Dinner at In The Raw you say? Why yes! I will indulge in these fancy overpriced delicacies!

Life's a funny thing. One minute, you want to die, the next, you couldn't be more happy you're alive.

Cheers!

I've been busy. New job, musical, classes. I really do enjoy performing live for audiences. Doesn't really matter whether I'm getting paid or not. Making music with other people just fucking rocks.

New job orientation tomorrow. Woot woot! I get paid for 8 hours of spacing out and signing forms tomorrow!

Oh noes! I has teh fluzors. Boo-urns!

Okay. I guess I'm checking in. Not with anyone in particular. Just to get my thoughts down.

It's been over a month since I quit drinking regularly. Last I checked I had lost like 20 lbs or something. I'll check again. Regardless of pound count, I've definitely lost inches around the waist. That is very visibly apparent. Either that or my belt has decided to stretch immensely. I'm going more with lost inches. So yay!

I moved back into my house in Tulsa. I'm happy to be done living with Kristin. Yeah, it cost me some money. Especially since she owes me 3 months in utilities. Oh well. I'm almost okay with losing that money just because things ended on a bad note with Kristin. Frees me up from any sort of friendly obligation I feel towards her. She can fuck right off. There is definitely way less drama in my life now. It's amazing! I love it!

Well, the laptop I ordered to replace this one isn't coming I guess. I ordered it on the 28th of November, and they just a day ago informed me that it was on back order after insisting for 3 weeks that it would be here by Christmas. So that sucks.

I started play Star Wars: The Old Republic. Man, I can't believe I didn't start this up sooner! So much fun! Hmm...What else? I beat Portal 2. I got a C in Physics for Scientists and Engineers. At least I passed. Worst instructor ever! Oh, and I got my hair cut. I'll post a new picture soon.

My best friend Tyler is back from Connecticut. It's hard to believe that until a couple months ago, I hadn't spoken to him in years. I pretty much started crying when we were talking again. Next thing I knew, he came back to visit. After his visit, his girlfriend ended up breaking up with him. Now my childhood friend of forever is back and we can actually hang out and talk on a regular basis. It's insanely amazing for me, even though I am fully aware he's in a lot of pain right now. I wish he weren't hurting so much. I know he loved that girl very dearly. They've been together for as long as I can remember, aside from a short break. I'm doing my best to be there for him. He's always been pretty good at being there for me, despite his introverted nature.

Happy 12/21/12! Oh and happy holidays! I don't enjoy them, but if that's your thing, cheers!

I've definitely found myself growing more antisocial. I definitely get out less.

I've lost 10 lbs since I quit drinking. I dunno whether or not I actually feel better, but at least I'm in control and I'm saving money like crazy. I've had 2 drinks since I quit. One to celebrate Obama's reelection, and one to celebrate a month of not drinking all the time. I suppose they're wrong about the whole not being able to control yourself or being able to stop once you take a sip. Either that or I must have crazy willpower that no one else seems to possess.

The argument between my roommate and I cleared up. She's rather shallow. I swear it only took her getting angry at someone else for all that rage directed at me to just vanish.

I'm moving back into my cozy old house. A little at a time, I bring more and more of my stuff to town with me and leave it back at my old house. My sister is supposedly moving in there to help me pay rent. I've lived with her before at least. Should be totally chill.

So 3 of my classes next semester are online. That should be interesting. I'mma have to be on top of things and try to work ahead as much as possible. Definitely can't afford to forget to check the interwebz frequently for assignments, etc. I'm also switching my major from chemical engineering to electrical engineering. I'm thinking I want to go into some sort of research involving electricity and new, better types of generators. Maybe find some way to make energy virtually free for everyone. Chemical engineering seems to be mostly focused on process engineering for the most part. Effectively, chemical engineers just find ways to mass produce what's already been discovered. Maybe I'm wrong. I just didn't see a whole lot of research opportunities for what I'd want to do with it.

I'm aware no one really reads this blog. That's fine. I suppose I mostly just write it to get things off my chest. I can think and articulate what I actually want to say rather than have the pressure of an immediate response or any sort of judgment related to what I'm saying. Yeah, I should really just write in a journal, especially since pretty much everyone who comes on here is looking to masturbate to a gorgeous tattooed/pierced model.

Meh.

I swear. My roommate and I get into the worst fights. It all starts up over trivial bullshit (like chores need done, clean up after your guests, I have a hard time sleeping when you party until 4am because our walls are paper thin), but she has to take it to a whole new level and try to make me feel like a shitty person.

Fuck that. I refuse to live with or be friends with someone who decides I'm an awful person every time I point out she hasn't been pulling her weight. We had particular agreements when we moved in together. She needs to stop slacking and quit with her bullshit rage. I have shit to do besides clean up her messes and become more and more sleep deprived.

There are a number of reasons I've been miserable lately. She's definitely a contributor. Time to move on.

For fuck's sake, too, I'm quitting drinking. How are you gonna get all pissy with me while I'm detoxing, physically ill, and irritable? Not to mention my car decided to break down AND I had a physics exam yesterday. I don't expect sympathy, but some fucking understanding would be excellent. This is not a good time to be picking fights.

Alright. So I've been sick since Saturday. Blows. I'm getting better, I think, but I'm still having pain and a significantly reduced appetite.

I really need to study for this Physics exam tomorrow. I've really been slacking on that due to being ill. I have been slightly more productive with practice at least. I managed to get in some due time on cello, and a smidge for piano and guitar. I've got to get back in the swing of things.

I'm apparently also an alcoholic. Oh well. One day at a time. I seriously embarrassed myself on Friday tho. Probably why I've been so sick too.

I think I died last night.

Well, I am certainly the source of my own destruction.

On the bright side, I think I've come back to my true love and passion, music. This engineering major is destroying my sanity and my happiness. Unfortunately, I'm in a bit of a financial bind as a result of this decision. I need to either get my shit together and work through these classes, hoping to pass and not fuck up my GPA, or I need to withdraw and find a part-time job really fast.

I taught a beginner's violin lesson today. It was fun! I hope she enjoyed learning as much as I enjoyed stumbling about teaching her. Pedagogy is really something I'm just going to have to cultivate. Especially since I have now decided that music is pretty much all I want to do. I also need to get in a regular habit of practicing and writing music as well. Time to fire up the old engines and get this plane off the ground.

So I mentioned I went to Memphis. I forgot to grab a picture at the wedding, but I got Beale Street.

I also went to my first college football game this past weekend with my friends James and Ali from Austin. It was brilliant! I don't really care about football, but it was still a good game. And I got to enjoy it with good peeps.

Pictures!