not the type of person who goes out and does things with people, sadly.
Half the problem is that I am not invited to parties or outings and the other half is that I don't care.
I like what I do for work, that's why I picked what I do in fact, and I enjoy, greatly, hanging out and doing things with my girlfriend.
She has her own friends and it's at her request that I'm trying to be more outgoing and social.
She worries about me when she's out having fun because I'm not.
I'm staying in.
Playing games on Newgrounds.
If I have beer in the house, drinking, alone.

Having friends is more effort than this hopeless devotee can muster.

My life has been completely and totally normal, therefore there has been nothing to report.
That's has been, as in was.
My life right now is somewhat confusing once more.
My girlfriend and I have to work out something that may or may not be an issue.
I'm assuming it's not an issue, because I don't think it's a big deal, but we'll see how it goes down.
I'm overworked.
I don't have many, if any, friends. I forsook all friends I had in order to be with my current girlfriend (there was 2 tons of drama) and to move to Boston and haven't really tried to make any since. I see people sometimes, but we're not really "friends" like buddy-buddy friends.
I need to exercise.

I think everything will be alright though.
If it isn't, then it will be in time.
If I run out of time, well, at least I made a good run of it, right?

This isn't news so much as it is complete and total rubbish.

Work will probably be the death of me.
School is school. I want to devote more time to it, but I cant because of that whole dying due to an over encumbered work schedule.
Kristin hasn't spent the last few nights here.
I don't know what that means, but I don't think it can be good.
I don't want her slipping back to the point in time where she was when we first met.
It caused a lot of problems for her.
I don't want her to slip away from me, but there's nothing I can do to prevent that that I haven't been doing always.
My life's screwed.
Fuck.

My girlfriend and I have found a new apartment.
It's a two bedroom. Quite big enough for the both of us.
It's not horribly priced, especially for the area it's in.
We're moving in soon.

Rush, rush, rush. Work, work work. School, study, sleep. Live, shit, die.

So on and so forth.

I hope that when I die they put something really cool on my headstone.
I wonder what will be "cool" when I'm old.
Weird, fucking weird.

There are certain points in any person's life that they drudge up memories that should either be long forgotten or subsidized and spread thin among the real estate of the brain so as not to attract attention from one another.

Today, for me, is one of those days.

I think it's because I've been working too much. I think that by doing so I've over-exhausted my brain to such an extent that I'm no longer able to surpress what I have for such a long time. To clarify, I'm taking about what a fucking dick I was to three young women who, undeservedly, suffered at least minute emotional stress at our rather inhospitable parting-of-ways. To those three young women, I'm sorry. Truly, I'm deeply sorry. As an introspective thought, I do believe that the reason for the emotional stress and / or trauma I may or may not have caused stems from the fact that I never had a mother growing up and am, or was rather, forced to constantly supplement my life with a loving and nurturing female. Maybe I still am and perhaps it will always be that way.

Anyways, due to a massive deflation of my ego and many other factors I wish to extend my sincerest apologies.

If anyone is wondering what happened: To the first I was an insincere asshole who just stopped feeling, to the second I was a needy bastard, and to the third I was too close for her then relationship's good.

I don't have anything to update really, except for the fact that my five roommates and I got served an eviction notice yesterday. The reason is still unknown to me except that it appears as though one of us has missed a single rent check (it's still unknown to us which one of us it is) and that we've been charged twice for February's rent.

We're going to fight it and that's cool and all, but my girlfriend and I are planning on moving out and getting our own apartment as soon as we possibly can anyways. Hopefully, this "eviction" will serve as nothing more than a way to avoid opting out of the lease and paying more money. Think about the positive side of things, right?

I wrote a really meaningful and heartfelt blog about my mother's incarceration and when i went to post it SG redirected me to a page politely describing that it would be back in a few minutes due to excessive traffic.
Needless to say, my blog did not get posted.

I had a Johnny Cash quote and everything and I'm totally serious about it being meaningful and heartfelt.
Fuck.

The total hours of work I put in during a single week:
-----Time in School: 15 hours
-----Time at Internship: 20 hours
-----Time at work: ~25 hours
-----Time for homework: ~10 hours, if and when I can do it
-----Total: ~70 hours a week, not including time to do normal things like shop, eat, or travel time.

This schedule is killing me, both figuratively and literally.
I've got to do something about it, because I can't keep it up like this. I'm falling behind in school and I can't let that happen. I need to work to pay rent, but I need the internship because it's great for my portfolio, resume, and could lead to potential job leads directly afterward. Even if it doesn't, it'll land me a great job after my second or third internship, both of which are scheduled to be completed before I graduate.

Anyone know of a way to make money quicker than working as a Mac Specialist at the Apple store?
I'm open to suggestions.

I'm interning at Liquid Advertising, LiquidAd.com. I'm pretty sure I'll be there until early to mid December, but maybe a bit longer. I think that I might be getting some freelance work there as well.
School is going, but I'm a little behind. I have to catch up.
If I ever finish this Content Management System that I'm doing right now I'll post an example of it for anyone that's interested.

Blah blah blah, blibbity blah blah. I know, I know, my life is so amazing that you want to keep reading about it. Alright, I'll work on getting something together for a decent blog one of these days.

New in my top ten things to hate: People who grade SG or women in general as if they were things or pieces of meat.

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