Hey, whoever reads this.

I'm just writing this because, well, I have no one to talk to about any of my stuff. I feel so lost and I feel as if I'm almost drowning in my life. I feel like there's so much going on I don't know where to start. My head just feels like one big clutter-filled mess, the thought of everything makes me so anxious. I haven't slept properly in weeks. I feel like I'm juggling so many things that I'm doing absolutely nothing if that makes sense?

I just started a fulltime babysitting job, 7 days a week, I'm also juggling my part-time pastry course at TAFE/college and I'm also doing a small business management course which I've barely touched and in the middle of that I'm trying to get my name out there and trying to run/start my own business..

I feel like escaping life. I just feel like running and running and running through complete greenery.. I just want to feel the crisp air brush against my skin as I run through the grass with the sun glistening and bouncing off my skin. I just want to enjoy life really.

My ideal life situation would be living in a little cottage in the country side of some European country with the water near me, so much greenery and blueberry bushes in the front of my cottage. My cottage would have a big rustic open kitchen with the scent of freshly baked bread permeating the house and just up the road would be my little patisserie, all organic and rustic looking. That would be my ideal life.

As much as I try to get help no one has time for me, there's no help and to be honest I'm tired of doing everything on my own. I wish I had some support from (at the very least) my family. And to be honest right now the only thing I could go for is a stiff drink and a hug. I feel so trapped in this house but I don't want to leave the house. I feel so trapped that I feel I'm losing myself as if I'm falling down a bottomless pit and the deeper I fall the more I feel I'm losing myself.

All I want is the simplest outcome for life. But sometimes the most simplistic things are the hardest to obtain.

SirenGC x

Oh sweet vegan.. how I missed you.

So I decided to go vegan again because it makes me feel amazing and lately i've just been put off by meat. Maybe my body's craving for some greenery. I've also been making my own natural face masks, toners and cleansers. I guess i've just been into cleansing my body of toxins..

And on that note.. here's a pic.

So I went on VF to see if it still existed...

What a fuckin' nightmare!!

A bunch of pathetic cunts trying to play mind games.. Fake accounts, stalking. I mean, what the fuck is that shit? Who the fuck keeps tabs on people they don't even know.. Shit like 'Ohhh you added someone on skype' blah blah blah..

So fucking what. THEY EVEN HAVE MULTIPLE PHONES. I MEAN SERIOUSLY?! So I play the game to test them and somehow I'm the fuckin' twat?!

Whatever. Now I'm getting my link posted by losers on that site. I mean what the fuck.

As for SOME of the people on VF, you're fucked and if I ever met him in person, i'd fuckin' crush his nutsack with a mallet and dip it in acid.

It's been a while!

I think I have bronchitis anywayy!

I got a new headband which i'm in love!

I stretched my ear up again, now i'm just over 1/2 inch!

and here's a shitty little selfie =]

Last night and today was fun. Not gonna lie, spent last night smoking in the park until my mate and I started to freeze so we stumbled home and watched movies 'till we passed out.. haha Then I spent today dying her hair.. I don't think I did too bad!

It's my birthday today!! 22..

I DESIGNED AN APRON FOR A BDAY PRESENT FOR MYSELF ♥


Got some work to do today sadly! But i'm going to make a big lamington tower.. haha.

It's my birthday today!! 22..

I DESIGNED AN APRON FOR A BDAY PRESENT FOR MYSELF ♥


Got some work to do today sadly! But i'm going to make a big lamington tower.. haha.

So drunk kinda horny really hungry..... my fb status says it allllll..

Goooooood night!!

I lost the top half of my dressss... before

After..

Tehehehehehehehehehe..

I'm so not keen to go out drinking with certain people tonight but I am.. So lets get in the spirit by wearing a low cut dress.. After all.. Cleavage makes the world go round, especially with polka dots!



I'm so bored, will somebody please entertain me and save me from boredom! I would muchly appreciate that especially since I have a 1hr train ride to my destination.. 1 hr to a shitty pub, ridiculous right?! Oh wells!!

<3