I'm on an apprenticeship & have to go to Development day 2 on Monday in Enfield to find out what will be expected from my final project in November & I also have my assessor visiting again on 28th & loads of foundation bakery/safety/procedures booklets to get done with no help from my manager. I say no help but bless him he's handed me the answer booklet for some of these which is fantastic but he doesn't seem to understand that me just copying answers with no explanation of what they mean will get me marks but be no bloody good at making me a good well trained baker. It's convienient for him because he hasn't got time to train me but he forgets that my assessor asks me questions & tries to catch me out.
I'm 28yrs old & haven't done studying or college style coursework in a decade & now I have all these projects to do & I'm sitting in the middle of'em just wanting to yell help! I know I can do'em. When I calm down & think logically I'll be alright but I've explained repeatedly that math is my weakness & I will need help. I've gotta do a math test & haven't used school style math, fractions & equations etc in years which is stressing me out. Just cos I did a "wonderful" english communications project & got 100% on my english test doesn't mean numeracy is gonna be ok. I feel like an old woman chucked back into an exam hall & told to get on with it. They keep telling me I'm doing brilliantly & gonna finish the course early but they don't seem to see I'm stressing, my manager isn't helping/training & I don't deal with pressure well. Damn it I'm on holiday! I shouldn't be mid-meltdown! I'm too old for this, my brain's been pickled in alcohol & gotten lazy for the past decade, I'm not a kid/student! I don't get half of this! Arrrggghh!!!!!
*Breathe* Will be alright in the end! Just keep telling myself that!
I'm 28yrs old & haven't done studying or college style coursework in a decade & now I have all these projects to do & I'm sitting in the middle of'em just wanting to yell help! I know I can do'em. When I calm down & think logically I'll be alright but I've explained repeatedly that math is my weakness & I will need help. I've gotta do a math test & haven't used school style math, fractions & equations etc in years which is stressing me out. Just cos I did a "wonderful" english communications project & got 100% on my english test doesn't mean numeracy is gonna be ok. I feel like an old woman chucked back into an exam hall & told to get on with it. They keep telling me I'm doing brilliantly & gonna finish the course early but they don't seem to see I'm stressing, my manager isn't helping/training & I don't deal with pressure well. Damn it I'm on holiday! I shouldn't be mid-meltdown! I'm too old for this, my brain's been pickled in alcohol & gotten lazy for the past decade, I'm not a kid/student! I don't get half of this! Arrrggghh!!!!!
*Breathe* Will be alright in the end! Just keep telling myself that!
irishlad_:
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